Lumpectomy Lounge....let's talk!

ItalyChick GREAT NEWS!!!! Now breathe for awhile!!

HUGS!

Dear ItalyChick:  Yay!  You can breathe easy now. 

Dear Sandy:  Mazel Tov that you did not get hurt worse.  I am glad that you are ok.  Falls are terrifying. I hope that you won't be in worse pain tomorrow.  Seeing the Who must have been fantastic (if you can forget about the fall.)  I would not go to services either, if I were you. There is a lot of anti-semitism in Europe now.  Why tempt fate.

614, you are beautiful and congrats to your daughter!

Italychick, glad you got great news on the scans.

ChiSandy, Sorry to hear you fell, but glad nothing broken/torn/damaged.

I usually keep up on my phone but its too difficult to post, so hello to everyone. Even though I don't post much I am still in your pockets, wishing you all well, and sending comforting hugs when you are down. More than halfway through Rads. All ok, I just keep showing up and try not to overthink it all.

Sherri 614, you look so pretty and feminine being a pretend model! Congratulations to your daughter. That is so great!

Kaneli, it's great to hear how well you are doing so far. Just don't do too much too soon!

Queenmomcat, I believe the term is "rain shadow"

Theresa, such great news about your scans!! As far as osteopenia, I know my old physical therapist would tell you to get off the bike and walk more, to get more weight bearing exercise. Hopefully Prolia will help.

Sandy, wow, that fall sounded scary and uncomfortable. I hope your arm heals with no LE flareup. And I hope it doesn't hurt too bad!

Njnancy, I hope your procedure went fine today, and I'm in your pocket tomorrow.

Peggy, no shearing necessary for my sheep. They are low maintenance. Sometimes I pull clumps of wool off the fenceline where the sheep were rubbing. It is a low quality wool with hair mixed in, and might make good stuffing for a pet toy if I collected enough of it! I'm sure your DIL will have fun helping you decorate. I would have fun helping you decorate but you wouldn't like the result

Jill, thanks for the makeup link. I've added the item to my Amazon wish list to buy later.

Mairew, I've got the same attitude as you about rads. 9 more to go.

614, you are beautiful!

ItalyChick- Great news for you!

ChiSandy-I'm sorry you fell but I'm glad that you didn't do too much damage! In the last 5 years I've broken my ankle and had surgery on the other foot. You don't want that!

Heathnet- glad you are less stressed now that you have more info

Went to PS today to check my infected drain site and, surprise!, a metal like suture was half buried in the wound. Well no wonder it hurt like hell anytime I touched it! Or laid on it. Or looked at it, just about. I'm glad that it's out of there. Otherwise, it's so nice to be drain free, surgical tape free, and mostly, cancer FREE. I just hope that f@#$$@er doesn't think about coming back!

Iammags, Holy crap! A piece of metal? No wonder it got infected~! You ought to feel a LOT better in the next few days.

Heathet, I'm glad you have a plan now. You sound so much more in control now, less anxious. I think that is true for all of us. The waiting part was pretty hard for me. My mind just was awhirl thinking of all the possibilities, so it was a huge relief once I knew what I was dealing with and what my options were.

Just a quick note-

I am feeling better in terms of URI/fever, thanks MLP3. Saturday, the fever broke, but I still felt a step (or two) slow. I took it easy in anticipation of my hat party Sunday. I was able to go and have a good time. Yesterday and today was work, and I feel so wiped by the end of the day. I read the posts here while eating dinner, then I'm ready for bed. I am amazed at you women who not only work, but have family to take care of. It's just me and DH, who at least takes care of himself and helps take care of new, too. I honestly think at this point, I was just suffering from allergies. My onco must've said that even just allergies can cause a low grade fever (who knew?). This is the time of year that everyone's cars are covered in yellow pollen, and my drippy nose seems to correspond with the highest pollen days. Today was my second neupogen injection this round, so I'm walking like an old lady, and I hurt so much it's hard to think. I will leave you all with gentle hugs and well-wishes

so today was "interesting". Had the seed implantation first. Wasn't worried about it. Needles don't bother me but apparently lanacaid does. The first one was fine. Second one I got really quezz and ended up throwing up. Third one it was all over. I passed out. Woke up slating back with a million people in the room. Eventually felt better and they could finish. The doc said it wasn't a common side effect bit definitely something they had seen before. By the time I got to the lymph mapping a few hours later I felt fine

Hubby and I made the best of the night in the city. Dinner and show. It was fun. Surgery is tomorrow (today) morning. Can't wait to be done with it

Sandy- sorry about your fall but glad you didn't get hurt badly. Hope no LE issues! Enjoy your trip.

