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Mandy211282
Mandy211282 Member Posts: 4
edited November 2016 in Mental Health: Because Cancer Doesn't Just Affect Your Breasts

hey I couldnt find anywhere to go for answers so I just thought I would start a new one I was dignosed with stage 4 breast cancer almost 3 months ago I was fine and my relationship was fine but theraday I just flipped at my boyfriend he did nothing wrong and I started yelling and screaming at him then left and went to my mums I've been here since but every time I spoke to him I would just get angry and it was all different reasons for the rage, I just felt so much anger and hate towards him and made him know it I kept putting him down and saying anything and everything just to hurt him then on the Sunday night I had realised what I had been doing and felt so horribly guilty and low about it I just wanted everything to end my emotions have been so roar It just changed in an instant I dunno what's going on I'm only on tamoxifen for the cancer as it's doing it's job but was wondering if that aswell as getting my piriod has something to do with my unexpected anger. We have agreed to see a concellor and I will be staying at mums till we're both ready but was wondering if anyone else has been like this and what I could do to try and move on and not let it happen again? Thanx in advance

Amanda

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  • goodprognosis
    goodprognosis Member Posts: 251
    edited November 2016

    Hi Amanda I am so sorry that this disease has hit you so early in your life. It's so unfair. I read your heart breaking story on the 'would you share your stage IV story with us' thread.

    Be kind to yourself. You have only just been diagnosed, hospitalised, poked, prodded and stressed beyond belief!!!. Anyone would be short tempered.

    With regard to the Tamoxifen. I can relate to what you say. I became like a shrieking witch when taking it, screaming and ranting just to release the tension and frustration I was feeling. Hopefully, your body will adjust to it in time. Telling your boyfriend what you think is causing your anger would be a good way of helping him to understand too.

    You're doing the right thing getting some counselling. Your boyfriend is adjusting too, don't forget and I'm sure he is a good and decent guy who will try to understand and be there for you.

    Best of luck to you for your future treatments.

    P.S. There are many very good threads you can read and post in on the Stage IV forums, and other forums too, eg.

    https://community.breastcancer.org/forum/102/topics/833446

    https://community.breastcancer.org/forum/102/topics/744439

    GP

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  • Mandy211282
    Mandy211282 Member Posts: 4
    edited November 2016

    thank you for your reply I've been at my mums for a week now and I we started seeing each other again wendsday I just want to go slow it's been working we actually sit and talk and he has asked me a few questions about my feelings in things in which he never really did before. We enjoy each other's company again and I might sleeping over tonight! I don't think I'm ready to go back full time so we're jus just taking it day by day. Hopefully we can get back to out normal happy selves again.

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  • goodprognosis
    goodprognosis Member Posts: 251
    edited November 2016

    Best of luck to the two of you Amanda.

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