Newly Diagnosed and Blessed

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Dawn66
Dawn66 Member Posts: 5
edited April 2016 in Just Diagnosed

I have been recently diagnosed with Stage 1B IDC triple neg. So far all test have come back with good results. I am scheduled for a lumpectomy on this week. I will receive chemo and radiation. I feel very blessed and it seems like my days are filled with thoughts of how lucky I am and how blessed I am because this could have been so much worse. Of course at hearing the news I had BC I was upset and scared half out of my mind. For 3 straight weeks every time I had an appointment with medical staff the news got worse and worse. Than the dreaded lung x-ray. Due to a family history this was the one that sent into the depths of fear. The x-ray was done on a Friday. By Monday I could barely function other than to cry. I made the call and found that my lungs were clear. The change was a 360. I then knew that although it would be a battle I could do this.

Since that day I have laughed more than usual, carried a real smile on my face, even am looking forward to the surgery, chemo and radiation. In my mind the faster I can get this done the faster I can get back in control.

I never want to offend anyone and I suppose there is no right or wrong way to handle this. I feel like this is just a bump in my road and I truly mean no offense to anyone. I realize this is serious but I am going to do this, get through it, learn from it and be a better me on the other side.

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  • Valstim52
    Valstim52 Member Posts: 1,324
    edited April 2016

    There is no right or wrong way to handle it. It's YOUR way. Positive attitude will get you through. Good for you. BCO will help you through this.

  • mustlovepoodles
    mustlovepoodles Member Posts: 2,825
    edited April 2016

    Agreed. Half of getting through the BC experience is attitude. Fear, grit, denial, determination, whatever, we choose how were going to manage the situation. Best of luck to you in the road

  • ElaineTherese
    ElaineTherese Member Posts: 3,328
    edited April 2016

    Yes, there's nothing wrong at all about maintaining a positive attitude. Throughout my treatment, I have always tried to look for the silver lining rather than at the sometimes depressing reality. Yes, I felt that impatience, too. However, because I was +++, active treatment was a marathon, not a sprint. It was really just about going step by step, recognizing that this too, shall pass. Best wishes to you for a successful treatment with few side effects!

  • Lindzanne
    Lindzanne Member Posts: 94
    edited April 2016

    I think it's great you posted about how positive you feel and the transitions you went through. I am in the place you were before---dreading each appointment until I get all the answers, even though so far all my providers are optimistic. I sometimes feel guilty I can't be more positive at the moment, but I think it's just one of the stages of grief as we get these diagnoses. Hearing about your light at the end of the tunnel is really helpful and inspiring---it makes me feel like no matter what all my answers end up being, I can reach acceptance and find gratitude for all I DO have. Thank you!

  • Dawn66
    Dawn66 Member Posts: 5
    edited April 2016

    Thank you all for the support. It's truly amazing the people who come out of the woodwork to support you.

    My surgery is tomorrow and I'm having emotional ups and downs but I know I'm getting rid of this crap. One step at a time and I'm ready.

    Bless every person that is on this board or even searching for answers.

    We are worriors!

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