Italychick- YAY for the results!

Nancy- happy for you that you are doing so well!

614- congrats to your daughter- that's wonderful!

Everyone else- keeping up with you all and praying for you daily.

Dear Nancy:  I am glad that you are ok.  If I were you, I would get a medical alert bracelet that lists your allergy to Lanacaid.  I hope that your surgery goes well and that they get the margins.

Dear Iammags:  A metal suture???  Wow!  Thank God that they found it and removed it.  You should heal quickly now. 

Dear Moondust and Mairew:  Thanks.  Good luck with Rads. 

Dear Heathet:  Having a plan quells anxiety.  Good luck.

Dear JCLC:  I am a "city girl with a country heart" too.  I love animals, nature, and the woods.

Dear 1Step:  I hope that you feel better from the chemo soon.  At least you were able to go to your "hat party".  That sounds fun.

Dear Froggie:  My mom lived in Manhattan for many years.  I grew up on Long Island in Hicksville.  I also lived in East Meadow and Saint James.  I worked in Long Beach for over a decade.  I also worked in Roslyn for over a decade and in Rockville Centre for years.  My brother and I were surprised when my mom moved to Florida.  She had always regarded NYC as the "Center of the Universe!"    My daughter will stay in the dorms at NYU.  Unfortunately, this is an unpaid internship requiring LOTS of hours and the dorms are really expensive.  That being said, I am so proud of my daughter and I am thrilled that she was selected for this extremely competetive internship.  She gets lost easily.  Before she went on Birthright, she and her friend stayed at my cousins studio apartment in NYC for 1 night.  They took the train to "Historia!"  LOL, ROFL.  (Astoria, Queens) (They went the wrong way on the subway.  They were looking for Times Square.)  I am sure that your son LOVES living in Manhattan.  Good for him.

Dear Peggy:  Mazel Tov!  Wow!  I can't believe that the closing is this quick.  That is a whirlwind.  Good for you and have a bottle of champagne.  You reminded me that I have to call my banker AGAIN.  I applied for a Home Equity Line of Credit 7 weeks ago.  The banker said that everything was in order the first day.  I don't know what the hold up is.  I should have closed weeks ago.  I have been calling every day this week.  I want to close this week because I am off.  However, I have to take my son back to the doctor tomorrow and I am replacing my A/C coil on Friday. Today, I am going to my Mom's.  I don't know when I will have time.  Luckily, I did all of my work for work already this week.  I looked at #'s again and I am so glad that I took the job as Guidance Director for next year.

Dear Sloan:  Are you ok???  Did you get the pathology report back?  Is it scar tissue? - hopefully.  I am saying a prayer for you.

I am giving hugs and saying prayers to everyone else.

Dear Peachy:

I am so sorry that you were in a car accident.  I almost cried when I read your post.  "She thanked me for not yelling at her.  I did not tell her that I had experienced far worse things in the past year."  I am glad that you will be taking Ibrance rather than the control.  I hope that you feel well.  Taking the Ibrance should give you peace of mind regarding recurrence.  I thought that studies were double blind and that participants did not know which group that they were assigned to.  Live and Learn.   Good luck with the ultrasound results and I am praying that you are fine.  Good luck and health to your son too.

614, Thanks! It's been nice to close this soon but I'd have preferred May 1st so the house will be sitting empty for only 7 weeks instead of 11 or 12. But I got the price I wanted so can't have everything.

Ugh on the dorm cost for your DD.

There's no way your home equity loan should take so darned long, especially when everything was in order. Really annoying.

Good luck to everyone.

HUGS!

614- work it girl! That's a great picture of you on the "catwalk". And congrats on your daughters job acceptance!

