Extreme pain with no end in sight!!! Please give me hope!!!

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Cosmogirl
Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30

I am stage 4 had chemo then surgery, started tamoxifen then had radiotherapy. I thought my pain was chemo pain but it never stopped after I finished chemo and has got worse.

I take 90mg Zomorph twice daily, 900mg Gabapentin 3 x day, regular paracetamol and ibuprofen as well as Oramorph 15ml every 2 hours. I take Amitriptyline to sleep otherwise my pain would keep me awake.

Each morning I take my morning meds and oramorph before I can even get out of bed. My whole body seizes up when I am asleep and it takes me until at least lunch time to stretch out. It's painful to do absolutely anything and I am beginning to lose all hope.

My pain management team have tweeked my meds over and over and nothing makes any difference.

Has anyone else been through this? My pain management team do not seem to have had this problem before with any patients and every one seems to be baffled? Surely I can not be the only one to suffer with this?

Thanks in advance

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  • Fitztwins
    Fitztwins Member Posts: 7,969
    edited January 2017

    Is it bone pain? I found relief with methodone. Also for cramping pain lots of water and Magnesium.

  • Cafelovr
    Cafelovr Member Posts: 1,534
    edited January 2017

    You poor thing! I can't relate, but I sure wish you good luck and relief!

    Heart

  • Cosmogirl
    Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30
    edited January 2017

    Hi Fitztwins and thank you for your reply.

    Its more like aching, over sensitive and seizing over my whole body. I wake up stiff and seized, meds take the edge off but I am never without pain.

    I was sick the other day and couldn't keep meds down so was without any pain relief for 16 hours. This left me unable to get up the stairs without mt wife helping me, then I climbed into bed and was stuck there for two days.

    Literally everything hurts... bones, joints, back, neck, hands and feet. It's painful to walk, to stand, to sit or to lie down.

    Once I have been in a position for a while my body becomes seized and I have to stretch out in agony to gain any movement.

    I feel like a lost cause as no one in my care team seems to know what is causing it nor how to treat it. All my CT scans, MRI scans and bloods come back fine.


  • Cosmogirl
    Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30
    edited January 2017

    Hi Cafelovr

    Thank you for your wishes, I wish you well, I wish everyone well, I wish us all well.


  • Freya244117
    Freya244117 Member Posts: 603
    edited January 2017

    You poor thing, it sounds horrendous. Since you have trouble keeping meds down, have they tried you with any patches (Fentanyl). I had great success with rads for bone met pain, but your pain doesn't seem to be in a specific spot. I really hope you find some relief soon

  • blainejennifer
    blainejennifer Member Posts: 1,848
    edited January 2017

    Cosmogirl,

    I,, too, have been racked with muscle spasms and seizures. Some nights, the mere act of lying down in bed starts my whole torso spasming. My MO has no idea what is causing it, as my blood work is just fine.

    When I first had chemo, the muscle spasms were smaller, but lately they've been huge. It's like being in labor, except that they mainly occur in my torso. And, they can be relentless.

    To keep them under control, I've been prescribed Flexeril (cyclobenzaprine). I take the maximum dose when it is bad. I also take a potassium and magnesium supplement, and can really tell the difference when I've run out and failed to take them. After taking the medication, I find it useful to stretch. Can't do it unmedicated, as it'll start the spasms up.

    Ask for some Flexeril, take potassium and magnesium supplements, and make good friends with heating pads and blankets. When you've got it managed, try to get some exercise daily. It gets much worse if I don't walk at least a mile a day. God, much worse. Seriously, walking helps.

    My personal belief is that it comes from some sort of nerve damage from the chemotherapies I've been on. When I can manage the spasms, I find it an even trade. Hey, I'm still living. But, when wracked with pain and unable to even sit comfortably, I re-examine the bargain.

    Hope you can get relief soon. We are all pulling for you.

    Jennifer

  • TarheelMichelle
    TarheelMichelle Member Posts: 871
    edited January 2017

    cosmogirl, I am so sorry you are in pain. Pain changes who we are, more than cancer, I think.

