Scared, yet eerily calm

I'd originally posted in the Not diagnosed, but worried forum. I can't link to the post, but I'll paste the text at end.

But here I am now almost two months later even more terrified.

Long story short, had bloody discharge from right nipple. (discharge would change colors between red, brown, light yellow.) Saw primary dr who ordered diagnostic mammo. Dense breasts so needed US. Plumpness/firmness on side of right breast, but no lump. Area found on right breast and US-guided biopsy done. Results came back benign. But still had nipple discharge. Referred to BS and she could feel the firmness in area. Due to discharge, she ordered an MRI. Had MRI done and now I'm told that there are some enhanced areas in BOTH breasts. I didn't even have any issues with the left breast. The impression on the results are suspicious of malignancy. (After a benign biopsy!!!! How often does that happen?)

I'm really not up to speed on this terminology at all. But here's what I think are the main portions of my MRI results:

Right: avidly enhancing, homogenous non mass enhancement (3.8cm x 2.1 cm x 2.2) in regional distribution ... persistent enhancement. Biopsy pathology result of "benign fibrocystic changes" appears to be discordant with MRI findings. Recommend MRI biopsy of the abnormality given the suspicious morphology seen on MRI.

Left: avidly enhancing, linear non mass enhancement (5cm x 1.2cm x 0.5 cm) with persistent enhancement. Similar appearing, smaller enhancing foci and 1.5 cm linear nonmass enhancement are also scattered in central left breast. Recommend MRI guided biopsy for diagnosis. Management of similar appearing, non mass enhancing foci will be based on pathology results.

MRI BI-RADS: 4c

I'm scared, but eerily calm at the same time. I just don't know what to think about all this. My BS called me this morning and said she was putting in the order for the MRI biopsy today and that I should receive a call within the next week from scheduling. I suppose I'd assumed that I'd know either way if this was cancer or not by now. I never thought I'd just be in limbo. I'm sure many of you know what I mean, right?

ORIGINAL POST

A little over a month ago, I was scratching the side of my right breast. I looked down and saw that there was nipple discharge. It was a clearish/yellow color, but has since been bloody to orange-rust-colored to yellow. Currently only a small amount leaks out by itself, but if I put pressure on the top of my breast, the discharge changes from clearish/yellow to red.

I made an appt with my PCP, who then immediately scheduled me for a mammo. Had mamma and US last Tuesday. My breasts are very dense. Of course the tech and the doctor were both telling me that this was probably nothing to worry about. Though I said I was still concerned about the discharge. Well, the doctor must have been a little concerned as she felt it was a good idea to have an US-guided biopsy. I had that done just yesterday.

I wasn't really too concerned until I read my US report. I read it through, but when I saw BI-RADS 4B - intermediate suspicion of malignancy, I freaked out. In part, the report read:

"There is a 2cm vague, hypoechoic area with an indistinct margin in the right breast at 9 o'clock posterior depth 8cm from the nipple. This area is hypoechoic with posterior acoustic shadowing. This correlates with mammography findings."

So now I'm worried. And though i've read through tons of posts about not using Google to look up everything ... I'm afraid I've done just that.

Well, I just wanted to really get this out. I haven't told anyone except my sister and cousin. My parents and brother are all deceased, and I pretty much keep to myself. Anyway, is there anyone out there has dealt with this along with the nipple discharge?