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  • stagefree
    stagefree Member Posts: 2,780
    edited April 2016

    imageNancy dear,

    A photo of my DH working during my stay at the hospital :)) I am quite sure you are familiar with this scene.

    It's just a few minutes past 5am and I woke up to write to you, hoping you might be awake right now. My dearest sister, I am struggling to breathe most of the time, guess the PE has come back.. And with each aching breath, I think of you and smile.. You have been enduring so much more than myself and I still feel the support and inspiration from you. Noone and nothing else can or have done this, but you.. Right from the start.

    I am wishing for your comfort. I am thankful for Jake's love to you.. I am grateful to have met and known you..

    I wish the best from the deepest part of my heart for you.

    I don't know about your beliefs but I believe each star belongs to one of us. When I look up at night I feel relieved, knowing I have yet another home waiting for me. The energy of the universe has to mean something. That's my belief. Heaven and hell are here.. I expect so much better afterwards! For all of us :))) hope my star-home is close to yours.. Cos it's not been fair so far, me being on the other side of the world not being able to have a cup of coffee with you! :))

    Jake, I am happy to say I have a "Jake" too and it means so much. The love I see in his eyes make me forget my pain and I immediately start remembering the bestest of moments we have been sharing together. It sucks to deal with this crap, and it sucks even more to share it with your love. Well, so be it. Our love to our Dh s have far exceeded the crap we have been going through, right Nancy?

    Hugs love & hopes for a neighboring star-home to yours :)))

    Ebru


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  • Heidihill
    Heidihill Member Posts: 5,476
    edited April 2016

    Nancy, so glad you are home and your onc advocated a change that's making you feel better. Awesome!! I hope the new normal will be a much better and sustainable one. Thinking of you.

    Ebru, I hope they find a way to ease your breathing. May all your wishes come true.

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  • Kjones13
    Kjones13 Member Posts: 1,520
    edited April 2016

    thinking of you Nancy

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  • artistatheart
    artistatheart Member Posts: 2,176
    edited May 2016

    Thinking of you every day Nancy and hoping you are feeling more comfortable. Ebru, You also are such a bright light on this site, I wish all the same for you. Peace, comfort and joy. Your post was very beautiful.

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  • Andi67
    Andi67 Member Posts: 423
    edited May 2016

    Thinking of you Nancy. I check your blog every day for updates... I hope the "new normal" is a much more comfortable one. I am off to run in the pouring down rain... it seems that real spring is NEVER going to come to Colorado... one "winter storm" after another....it's probably the last thing I want to do but today you are inspiring me as I think of all the times you went out to run, even after a chemo treatment. I also picked up that book you talked about on another thread - When Breath Becomes Air, and I can hardly put it down, I hope you are warm and peaceful with your amazing husband and those two cutest bulldogs ever.

    And Ebru - wishing the same for you... warmth, peace and comfortable breathing.

    XO

    Andrea

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  • artistatheart
    artistatheart Member Posts: 2,176
    edited May 2016

    Thinking of you today too as everyday Nancy. Hope your heart is feeling peaceful. Andi, that was a very good book. It was uplifting for me. The rainy weather can't see to end in California either.....

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  • steelrose
    steelrose Member Posts: 3,798
    edited May 2016

    Thinking of you every day too, Nancy!

    Sending lots of love…

    Rose.

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  • RonnieKay
    RonnieKay Member Posts: 2,067
    edited May 2016

    I fell asleep, just as our M's were beating the A's (sorry CA sisters...but we relish wins!). Maybe you got a chance to listen to Cano's grand salamie (with mustard & rye bread...wink, wink) last week!

    Thinking of you always & praying you're feeling more comfortable....and the same for you, dear Ebru. I love reading our sisters' words of love...the words, "You mean the world to us" are quite authentic :-).

    Much love & hope that rest comes easy, pain is relieved, and love surrounds you just as big and enveloping as Jake's arms!!!!

    Good to see you, Andi!!

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  • teacher911
    teacher911 Member Posts: 853
    edited May 2016

    Nancy,

    Thinking of you and Jake and your families. Sending love and caring thoughts <3

    Michele

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  • GatorGal
    GatorGal Member Posts: 2,550
    edited May 2016

    Nancy and Jake, so glad you are finding comfort being back in the hospital where your nurses give you round the clock care. Keeping you and all who love you in my thoughts! Yes, it would take an entire hospital to hold all those who love you!! Gentle hugs. Glenn

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  • Andi67
    Andi67 Member Posts: 423
    edited May 2016

    Hi Nancy,

    Thinking of you, as usual. I am leaving tomorrow to go to Santa Barbara to run the Wine Country 1/2 marathon... my first race of any kind since being diagnosed and going through chemo. I would never be doing if it weren't for your inspiration (along with Springlake).... you will be on my mind every step (slow, slow step) of the way. I'm thinking of wearing my pink running skirt in honor of you and everyone else on BCO. I know you are well cared for in the hospital... hope you are finding comfort and some peace.

    XO

    Andi

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  • BionicBunny
    BionicBunny Member Posts: 146
    edited May 2016

    I'm glad Nancy is getting such good care in the hospital and is surrounded with love. Please add my love, hugs, and prayers for both of you.

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  • artistatheart
    artistatheart Member Posts: 2,176
    edited May 2016

    Sending love Nancy.....