    I've had major pain issues along with my cancer. Like you and BlaineJennifer, I have had painful muscle spasms. Like a cramp, only much worse. It would often happen after a yawn. I would yawn, stretch my body slightly, then BAM, my back or legs would seize up. The pain would have me in tears. The spasms started during a clinical drug trial last year. I'm off the drug trial now, but the spasms have continued for 6 months. So I'm not sure if the drug or something else caused it. The cramps are less severe now. Epsom salt baths before bed seem to help my muscles relax.

    Something -- radiation, opiates for 5 years, or cancer treatment -- has made me hypersensitive to tiny amounts of pain. It is a known side effect, I just don't know which one is to blame. Small things cause excruciating pain. such as bruushing tangles out of my hair with a gentle brush. Breaking a fingernail can hurt for days. This isn't perception, it's real pain. I'm not sure if you are suffering from this on top of other pain. I am mentioning it because many doctors are not aware of it.

    Is your pain management team made up of hospice-trained doctors and nurses? I recommend it. I do not feel that all specialist understood the needs of Stage IV patients.

    Also, no one told me that i could build up a tolerance to pain medicine. I was scared when the pain medicine stopped workingl hospice pain doctor, I became an ambassador for the U.S. Pain Foundation, to help raise awareness of the pain we cancer patients are in. Please don't lose hope. You may just need to try some new medicines or new doctors to get relief.

    You mentioned that some days it's hard for you to get out of bed. For me, that was my signal that there was a problem -- if I didn't feel like getting up, even after taking all my meds, I knew I needed more help. It was also useful to keep a pain diary to show my doctors the extent and duration of my pain, rather than just saying "Yesterday was bad."

    I know this is a long post. I hope there is something here that can help you. The US Pain Foundation's website has resources as well.

    Gentle hugs to all who endure cancer pain.

  • stagefree
    stagefree Member Posts: 2,780
    edited January 2017

    Hi there!

    The first rule living with chronic pain is to be proactive. You should be taking your painkillers before the pain peels, and in many cases even starts.

    I occasionally have knee joint pain so severe, I cannot stand up by myself. I use fentanyl patches right on my knees, in addion to lıw dose morfine and codein.

    Drinking coffee helps the painkillers become more efficient.

    My pain docs rock! Their main concern is my QOL.. Not that I become a junkie.

    I reguarly use Lexapro & Xanax which also help keep sane and relax even sleep most of the time.

    I cannot promise you heaven, yet I figured with experience an MBC patient does not have to suffer with pain. Proper professionals DO help. I also have Tramadol prescribed regularly.

    Chemo pain, rads pain, mets pain.. AIs pain.. All can be kept under control

    Now........

    After MBC dx you have to adapt to your new normal. You do one activity per day, delegate as much as possible everything at home/work.. Have regular naps and regular walks outside which help the body gain and use energy properly.

    Your mood meds should be prescribed by a psychiatrist, they know the stuff best.

    Detoxing your life from negative environment / people regardless of how close they are is a must.

    Mood is the most efficient therapy.

    I have extensive bone/marrow mets, pleural effusions, kisney &lung liver & brain issues.. And still smile after almost five years:)

    Take a deep breath and start, girl!

    Hugs& love

    Ebru

  • stagefree
    stagefree Member Posts: 2,780
    edited January 2017

    oh, a great tip is to dissolve the pain med under your tongue! Before swallowing it. Starts acting immediately ;)

    Hugs

    Ebru

  • Tina2
    Tina2 Member Posts: 2,943
    edited January 2017

    Ebru, I love you. You've provided--along with the all the others who responded--great coaching for cosmogirl!

    Tina (who is toddling along after all these years)

  • SusanR
    SusanR Member Posts: 598
    edited January 2017

    Cosmogirl, are you being seen by a pain management team?  Our Oncologists are great, but they are focused on saving our lives.  A Pain management team will help you with the quality of life issues by getting your pain under control.  Good luck and don't settle!

