Want to stop chemo

Its definitely an up and down ride, and sometimes I'm on this website too much and it adds to the feeling of it never ending (but so supportive too). I was suppose to have #6 of 6 last week, and was so ready to get it over with, and the platelets came back too low- delayed. Now I'm trying to mentally prepare once again for this week, and hope I can just get it done. Hang in there, others on the boards have commented like Keepgoing that Taxol was easier. My regimen has hit me harder each time, so I plan for the crappy week afterwards. I also still need to have surgery and there's possibly more chemo to come, but one step at a time! You can do this......

reina, glad to hear you will continue. I just had 5 of 12 taxol today and had 4 AC prior. It's def not a fun ride but look at it as I did when I embarked on this journey. 10 or so months for me(which is the projected time frame for the entire treatment including surgeries, chemo and rads) s nothing compared to the rest of your life. We need to tackle this beast with all that is avail as one person also said. Try to stay positive. I told myself I would have more good days than bad and I expect nothing less because I owe it to myself and my 6 year old twin boys! God is with you each and every step of the way as well as this support group and your family. If you speak spanish, which I'm sure you do going by your name on here, sige viviendo tu vida y defruta. Todo esto va a pasar y Dios ya te tiene en sus manos. Besos.

May

We are each so unique so there is no way to know what any of us will individually experience based on what someone else may have experienced.

For me, my 4 neoadjuvant DD A/Cwere not bad at all and did not slow me down at all. But the 12 weekly adjuvant Taxol were nasty - I was completely and utterly EXHAUSTED the entire time, basically just existing either in bed or on the couch in front of the TV.

When I saw my Chemo Dr before the 10th infusion, I talked with him about how completely exhausted I was he told me that it had done about 85% of what it could do so he was leaving it up to me to decide - he was putting in that I could quit at any time IF I wanted to. I didn't quit - one, I'm not quite and had/have always fought harder when the 'going gets tough'. Secondly, 85% of what Taxol could do was not enough - I had entered the 'battle' intent on doing everything offered me to win and I was set on WINNING.

My DX is different than yours and thus had a different prognosis. How could I have faced my Hubby (at time of DX had been married 34 yrs) and Son and told them that the IBC had come back when they had taken over everything I needed to do (house, cooking, pets and barn chores) so all I had to do was 'fight' IF I hadn't bothered to do all I could to keep it away?

Time frame for me was about 7 mths from presentation to last rad (prrsentation, DX, neoadjuvant Chemo, UMX, adjuvant Chemo, Rads).