Freaking out about comedo necrosis

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Kkubsky
Kkubsky Member Posts: 231

I am having such a difficult time with this. I am trying to research as much as I can about DCIS and be informed. But I am driving myself crazy. I was just reading some of the articles here and had the misfortune to read about how comedo necrosis has a higher chance of being positive for invasive cancer and recurrence. It seems that every time I start feeling a little more settled, I read something or hear something that sends me into a tail spin again. My surgeon didn't seem overly concerned. But it isn't in her breast now is it!? Am I the only one that is in panic mode here? Everyone seems so calm. I know it supposedly gets better but I can't get beyond the bad thoughts I am having. I know it could be worse....

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  • jlstacey
    jlstacey Member Posts: 277
    edited February 2016

    First, I would say to step away from Dr. Google. Do you know what type of cancer it is (hormone receptor status, Her2/Neu status) and the grade? I just looked up this term, it really is just relative to the type of cancer cells you have. Necrosis means dead cells- with grade 3, the cells are dividing rapidly. These cells are also very unstable so they die off quickly, and this is also why chemo is very effective on this grade of cancer.

    I'm not sure if you have started treatment, or have a treatment plan, but you will probably feel a lot better once you do. At a certain point, you have to let go and put your trust in your doctors. Take a vacation from the cancer - it can be cathartic. Allow yourself to not dwell on it a time- however long that works for you. A couple hours, a couple days.

    I was Triple Negative, grade III. I finished chemo last summer and had my BMX 6 weeks later. My pathology showed abundant necrosis. I had IDC, not DCIS. There tends to be a lot of scaremongering with Triple Negative. After reading a bit of the scary stuff, I would back off from it. Once I was ready to emotionally process a little more, I would read another article if it was pertinent. I had take info in snippets.

    There are plenty of people freaking out on here, so you aren't alone. But those of us who are a little further in the process have just found our own way of coming to terms and focusing on beating the disease rather than focusing on the what ifs. I'm not always calm- in fact, I'm having a brain CT scan on Tuesday. I had my "what if" time and I am going to hopefully get some peace of mind that it isn't anything. But I'm choosing to live instead of worrying about could bes. You will get to that place where you can too.

    Jena


  • Leslie13
    Leslie13 Member Posts: 202
    edited February 2016

    I don't have DCIS, I had invasive out of the gate (first diagnosis). But you have Cancer. Many of us research our disease to death (no pun intended), then find a treatment strategy we can live with. But fear of the unknown is something we all go through. I'm sorry you're going through it, but you're in the right place.

    The truth is that at the end of the day there's a lot of research that contradicts other research. Increases chances may mean by 5% or less. And you'll see women who do everything suggested have early recurrences and women who chose more conservative routes stay cancer free, and vis versa. Cancer is a complex disease, and there's far more individual characteristics playing into our results that research is just beginning to find, such as genetics and immune studies.

    Most important is to find a treatment team with whom you feel comfortable. This is your surgeon, oncologist, and plastics person. Look at the outcomes from each treatment and decide what benefit/risk profile you can live with. Some women may have a small amount of cancer, but insist on a BMX to make sure they get it out, other's may want breast conserving surgery despite larger tumors.

    You may want to add a counselor to your treatment team if you haven't already. I used mine to help process all the incoming info, and establish life priorities. An ending is guaranteed when we're born, but we forget that until something like cancer reminds us life is finite. And taking in all research as a whole says we'll make it at least 10 years. There's many changes in the works, and there's a good chance there will be good treatments if you have cancer comes back.

    Good luck!

  • CAMommy
    CAMommy Member Posts: 437
    edited February 2016

    Keep in mind DCIS with necrosis is still less aggressive than IDC. I had it too and it freaked me out. I asked my surgeon about my grade 3 with comedo necrosis and he said the only people who get excited about that is the pathologists. To him, removing it completely is the issue and most of the cure.

    I'm not particularly worried about it anymore. Mite seems to me, most cancers have decided if they are going to be nasty be ire they are detected. I had a very late large area if DCIS, grade 3 with necrosis and no IDC. Other people have tiny DCIS and they find IDC. Who knows why. Other people have big IDC tumors and no mets, others go from stage I IDC to getting mets. I really feel a lot cancer has done its thing before we even detect it.