    Much love,

    SusanR

  • Cosmogirl
    Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30
    edited January 2017

    Thank you all so much. I really appreciate all your comments and time.

    I have a pain management team at my local Hospice which I attend each Monday. I have a community Hospice nurse and I also see the lymphodema nurse there.

    My oncologist is happy as my cancer is stable so has no more to add. She did suggest coming off Tamoxifen for a few weeks to see if that helped but as I had the pain before I started to take Tamoxifen I am not about to play Russian Roulette with my life.

    My community nurse and the consultants at the Hospice have tweeked my meds many many times over the last 6 months and nothing has worked.

    I had an MRI done on my back and brain to see if there mas any nerve damage but that came back normal.

    My 3 monthly CT scans have come back normal, as have my bloods.

    I have also just finished a string of counselling sessions offered through my cancer care team.

    My wife and I live a very spiritual life. We live in the now. We practice positive mindsets daily and have Pagan values. We are very much at peace with ourselves, each other and our situation. We surround ourselves with positive people, have fantastic and supportive families and we live in very tranquil surroundings. We holiday a few times a year. My wife works part time and I do not need to work. We do not have money worries, a mortgage or children at home. We do not have the same every day worries and struggles that a lot of people do. My wife is Psychic, a Life Coach and a Counsellor.

    On a good day I walk our little dogs for 30 minutes but have to wait until the afternoon when my body is less sore. I tried the gym for cancer patients at our local hospital but this only increased my pain levels so had to stop. I tried light exercise at home but this too increased my pain levels.

    I take all my meds on time every day and take Oramorph every 2 hours without fail. I have a pill box fIlled with my meds for the week and carry this every where with me as well as my Oramorph. I have a Medisafe App on my phone which tell me when it is time to take my meds so I never miss a dose or am late with a dose.

    I have tried Accustuds, a TENS machine, Reiki, massage and meditation.

    One of the consultants did say to me that there is a very small number of people that suffer with chronic pain after such intensive treatment such as chemo that medicine and science simply can't explain. As they can't find the root cause they do not know how to treat it.

    Yesterday my community nurse said they wouldn't want to put my meds up any higher as I would be drowsy, sleepy etc and this would be no quality of life either.

    I am seein my cpsultant at the Hospice on Monday and would like some advice on what I should be saying or asking for. If any one is in that small number of people please help.

    Many thanks and keep strong & smiling


  • Freya244117
    Freya244117 Member Posts: 603
    edited January 2017

    Cosmogirl, if it was not for the cancer and pain, your life sounds idyllic, peaceful and full of love. I hope that came across the right way, it is how I feel about my life as well.

    I'm sorry I am no help on what questions to ask, but someone will be along with lots of advice to help. Just wanted to wish you all the best again, and hope they find some resolution for you soon. Take care.

  • TarheelMichelle
    TarheelMichelle Member Posts: 871
    edited January 2017

    cosmogirl, are you taking Tamox AND Aromasin? I couldn't tell from your signature if you were taking both. You mentioned Tamox.

    The ovarian suppression and both Tamox and Aromasin can cause aches. I don't mean mild discomfort. I had to stop Aromasin because the pain from the resulting estrogen loss was greater than cancer pain.

    You say you are stable, which is great, but your body has recently endured quite a bit of surgery, chemo and radiation. Healing can take more than weeks or months.

    If I were you, I would ask my pain management team if they have experience treating others in my condition. Reasonably healthy Stage IV patients may be a rarity for them. Ask if they can recommend other pain management professionals who take care of Stage IV breast cancer patients. You may need healing help from others associated with larger centers (if you live in a smaller town.) You might also ask about clinical trials for pain, ask whether your quality of life SHOULD be better, based on your treatment and current status. I do not agree with the blanket assumption that higher levels of pain medicine make you sleepy/drowsy. I'm not sure if that's exactly what your doctor meant. Just speaking from my experience, higher doses of most opiates haven't made me sleepy or drowsy. Would it be worth trying on a short term basis, just to see if pain relief could be achieved?