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  • Longtermsurvivor
    Longtermsurvivor Member Posts: 1,438
    edited May 2016

    image

    This elder flower heart is for both Jake and Nancy - you are truly wise elders, deeply knowing in love and devotion.

    May our caring and loving kindness continue to bolster you both during these often challenging times.

    From my heart to yours, a song without end. May it offer you comfort and healing my friend. Tho I cannot go with you, your journey goes on. I can laugh with you, cry with you, sing till you've won your freedom from suff'ring, release from all fear. May you find all the love that you needed was here. From My Heart to Yours by Maria Culberson, Threshold Choir

    warmest healing wishes, Stephanie

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  • RonnieKay
    RonnieKay Member Posts: 2,067
    edited May 2016

    Ain't no mountain high enough to keep us from you! You are in our thoughts & hearts....day & night, Nancy. Thank you, Jake, for your loving updates....may God, your family & the excellent medical staff (all who hold your hand), keep you free from pain. Love and peace to our warrior sister...you are brave beyond words. Love always.

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  • Groovywilma
    Groovywilma Member Posts: 450
    edited May 2016

    Nancy and Jake,

    Sending you warm hugs and prayers for comfort and love. I hope you can enjoy some smiles and good stories. Big hugs to your dogs too! I hope you are resting well (both of you!). Listen to your favorite music!!! Thanks for the updates on the blog. It's good to know that you both seem to be well cared for during this challenging time.

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  • RonnieKay
    RonnieKay Member Posts: 2,067
    edited May 2016

    Thanks Jake, for another update on our dearest Nancy. To hear her say she inspires lots of glitter is just adorable & I bet those moments make your heart sing. It sounds like she's having peaceful rest & I'm glad you both have Wendy by your side. Prayers & thanks that Nancy is being cared for & loved by the multitude of people & even better...that she understands & feels it! May God keep you wrapped in His loving arms. XOXO

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  • Andi67
    Andi67 Member Posts: 423
    edited May 2016

    Nancy and Jake... sending you more loving thoughts and big hugs. I think of you both constantly... thank you for the updates and like RonnieKay said, so glad that Nancy understands how truly special and inspiring she is to all of us, in so many different ways. XOXO Andi

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  • teacher911
    teacher911 Member Posts: 853
    edited May 2016

    Jake, thank you for keeping us in the loop. Nancy, I hope you can feel the love, because we do love you. Sending love and support <3


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  • Rosevalley
    Rosevalley Member Posts: 3,061
    edited May 2016

    Nancy and Jake you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you are comfortable and at peace. Sending you lovingkindness and light for your journey. love rosevalley

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  • 50sgirl
    50sgirl Member Posts: 2,527
    edited May 2016

    Nancy and Jake, You are in my thoughts and prayers.


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  • Kandy
    Kandy Member Posts: 1,461
    edited May 2016

    Jake, thanks for giving us an update. I agree that she is full of glitter, making us all sparkle in some sort of way. We are all very grateful to have been touched by her love. I hope you are still comfortable and are getting the princess treatment that you deserve. I hope you feel the love from all of us around the world. Praying for peace and comfort.

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  • Kjones13
    Kjones13 Member Posts: 1,520
    edited May 2016

    never underestimate the power of glitter! Rest well sweet Nancy.

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  • artistatheart
    artistatheart Member Posts: 2,176
    edited May 2016

    I think of you every single day Glitter Girl! Sending loving thoughts to you.......

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  • GatorGal
    GatorGal Member Posts: 2,550
    edited May 2016

    Jake, thinking of you tonight as you sleep next to Nancy's side. The tremendous love and care you have shown in your blog posts has helped all of us who love Nancy from afar. And yes, she has helped many of us with her posts over the years. The glitter card said it all! Knowing she has you, and Wendy, by her side, makes it easier for us. Sending gentle hugs to all of you. Thankful that Nancy is at peace in the hospital and in awe at the wonderful relationship you both have with her oncologist. Blessings, Glenna aka Gator Ga

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  • Xavo
    Xavo Member Posts: 364
    edited May 2016

    I just read the update Jake wrote last night on Nancy in my early this morning (http://bynancysside.blogspot.com/). I'm heartbroken.

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  • Brendatrue
    Brendatrue Member Posts: 1,830
    edited May 2016

    image

    The beauty of Nancy's spirit, Jake's tender devotion, and their shared love is and always will be

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  • Andi67
    Andi67 Member Posts: 423
    edited May 2016

    Jake, thank you for continuing to take the time to update everyone on sweet Nancy, and for reassuring her of how much we love her and think of her when she can't read our words and updates. So glad you both have the comfort of such a special doctor at this difficult time.  You all continue to inspire, now more than ever.

    XOXO from Colorado,

    Andrea

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  • Longtermsurvivor
    Longtermsurvivor Member Posts: 1,438
    edited May 2016

    Sending healing love and light to surround Nancy and Jake.

    Nancy, may you be gently guided toward the light now.

    Jake, may you feel the embrace of love, even as you grieve.

    And may all at bco practice self-loving-kindness as our friend Nancy loses her familiar form.

    well wishing for all, Stephanie

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  • Kandy
    Kandy Member Posts: 1,461
    edited May 2016

    Thinking and praying for peace and comfort. My thoughts are with you Jake at such a difficult time. May you find peace in knowing how much Nancy is loved and has impacted so many lives.

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