    Both my mom and my grandmother never recurred. And my grandmother was stage III.

    Easier said than done but try to take it one day at a time and live today. No of us has an guarantees on our life. My 13 year old daughter just made a new friend at school who's mother passed away 2 months ago. We just don't know when our time will come and if it will be from cancer, heart disease or a freak accident.

    If you haven't had your surgery yet, you will feel better after having a plan for surgery and rads if you need them. After treatment was done I kind of fell apart for awhile. But now I'm feeling better. Please know we e all been there.

  • ducky179
    ducky179 Member Posts: 43
    edited February 2016

    I worried about it too. Read that maybe there was a higher chance of my DCIS becoming invasive. Nobody else on my treatment team seemed overly concerned. But I was going to probably opt for mastectomy regardless for other reasons. I'm still not in the clear yet. Waiting to hear about the final path report from the mastectomies. But my sentinel nodes were clear.

  • Kkubsky
    Kkubsky Member Posts: 231
    edited February 2016

    Hope your pathology comes back good! No one seems to be concerned at all about the grade 3 or comedo necrosis except me. I think I need to stop reading too much stuff. A friend of mine who had breast cancer 30 years ago said she is glad there was no internet then. She would have driven herself crazy but that was not an option back then. She had to trust her doctors and just go with it. My husband had said he was going to disconnect the internet! Maybe he should.....

  • LAstar
    LAstar Member Posts: 1,574
    edited February 2016

    I had grade 3 from stem to stern in my left breast but no invasive cancer was found. CAMommy is right -- you will feel better once a plan is in place. Yes, give yourself a break once in a while. It's good to be informed, but it's also good to be with friends, enjoy some time in nature, relax in a hot bath, and give yourself a break from cancer! Even 5 minutes without thinking about it can feel like a vacation!

  • leenso52
    leenso52 Member Posts: 31
    edited February 2016

    Kkubsky, you are not alone! I was in your shoes a little over a year ago. I not only was a patient in treatment for DCIS, (lumpectomy, partial mastectomy followed by radiation) I had been, and still am for many years an Oncology Certified RN! Talk about knowledge over kill based fear!! DCIS is still being studied so much that even the doctors aren't sure anymore what to expect from it!

    You have obviously, like me, gone over your biopsy report and read into each term. In reality, we can't assume by each technical term the possibility of recurrence. I'm guessing that's your major concern, right? A biopsy is equal to the sum of it's many technical parts. Turns out my own biopsy was favorable for no further DCIS even though I read into each word as you may have.

    It's not crazy or obsessive, or at least I don't think so, to want to be as informed as we can since no one can tell us what our own future holds. It's our survival instinct at work! But I also found it was not really helpful to spend so much time, and give so much of my attention to what may lie a head of me. In fact it greatly increased my anxiety and I am still on the medicine I had prescribed for me at the time. But this is very common with any diagnosis of cancer! But by the time I was to start radiation, as much as I dreaded it, I did not really put much time and effort into studying up what I didn't know. My specialty is administering chemotherapy to women with far worse diagnoses than mine. But it helped ease my fears to just listen to what my radiation oncologist told me, as well as the wonderful team in radiation, and not dwell on all the technical stuff and possible complications of therapy. I did, in fact, do very well with radiation, not nearly as bad as I thought, and in fact after each early am treatment I went upstairs one flight and worked as the oncology nurse I am!

    This Discussion Board was very helpful while I went thru treatment. I especially liked the words of experience that many women who had already gone thru what I was facing offered me. I have not been as generous to return to this site much since then. But I hope I helped you a little.

    Best Wishes.

    And be kind to yourself, not judgemental!

