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Danni1016
Danni1016 Member Posts: 16
edited February 2016 in Waiting for Test Results

I had a biopsy yesterday. It was supposed to be a FNA, but it was decided to do a core needle. No one told me, but I'm okay with it as I understand it can be more accurate. It was a solid mass.

Everyone tells me it will be fine, but I don't feel that way. I missed my mammo last year. I feel so stupid for not making myself priority. I am having symptoms like shoulder pain and thickened underarm pits. They found a .7x.5mm lump in my breast tissue itself. Apparently, it was an area of concern in early 2014. At this point, I am nervous and scared and embarrassed. I shouldn't beat myself up, I know, but that's how I feel. And unfortunately, I'm not feeling optimistic. My symptoms are classic.

Be strong everyone says, but I really don't feel strong and I don't want to be strong. I should be allowed everything I feel without being told, "it'll be alright." I have been so happy in my life the past few years and now this.

I know anxiety and worry doesn't help. But, this sucks.

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  • MEG2
    MEG2 Member Posts: 114
    edited February 2016

    Danni ~ take a deep breath and know that whatever the outcome you will have support here at BCO. I had a core biopsy and didn't have any lingering effects.

    A cancer diagnosis can be sad and scary, if you need to cry or have some anxiety to move through the unknowns going on right now just make sure you are taking care of your immediate needs, sleep, nutrition, and getting the support and love from your family to help you stand up and fight any diagnosis. The first few days are definitely difficult but once you meet with a breast surgeon and/or an oncologist and get a treatment plan in place things start to feel less scary; there will always be some stress and anxiety. If you feel like you need to ask the Docs for some meds to take the edge off then do it. This is a time when you need to be a bit selfish and take care of you first...then you can consider what comes next. I will guarantee you that if you have cancer there will be people here who have very similar diagnosis and treatment plans and you can get A LOT of support and advice. Being strong will come later and you will figure this all out, know there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

    I hope you get the best news possible and that you travel this road with peace. Best to you!


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  • Danni1016
    Danni1016 Member Posts: 16
    edited February 2016

    Thank you so much! I certainly don't want to come off as whiny, but I guess I am very disappointed in myself. I should of all people know better as one of my best of friends died of BC.

    I appreciate this forum so much already. Just reading others stories have given me so much knowledge and what to expect come what may. I needed to hear from someone who completely understands. I worry about being a burden on my husband and family. I don't want them to suffer. But, you are right, I need to worry about myself first this time.

    I will definitely continue to use this as a support system and again, I am thankful for the words of encouragement.

    Danni


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  • Holeinone
    Holeinone Member Posts: 2,478
    edited February 2016

    Danni,

    Sorry, it is a difficult, scary process. Meg2 had great advice. Quality sleep is essential. The next 6 months will be difficult, but we are all stronger then we think.

    I felt just like you, was not optimistic. Had that bad feeling. People telling me to stay strong or positive, annoyed the crap out of me. Obviously everyone means well.

    BCO is a lifesaver for so many of us. We can be honest here. Let us know when you get the results.

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  • Danni1016
    Danni1016 Member Posts: 16
    edited February 2016

    Thank you Holeinone! I appreciate every bit of advice and taking the time to respond to my fears. This feeling of uncertainty is extremely difficult. Every hour is different. But, I know I will be okay no matter the outcome.

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  • Danni1016
    Danni1016 Member Posts: 16
    edited February 2016

    My results came back benign. I had a fibroadenoma. Although this is very good news, I am now on high alert as to make sure I take care better care of myself. I have a follow-up in 6 months. Today, I will start shedding some pounds, implement a better diet and exercising more.

    Thanks ladies for your encouragement. I will update again the board again in 6 months.

    The best to all of you!

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  • Holeinone
    Holeinone Member Posts: 2,478
    edited February 2016

    Danni,,

    YEEHA !

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  • ChiSandy
    ChiSandy Member Posts: 12,133
    edited February 2016

    Way to go, Danni! Mazel tov!

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  • Danni1016
    Danni1016 Member Posts: 16
    edited February 2016

    Thank you so much!

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  • Danni1016
    Danni1016 Member Posts: 16
    edited February 2016

    Thank you so much! I will never forget my mammo again. Lesson learned.

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