    You have tried many methods of healing and pain. That is admirable. Other treatments that come to mind are yoga, Pilates, water exercise, lymphatic massage and steam baths.

    Good luck to you. I hope your pain decreases quickly.

  • Fitztwins
    Fitztwins Member Posts: 7,969
    edited January 2017

    Is there any chance you have autoimmune disease also? like Rheumatoid Arthritis? that is what your symptoms sound like (my friend has this).which is chronic pain. I believe you can get tested for this.....because if so, you could get relief from other drugs like humara or remicade.

    I get the pains in only one area like your described. It is usually when I am dehydrated and low on magnesium.

    I would recommend going to another doctor, not cancer related that deals with auto immune or ask your oncologist to run a test for RA. Just a shot in the dark.


    Chronic pain sucks.

  • stagefree
    stagefree Member Posts: 2,780
    edited January 2017

    dear Fitz,

    I was thinking the exact possibility as almost no response to such good meds and all. DH has rheymatoid Arthiritis... Not fun at all!

    It's great that your wife's a pro in all these supportive methods.. Just my MO's two cents.. As the lymphetic system is the highway for the c-buggers, massaging etc is strictly forbidden -in my case- to avoid promoting their options for further invasion of the body.. Of course this is a view in my case / specific condition..

    Dearest Tina, you all have been such great sisters over the years for me, I sincerely hope to be of some help if possible.. İn any way possible :))

    Arthiritis along w/ MBC is no fun at all, especially in the inflammation period, during which massages etc (esp spa) should be avoided.. Do hope your is not the situation Cosmo, if other sisters reading this have such a condition, this is my country's top notch dr's strict view.

    My current codein based formula works wonders even alone.. Which of course I cannot share here due to ethical reasons. I suggest you do ask for it from your Pain Team. I have experienced 8/10 pain , confirmed by drs.. No more of that any more.. Lucky me ;)

    Since dx, there have been many occasions conforming drs and Current medical protocols in my country are in fact much preferrable / eveb considered better than many leading countries of the world. I try to post based on scientific evidence and admit I am lucky to have the best team of docs (teaching professors / among few in the world) so I do hope my mention location does not seem odc in any way to you dear Cosmo :)

    Hope for better days for you.

    Ebru



  • Cosmogirl
    Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30
    edited January 2017

    Hey Stagefree & everyone else

    I to have been advised by my lymphodema nurse not to massage my right arm, shoulder, right back and chest areas. My team feel that there is too much risk in my cancer being moved through the lymph vessels to healthier parts of my body.

    I have kept a pain diary for 6 months and an indepth list of what and when drugs were added or removed.

    I log what my pain is out of 10 each day, what activities I have done that day and look for patterns in when my pain spikes.

    I also keep a list of any problems/ailments I have and when they improve or decline.

    I first told my oncologist about my pain 6 weeks after chemo finished. I told him that I had expected to feel much better than I did seeing as I hadn't had chemo for six weeks, he also felt that I should be feeling much better. I explained that through chemo I that that all the pain was chemo related but since finishing chemo my pain had continued and increased.

    I was then referred to my local Hospice and they have been managing my pain for the last 6 months. According to my Hospice nurse I am on a lot of medication and it is unusual for the amount that I am on not to help the pain.

    Would Arthritis not have shown up on any of the scans I have had done?

    Codein based formula... what is this?

    odc... what is this?

    Many thanks to you all

  • Freya244117
    Freya244117 Member Posts: 603
    edited January 2017

    Hi Cosmogirl, I was just reading this article and thought of you. I know it is from 2010, but it could still be something to ask your pain team about. It is about using steroids to help with pain relief.

  • Cosmogirl
    Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30
    edited January 2017

    Thank you Freya.

    What an interesting article, much appreciation for sending me the link and for having me in thought. I am listing all the options shared with me on here for when I talk to my pain team on Monday.

