No Treatment or Choosing Only Specific Components of a Plan?

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  • eggroll
    eggroll Member Posts: 150
    edited June 2016

    I know how you feel... but of course Grade 1 Stage 1 is so fabulous to have, I have nothing to complain about. So I have to ask myself if these thoughts are from depression? Please don't make decisions based on emotions that will come and go... because a decision like what you are considering cannot be called back...

    In my case, not that anyone needs to hear my "logic," the hot flashes plague me all night. I don't know if it's sleep deprivation, but I have all 10 warning signs for Alzheimers, I wander around looking for things all day, my work takes triple the time, I can't find words, not recognizing people I know. I can't remember from one minute to the next what I was talking about, what I was looking for, what I was doing... I even drop stuff because I forget I'm holding it. I have to keep earning a certain amount of money for six more years and I feel so overwhelmed. Typing all day makes my boob swell up and hurt, "mild LE" sucks if you ask me... arthritis kicking in... I'm 51 and no one takes my symptoms seriously. Oh because I passed the Mini Mental test. Whoop de doo. "Welcome to middle age" my doc tells me. Since I have a pretty nice $300k life policy for about 10 more years, I can't help but think about that and how my family would be better off. I wonder why I went through the treatment today. But tomorrow maybe I'll be out there snorkeling in the bay and thinking wow life is grand. Maybe I'll want to live as long as I can. Have an appointment for a dental appliance for apnea treatment, hoping that will work... a year of different machines all failed. It could be lack of oxygen at night contributing to my problems.

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  • VLH
    VLH Member Posts: 1,258
    edited June 2016

    I'm so very sorry that you're struggling, eggroll.Those symptoms are clearly NOT typical for your age. I hope you can find a more sympathetic doctor. Sleep deprivation is horrible. When I was still trying to work full-time. I sometimes had to risk losing my job because the alternative was falling asleep while driving and killing someone's loved one. Please let us know if the new device helps.

    The consequences of my decision scare me. I just don't have the energy or motivation for the drug therapy for months, then surgery. I don't think my decision is driven by depression per se, but being knocked down repeatedly and having no realistic expectation that things will improve in the future is influencing my choices.


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