  • Kkubsky
    Kkubsky Member Posts: 231
    edited February 2016

    I was actually beginning to have some "normal" moments yesterday and today thanks to some of you who sent reassuring words and thoughts. But then that crazy little voice in my head starts reminding me that I have grade 3, comedo necrosis, the most aggressive DCIS. And we start a downward spiral again. I almost wish I had not seen my pathology report! My surgery is scheduled for 2/24 and then the wait for that pathology begins. I have to remember to focus on the 80 percent that come back as no microinvasion or more. Why does my brain have to keep reminding me of the other 20 percent!!!!????? I guess it is time for Mr Ativan.....

  • ksusan
    ksusan Member Posts: 4,505
    edited February 2016

    I know it's scary, but you're doing what you need to do to respond to the diagnosis. I had multifocal grade 3 DCIS with comedo necrosis in my left breast. I'm almost a year out from surgery and doing well.

  • Beatmon
    Beatmon Member Posts: 1,562
    edited February 2016

    Dear Kkbusky, maybe you could call your pcp for some anti anxiety med. until surgery. And try to continue to think about all the women who indeed are DCIS without any invasion. There must be millions.

    Try to not worry. We will be in your pocket

  • Annette47
    Annette47 Member Posts: 957
    edited February 2016

    The reality is that the odds are very much in your favor that you won’t have any invasion. BUT, even if you do, in the VAST majority of cases where a diagnosis of DCIS leads to the finding of an invasive component, it is so small that it really makes no difference in either your treatment or prognosis.

    It sounds like you are thinking that if any invasion is found it is an automatic death sentence, when the reality is, it usually doesn’t even change anything at all. The only difference having a small invasive component made for me was the need for a sentinel node biopsy (they wouldn’t have done one if it hadn’t been identified from the stereotactic biopsy). Three years later I am doing just fine.


  • Meadow
    Meadow Member Posts: 2,007
    edited February 2016

    I agree with Beatmom. To be frank, you are wasting your energy being in a panic over something you have no control over. Wouldn't you rather be in that better frame of mind you were a few days ago? Anxiety is a major waste of your time and energy. If you do have a more serious situation occur, deal with it then.It may take a lot of strength. Our days may be shorter than we wish, please do not waste a single one of them in worry. I only want what is best for you. Please try not to worry.

  • Kkubsky
    Kkubsky Member Posts: 231
    edited February 2016

    Thank you all for the encouragement. I know worrying is not productive. And I have had moments where I even forgot about it, but it always comes back. I have feared cancer my entire life....my mom died of a brain tumor when I was 10. I know that doesn't really have anything to do with this but it has made an impression in my mind that cancer = death. I do know quite a few women who have had br ca and are all alive and doing well. I hope I am one of them. I am trying hard to wrap my mind around the fact that I have cancer. Yesterday I was having a conversation with myself trying to stop the negative thoughts.....I told myself that I had "a touch of cancer". It made me feel more comfortable about the whole thing. I went and got a new hair cut and that helped me feel better too. My husband is being very supportive and has been dealing with my emotional ups and downs. I don't want to over burden him with all my fears either. So I come on here and try to release some of the fear and anxiety.

  • Meadow
    Meadow Member Posts: 2,007
    edited February 2016

    I am so sorry you lost your mom so young. Thank you so much for sharing your personal story. It helped to understand your fear, and of course you have lost so much to cancer already. Hugs to you

  • Kkubsky
    Kkubsky Member Posts: 231
    edited February 2016

    Just some more venting. I don't want to overburden my husband with all my fears and negative thoughts. I am wondering if maybe I should seek some counseling because I just cannot seem to get past the negative thoughts I keep having. As much as the internet is a useful tool, it also scares the crap out of me. This whole grade 3/comedo necrosis just keeps popping around in my head. I am scheduled for lumpectomy on 2/24 to be followed by radiation. But I was just reading an article that mentioned high reoccurence rates and now I am second guessing if I should just have a mastectomy and be done with it. I thought 10mm was small but maybe not. Ugh, I need to turn my brain off.

  • jlstacey
    jlstacey Member Posts: 277
    edited February 2016

    If you think your thoughts are going to be dominated by recurrence, then think strongly about the Mx. 

