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LvinAZ44
LvinAZ44 Member Posts: 213
edited November 2015 in Stage III Breast Cancer


march of 2016 i would have made to my 5 years, but a trip to the hospital for side pain which I thought might have been my gallbladder and it ended up being a spot on my rib 2 spots on.lungd xnd shadow on liver. O joy. Waiting in biopsy today. I thought just maybe i could make it

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  • sbelizabeth
    sbelizabeth Member Posts: 2,889
    edited November 2015
    LvinAZ44, I'm so sorry. I wish I had words to help you feel all better. You're in my thoughts and prayers. One day at a time...
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  • TectonicShift
    TectonicShift Member Posts: 752
    edited July 2020

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  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited November 2015

    Dear LvinAZ44,

    We are so sorry to hear that. You are not alone, we all be thinking of you.

    warm hugs the mods


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  • MelanieBC
    MelanieBC Member Posts: 74
    edited November 2015

    Huge hugs LvinAZ44

    Hug

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  • AmyQ
    AmyQ Member Posts: 2,182
    edited November 2015

    LvinAZ44

    I'm sorry your pain ended up being mets. Your experience is similar to mine in that what I thought was gallbladder problems turned out to be mets to my ribs and I didn't even know I had BC.

    Stop by the Bone Mets thread here https://community.breastcancer.org/forum/8/topics/... for additional advice, comfort, friendship and a place to vent or laugh. They're very welcoming and knowledgeable and I'm sure you'll feel right at home almost immediately.

    Amy

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  • hopefour
    hopefour Member Posts: 459
    edited November 2015

    Well that stinks...but it is not without HOPE!! Please take the encouragement others have posted and know that there is more hope for MBC today then there was yesterday!!

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  • LvinAZ44
    LvinAZ44 Member Posts: 213
    edited November 2015

    Ugh. Thanks for the kind words. I'm so scared, all I do is cry. I feel like crap, not sure if it's from all the psin meds from being in the hospital all weekend now sure if I can go back to work. If I dint with I'm not paid. This just really sucks!

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  • ShetlandPony
    ShetlandPony Member Posts: 4,924
    edited November 2015

    Normal to cry a lot. The news is so devastating. Can you get some in-person support, too? A stage iv support group and a therapist really helped me get through the early days. Believe it or not, it is possible to get through the grief and feel better.

    To find local support, try Cancer Support Community Phoenix, and the cancer hospitals in your area.

    Spring 2016 will be five years for me, too. We will have a toast in March to the next five years, ok?

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  • LvinAZ44
    LvinAZ44 Member Posts: 213
    edited November 2015

    k pony. Thanks.

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  • ash123
    ash123 Member Posts: 99
    edited November 2015

    Dear LvinAZ44

    Thinking of you.Positive vibes and many hugs.

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  • LvinAZ44
    LvinAZ44 Member Posts: 213
    edited November 2015

    thank you. First chemo tomorrow. What if this doesn't work? I can't stop thinking about dying and how this gross destructive stuff is inside me. Ugh. I wish this was a bad dream for all of us.


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  • ShetlandPony
    ShetlandPony Member Posts: 4,924
    edited November 2015

    Say to yourself, "Right now, at this moment, I am ok." Because you are. And when they start the chemo drip, point at the mets and say, "DIE, Suckers!" Then do some slow, deep breaths and listen to some soothing music, or whatever else will help you relax. You can do this.

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  • LvinAZ44
    LvinAZ44 Member Posts: 213
    edited November 2015

    yes. Good idea. Thanks. Ugh

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  • Hopeful82014
    Hopeful82014 Member Posts: 3,480
    edited November 2015

    LvinAZ - Just wanted to send you some support as you face today. I hope your chemo will help you knock it back under control. I know that won't change the emotional impact nor the implications of what you're going through, but I really do hope you'll benefit strongly from this round of treatment.

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  • LvinAZ44
    LvinAZ44 Member Posts: 213
    edited November 2015

    it went ok but I am starting to get depressed. WHY ME? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN? how can i go to work and know that I am wasting time doing tings I do not want to do when I should go home and be with my family and ride my horse and live in the moments of whatever time I have left?

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  • Hopeful82014
    Hopeful82014 Member Posts: 3,480
    edited November 2015

    I sure don't have any answers but have felt the same way in the past when dealing with serious health issues - that sense of resentment of the demands of clients or employers that seem so trivial and utterly pointless. It's a valid, healthy feeling. Finding the balance between working (because you need to) and living your priorities and needs is really tough. Again, I don't have any great insights but certainly care and support you.

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