stomach neoplasm

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MelsMontie
MelsMontie Member Posts: 72
edited November 2016 in Not Diagnosed With a Recurrence or Metastases but Concerned

One year before my bc dx, I had an colonoscopy and GED?  upper scope of stomach.  It showed a neoplasm in my stomach. After and Endoscopic Ultrasound, they said it was benign.  The Endoscopic Ultrasound was miserable. No sedation and uncomfortable. But..   Went through all my bc treatments.  It was "that time" again, (back in September) so went for the colonoscopy and upper, for routine since colon cancer is what got my birth mother.  Well, colonoscopy is fine... however... the "benign neoplasm" seems to have grown.  I am going in for my next Endoscopic Ultrasound tomorrow.  It took 2 months to get the appointment for this, and I let it just "go", not worried.  However... I pray it is just nerves, but eating has been way off.  I have had dry heaves once, almost thrown up a few times, and appetite is missing.  I knew bc mets to brain, lungs and bones most frequently, but had no idea the stomach could be something.  I went off my Aromasin  last January.  Doc wanted me on it for another 5 years.  I was tired of it, having completed the first 5 years..  Was I foolish?  Is that what has triggered this?  Everything I read for Endoscopic Ultrasound is pointing to cancer.... Now the day before... I am terrified.  My gastro guy said they knock you out for this, but last time they didn't.  It was horrible.  What was suppose to take 60 minutes, he wrapped up in less than 10 last time, and I felt it was because I was making "uncomfortable" sounds.  I felt like he had CNN cables running down my throat. I think I was told at one point, that he biopsied the wrong spot... This doctor seems to be the only one around that can do this test.  He better knock me out this time.   I don't think I can handle bad news again...  my poor husband.  He is a saint compared to most men.  He took excellent care of me through bc.  (so spoiled, I still don't cook)  I am 55 years old.  Today is going to be worthless.... I have too many fears racing through my head.   

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  • Beatmon
    Beatmon Member Posts: 1,562
    edited November 2016

    Dear Melsmontie, I surely hope your procedure goes better this time. Hopefully you will be able to recover quickly and find out what is going on. Brenda

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  • Toscaxoxo
    Toscaxoxo Member Posts: 18
    edited November 2016

    I am so sorry you have to go through this. Please remember, no matter what, that you have the right to be sedated and comfortable during the procedure. Insist on it. They probably do not want to sedate you because it takes longer. Too bad or them. You deserve excellent care.

    Also, no matter what happens, do not blame yourself. This cancer business is far from a perfect science. There is no insurance against recurrence, unfortunately. It's no one's fault if the cancer comes back. My MO told me that sometimes stage 1 teeny tumor no nodes comes back while my gnarly Stage 3 might not progress. You just do the best you can. I am thinking of you and wishing you the best.

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  • MelsMontie
    MelsMontie Member Posts: 72
    edited November 2016

    Toscaxoxo, thank you.

    Things went horrible. I was told to be there at 5:15 am. We left home at 4:15. After waiting over an hour, I asked how long? She got back to me , at least 1 and 1/2 hours before I would be called back. I was asked a thousand questions, more than when I had double masectomyy. Well, it took forever to get in Operating room. I waited in there. Finally out i went. I guess I stopped breathing so they intubated me. He took 3 biopsies. I was begging for lidocaine as soon as I woke up. Today every inch of my body hurts from the waist up. To say the least, I called for pain pills, and they called in Z pak. I am not sick, I am so sore I am terrified of moving because of muscle pain.

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