  • LifeOfBabbs
    LifeOfBabbs Member Posts: 28
    edited February 2016

    We are in the same boat right now! I was diagnosed with DCIS on February 12th, 2016. High grade, solid and with comedo necrosis. My surgery (lumpectomy) is on February 25th. I just started pouring over my pathology report this morning, and figured out that the high grade....is the least favorable. Now I'm starting to wonder if I should have asked about a mastectomy, or maybe I'm over reacting. I was doing much better last week, when my surgeon acted like this was no big deal. Now that I've learned more, I'm just getting more and more scared! Can't wait to have this surgery. I want this out of me.

  • Kkubsky
    Kkubsky Member Posts: 231
    edited February 2016

    I really need to take a break from all my reading about this. Just browsing through the DCIS forum and found a thread about Grade 3 etc. DCIS. Decided to read through it. Shouldn't have because now I am back to being a nervous wreck. Somewhere in there someone noted that in DCIS when the ER/PR is negative it is turning into IDC. I was already scared that more will be found when I have my lumpectomy, but was trying to reassure myself that the odds were in my favor. Now I don't know anymore. And am again wondering if I should have had a mastectomy, although my BS did not think was necessary at this point. The hospital my BS is affiliated with has a tumor board, (maybe all do?) so quite a few people chime in on course of treatment. My case actually came up in 2 hospitals on their tumor boards so I tell myself that a lot of medical personnel have looked at my case. But I am losing it tonight....again. How do you all stay so calm? Or at least seem to?

  • BlueHeron
    BlueHeron Member Posts: 154
    edited February 2016

    Ativan. Seriously. I've never needed anything like it before, but found it hugely helpful when I found myself freaking out and perseverating and unable to calm myself.

  • RDA123
    RDA123 Member Posts: 100
    edited February 2016

    curious...is Ativan similar to Zanex??

  • BlueHeron
    BlueHeron Member Posts: 154
    edited February 2016

    Good question. They are both anti-anxiety meds, but I don't know the differences. I have only tried Ativan and it worked wonders. I will use it going forward for any future procedures, possibly mammos, and any freak-outs that might be waiting for me :)

  • ksusan
    ksusan Member Posts: 4,505
    edited February 2016

    Both are benzodiazepines (same chemical class).


  • glennie19
    glennie19 Member Posts: 6,398
    edited February 2016

    how comedo necrosis has a higher chance of being positive for invasive cancer and recurrence.

    kkubsky: Yes, there is a higher chance,, but that doesn't mean you will be in that category. And if the lumpectomy is iffy,,, you can still go back and have the mastectomy later on,, but you can't do the reverse.

    My DCIS was not discovered until my MX,, and it was also grade 3. Still here!

    Xanax/Ativan/Valium,,, all anti-anxiety meds. As ksusan said: in the same family called benzodiazepines. Ask your doctor for some. You are stressed and one of these meds would help you sleep. Deep breaths,,, big hugs from your sisters on this board.

  • coffeelatte
    coffeelatte Member Posts: 209
    edited February 2016

    It was Ativan for me as well. I was not able to calm myself down and I was so fretful over which decision to make. I found after I took the smallest dose a few times over a week, it really really helped. I also took it before having the breast MRI because I was so nervous. It went so much better with the Ativan in my system. Good luck to you, the waiting is the most anxiety provoking part for many of us. We have you in our pockets for your surgery this week.

  • RDA123
    RDA123 Member Posts: 100
    edited February 2016

    thanks!! Next question..how many of you had the same diagnosis from needle core biopsy as follow up surgical biopsy?


    Robin.

  • Kkubsky
    Kkubsky Member Posts: 231
    edited February 2016

    Just got my pathology from lumpectomy. Clean margins. Pure DCIS. No microinvasion or other nasty stuff. So it matches the core biopsy pathology. Now onto radiation....


  • RDA123
    RDA123 Member Posts: 100
    edited February 2016
  • ChiSandy
    ChiSandy Member Posts: 12,133
    edited February 2016

    Whew!!!! One more load off your mind!

  • ksusan
    ksusan Member Posts: 4,505
    edited February 2016

    Glad to hear it.

  • Mckaylaleigh
    Mckaylaleigh Member Posts: 90
    edited February 2016

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