    Being a very open minded person, I am happy to explore all avenues, be it scientific, physical or spiritual.

    Warmest wishes to us all

  • Lisey
    Lisey Member Posts: 1,053
    edited January 2017

    I'm not stage 4, but hope y'all will forgive me from posting. I am going to suggest you get your enzyme pathways tested. I had horrible pain that oxycodine couldn't control - nothing worked. I paid $150 to Kailos Genetics for their complete genetics testing on the medicine pathways (I mostly did this for Tamoxifen) and come to find out, I'm not able to process most of the major pain drugs due to a double mutation on the pathway those pain meds use. Now that I know this, it makes sense why my pain was never handled properly... and there are alternate pathway medicines suggested that the docs never considered.

    You get a 60 page report that goes into all the different pathways and which ones work for you or not. I highly suggest those who are struggling with medicines to get it.

    https://www.kailosgenetics.com/pgxcomplete

  • JFL
    JFL Member Posts: 1,947
    edited January 2017

    Sounds awful. I hope you can find some relief soon.

    Cymbalta can help with nerve-related pain and joint pain from treatment. May be something to consider if pain meds not helping. It worked WONDERS for my pain when I was on hormone therapy. Wellbutrin may also help with nerve pain (based on a few small studies) but it is not proven to the extent of Cymbalta. I am currently on Wellbutrin for fatigue and it does seem to help my arthritic neck/nerve pain somewhat but not like Cymbalta. Tramadol may be another alternative as it has painkilling properties as well as antidepressant properties (which may target nerve pain from a different angle). Muscle relaxants (Flexeril/cyclobenzaprine) are another option.

    Cherries are also known to be a potent aid for pain, supposedly as good as ibuprofen. I keep cherries in the fridge as much as possible and feel they do take the edge off.

    Dehydration may be aggravating/triggering the cramping up. I do get excruciatingly painful cramps in my calves when I sleep now. I feel dehydration from xeloda/xgeva triggers this. No matter how much water I drink, I still feel dehydrated.

    There is also a possibility the pain/cramping is from fibromyalgia or an auto-immune disorder.

  • Fitztwins
    Fitztwins Member Posts: 7,969
    edited January 2017

    Blood tests

    People with rheumatoid arthritis often have an elevated erythrocyte sedimentation rate (ESR, or sed rate) or C-reactive protein (CRP), which may indicate the presence of an inflammatory process in the body. Other common blood tests look for rheumatoid factor and anti-cyclic citrullinated peptide (anti-CCP) antibodies.

    Imaging tests

    Your doctor may recommend X-rays to help track the progression of rheumatoid arthritis in your joints over time. MRI and ultrasound tests can help your doctor judge the severity of the disease in your body.

  • Heidihill
    Heidihill Member Posts: 5,476
    edited January 2017

    I hope you can work the problem out with your doctor today. Corticosteroids have helped me in the past but doctors don't want to prescribe them for too long unless they are small enough doses. Celebrex has also worked for me. I've also been prescribed  muscle relaxants but never took them. 

  • LRM216
    LRM216 Member Posts: 2,115
    edited January 2017

    Please discuss the possibility of methadone (either pill or intravenous if needed) with your pain management team. It was the only thing that gave my daughter relief and yet still let her function. I wish you all the best.

  • Noni
    Noni Member Posts: 327
    edited January 2017

    I was confused about your tamoxifen too. If you you are still on it I would say taking a break may good a good first step. I had chemo that made me feel bad, and when I switched to tamoxifen it was absolute hell. I had all over pain and nothing seemed to help, other than keeping myself drugged up and asleep all day, and that's not an option.

    My MO didn't think the pain could. Be from the tamoxifen and thought it may be fibromyalgia. Before I went on that path I decided to take a tamoxifen break and it turned out to be the culprit. After the first week I was already feel relief and things only got better.

    It's worth a shot. Regardless I hope you find some sort of relief, and good.

  • Cosmogirl
    Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30
    edited January 2017

    Thank you all for your messages and a wealth of information.