Congrats Kaneli! I had cells traveling too... Wonder why I didn't get Brachytherapy...? Hopefully chemo blasts the heck out of them;)

Chisandy- I went to a Who concert in 1990 and he had the same issue! Had to leave the stage after 3 songs! Sorry to hear about your fall. But at least you'll have a wheelchair to sit in during your very long, very safe airport check in;)

Itakychick- yay!!! That must feel GREAT

Heathet- doesn't it feel good to have a plan?

Iammags- yikes! Metal...? You poor thing. Glad it's out now.

Hi Jan:)

1step- happy to hear that you are feeling better and you got to attend your party.

Peggy- Things are finally coming together for you! We closed on our vacation home in NH on 4/1 coming up on 14 years ago. Easy date to remember and brought us lots of luck!

Njnancy- I have a similar reaction to lidocaine and even novicaine at the dentist office. I get all dizzy and lousy feeling, but never passed out. Close... But you poor thing!! At least you had a wonderful night with dh.

Peachy- sorry to hear about your accident, but happy nobody was hurt. Positive thoughts your way for good results for you and your son😊

So... Having made lots of calls yesterday, I found out that the biopsy lab sent the claim to the wrong insurance address! They are resubmitting... My insurance company is still baffled because they said it's covered and the hospital says it was paid and I have zero balance with them. I'm letting the insurance fight it out with he lab now.

My dd plays lacrosse in college and was selected to represent the USA to play in Europe in June. 3 tournaments in Paris, Brussels and Amsterdam. Flying out of JFK on American Airlines and flying back home from Brussels airport on AA. A team traveling and playing in Team USA uniforms. I'm rethinking sending her. We will lose thousands... But better risking losing her. Thoughts? I'm not being selfish but she's been in NY at school through my whole ordeal and I just want all my babieshome under one roof:)

Honestly I would keep my daughter home. It's different when it's an adult making decisions but not your baby. Congrats Peggy. I really hope you feel better soon. Sandy, safe travels!!

Korky I'm very sorry for your loss.

614 you look gorgeous, congrats regarding your daughter

Nancy good luck today. You've got this!

Sandy I hope your arm heals well.

I'm sure there are a lot more people I could respond to, but it's very hard for me to keep up, I was at a meeting all day at work today and couldn't even look at my phone.

I'm doing much better. I still have a runny nose and hoarse voice, but besides that I'm OK.

I'm really feeling out of sorts lately. Professionally I'm at a bit of a crossroads. I contract is ending and I'm going back to my old department, I have the accommodations I want so that's good. It is still hard, I really liked what I was doing on my contract position I did not want to do and, it was also the perfect position to be working through. Somehow changing jobs makes me feel like maybe I'm not going to be able to work much longer, I got an a cold after chemo twice now. Saw my oncologist yesterday and she said to be more careful with handwashing etc. however she doesn't really think it's related to the chemo both times I got it before my white blood counts would've even gotten lower, it's just been bad luck in the time of year. That's probably true my body does not do well with the move to spring, I always get a lot of migraines and a lot of sicknesses this time of year. Normally I use a lot of oil of oregano which seems to help, but I'm not supposed to now

I'm also trying to figure out what to do about work because I know some supervisor positions that interest me will be coming up in a couple weeks, I really want to apply for them and they are "once-in-a-career" positions that are directly coming out of my contract position, not something I can try for a game later. It seems wrong somehow to seek a new position and I have a feeling I will probably be on leave for a few months soon, but at the same time it also seems wrong not to try to make a change in my career it is important to me. I just don't know what I'm going to do. I have supervision tomorrow and I am going to talk to my supervisor about what she thinks, she will be supervising the new position as well, and I think she will be honest with me about whether or not I should go for it. Of Course then I start thinking in general about my future, how uncertain it feels, whether or not I'm gonna be sick again in a year or two or 10, and it just get so depressing and seems so unfair.

I got a card at work today ( we all signed cards for everybody on the team that is being disbanded), almost all of them talked about how courageous I am. It kind of bothered me, although of course I didn't say anything, because I don't think I'm courageous. Courage is choosing to confront something scary. I didn't choose to deal with cancer, I just want to live (much much longer).