MRI for the first time

Hi, I hope this is the right place to post, I am new here, not even sure where to begin so I guess I will begin at the beginning.

My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2001. She opted for a lumpectomy, then chemo and radiation. After treatment she was diagnosed good health. Four years later in 2006 the breast cancer returned but on the outside lining of her lungs and after testing the cancer it came back triple negative. After a long battle of chemo every week for 4 years she passed away 6 years ago this September. Truth is I am still having a very difficult time, she wasn't just my mother she was my best friend.

In January I found a very large painful lump that came out of nowhere. Doctors put me on antibiotics immediately and did a mammogram and sonogram which came back with the results of mastitis, but they can see something there on the sonogram but they don't think at this point it was anything more then the mastitis. During the 4 weeks of antibiotics up until the last week I spent most of it in a great deal of pain. Doctors decided to do a genetic test on me and I came back positive for the same gene (chek 2) that can cause this triple negative breast cancer, the risk is low, so surgery is not an option at this point but have put me in a high risk category with a mammogram to be done at 6 months and then an MRI done 6 months later, for the rest of my life.

Today I had my first MRI. I have to say it was humiliating and the worst experience..I don't know how I am going to do this every year. The place felt dirty. The technician was a grumpy man and even seemed mad that he couldn't find a vein. When he finally found one in my hand he chased it causing a lot of pain. Then they had me get on the table on my chest on this thing and the pain was bad, I kept saying it hurt but they didn't seem to care too much. Once inside the tube it took all I had to not freak out and between the excruciating pain in my chest and the claustrophobia I barely made it through it. I kept thinking of my mom and the one person that means more to me than anything, even then I ended up having to push the button I couldn't take it anymore, he came in and was just need 30 more seconds. I lasted those 30 seconds but I can't do that again. When he took the IV out of my hand the guy didn't even put gloves on. I spent most of the drive home in tears, my hand killing me and unable to get comfortable in the seat because of my chest. It has now been 5 hours since I got out of the torture chamber and my chest is still killing me and my hand is swollen and already bruising.

Is the pain from the MRI normal? Is there another way it can be done without me having to be on my chest? With all the technology we have today it is beyond me why they haven't come up with suit we can wear that can do the same thing...or even a chamber that we can just stand in that moves around our bodies...something has got to be better than this.

Thank you for reading this and letting me ramble