    After seeing my consultant I have been given Fentanyl patches and referred to a chronic pain clinic. I am on my 3rd day of wearing the patch and have had some points of lower pain but still struggling. I will change my patch today for a new one and see how the next 3 days feel. The patch has replaced my Zomorph so I am physical taking less tablets but I wouldn't say the change in pain is dramatic enough to jump around about!

    My Oncologist still has nothing to add as my cancer is stable so as far as she is concerned, her job is done. She did however comment that she had never come across my situation before. That she had never had a patient describe or suffer with the amount and type of pain that I have.

    I have tried their recommendations of exercise (this nearly killed me) and acupuncture. Massage, talking therapy, meditation and mindfulness are all things my wife and I incorporate into everyday life anyway and none of this seems to make a difference either.

    I shall wait for my appointment at the chronic pain clinic and live in hope that the will be able to unearth the root cause and be be better equipped to deal with me.

    Again, thank you all.

  • Freya244117
    Freya244117 Member Posts: 603
    edited January 2017

    Cosmogirl, I hope the Fentanyl has kicked in and in giving you some sort of relief. I remember a time when my bone met pain was not under control, I would cry to be pain free for just 5 minutes. Relentless pain affects you more than physically, it is debilitating mentally. What you are going through is so much worse than I ever did and you are amazing to have coped this well.

    You are often in my thoughts, best wishes.

  • stagefree
    stagefree Member Posts: 2,780
    edited January 2017

    hi cosmo,

    Glad you have the pain clinic taking control.. I use Fentanyl patches myself, the lowest dose.. still. Helps but not as effective alone as the rest ..

    tramadol with it (I am on 100mg) works eay better. Tramadol is not friendly to many, I am among the lucky ones to have bearable SEs.. but admit it IS harsh on the kidneys..

    codein based formula was prescribed by my pain doc and the pharmacist prepraed it into capsules. Well the formula is prescribed according to your own conditiın.

    I open the capsule and have the powder under my tongue 2-3 secs before gulping with water. The fastest relief ever!

    I also use Jurnista 8 mgs currently.. low dose morphine.

    Not using any of these regularly, rather according to my pain level.

    Healing hurts as well. Keep in mind there's a battle in your body!

    I enjoy my cup of coffee right after I use painkillets, as it helps the drugs acting more effectively. Learned that from a med article.. the caffein works in harmony with the painkillers.

    So much experience and info since dx! :) Hope You find rrelief soon. Remember: one activity per day, daily afternoon naps and feet up whennot have to be standing up. I sit on the backseat of the car not next to hubby mostly, for instance..

    you take care of ypur body as a baby's! :))) the less forcing, the better you feel. And keep waşking.

    Hugs Ebr

  • Cosmogirl
    Cosmogirl Member Posts: 30
    edited January 2017

    Thank you stagefree. I do love this site, such caring people.

    I can now say that things are on the up. I spoke to my GP and asked to increase my Fentynal Patch dose from 37mg to 75mg with the view to increase again next week if I am still in pain.

    I jumped from 37 to 75 last night and today I can honestly say that I feel a massive improvement and possibly the best pain day I have had since 2015. I have never been able to describe my pain as bearable, however, today is that day!

    My GP has assured me we can go up to 150mg Patches as a complete conversion of my Zomorph and 2 hourly Oramorph. I feel this is definitely the route for me. Changing a patch every 3 days is much better than taking almost 30 tablets a day and drinking 15ml of Oramorph every 2 hours.

    Today, I have had only two doses of Oramorph, no Zomoroh and only two Gabapantin so far.

    Yesterday I felt old before my time.... Today I feel 16 again!

    I am so very grateful to you all for being there with advice, experiences and a wealth of knowledge that is so difficult to find here in the UK.

  • pajim
    pajim Member Posts: 2,785
    edited January 2017

    Cosmogirl, that's awesome. Pain is so depressing and fatiguing. I hope the relief keeps coming!

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