Single life after a mastectomy

Enerva- I have to check into that app. There are so gosh many of them and I am not as app-saavy as I should be. I need to go hang around with my 20 something techie friends to learn more! They know all the apps?

You did look pissed in that picture! Cute but not happy!

I try to write something in my journal every day I am grateful for. I also try to set an intention for every day when I get up (often when I am out at dawn meditating on the patio). It really makes for a better day. Hard to do when things are running amok though.

Enerva I'm sure you know this but it's not good to hold your pee pee in.

BB so sorry to hear about your mom but glad she is somewhere she will hopefully get the care she needs and deserves. I've heard of that a lot with the elderly. Having broken ribs and being misdiagnosed. Makes me angry. Thinking of you! Don't forget to take care of yourself too.

Love your pictures Enerva!

Jazz I've been journaling for the past 21 yrs. don't write everyday.

Lost a dear friend to C yesterday. She was just diagnosed with a Recurrence 6 weeks ago She had rare vaginal cancer the first time, came back with a vengeance. This disease sucks!!

Dr says I am healing beautifully. Got my last drain out yesterday. Problem is it was still giving 20cc's give or take, everyday. So I have to watch for fluid build up now, and there already is some in the left side. If it gets too full I have to go have it drained.

Gotta make appointments with the PT, rad Onc, and prosthetics place in the next 2 weeks So many appointments. Ugh. My right arm has some kind of build up-can't remember what she called it-regardless I have to do PT for it. I can do basic stuff but can't extend it full or move in certain directions.

Forgot to ask for a copy of my final pathology report. Need to remember that next appointment (2weeks).

My special friend hasn't made it over yet I think of him everyday. He finally admitted to being confused the other day. The distance and age difference are big hold ups for him. *sigh* I quiver thinking of the next time were face to face. Last visit, he said seeing me brought all these emotions to the surface. But he still has my healing top priority and doesn't think now is a good time, either way, to start or define anything. I respect him and his views especially since he has my well being in the forefront of his mind Sweet guy.

Hope everyone has a great day! Thanks for all the well wishes! Been sleeping a lot and when I'm not sleeping I'm coloring

This is my favorite

BB- I am glad your mom is doing better. It is awful to see a parent suffering. Especially because something got missed. I am keeping her and you, and your family in my prayers for better days.

You can find those coloring books at most bookstores or on line too. A friend sent me one and I love them. May play with mine later today after some to-dos get done!

E- okay I finally Googled it. It is a texting app. I am not a big texting person so not sure I will use it. They say it is be overseas, but not that big in the US. Owned by Facebook?

I hope you can relax tonight. Maybe put some ice on that neck and your feet up?

Went to salon and got my highlighting done which came out nice. Three different colors, darker copper with some blonder highlights against a strawberry blonde. Here is a side view I can share that shows you the look without my face. I love it. Did a nice yoga class after at the gym.

What are folks doing this weekend. Anything interesting? Nice weather this time of the year just about everywhere.

Tomorrow I am going to a harvest fest with my friends who moved here this summer (and there is a pet parade so I will share fun pics if I get any). Sunday, I am picking up an old work friend from my big client site here who is not doing well with a second kind of cancer he has been fighting for several years. He got a thyroid cancer a number of years ago (family genetic cancer, dad had it) and kicked it. But then several years later, he got a brain cancer behind the eye and it is one of those tough ones to treat. He has been going back and forth to MD Anderson in Houston for specialized treatment. I know he has finally left his job, has gone on disability and a mutual friend told me things are not good. He has wanted a ride in my convertible forever and we are finally going and will meet our mutual friend at the place and have some laughs. He is not married, but has two adult daughters who help him. Given we don't know what lies ahead, going to try to make tomorrow a good day for us all.

Wishing everyone struggling better days.

Right there with ya BB.

Not good to keep drains in too long. 3 weeks is max she said. Stitch area was looking rough & tubing wasxbarely hanging on. Fluid buildup on left side & they didn't call me back today. Have a bad feeling I may end up in urgent care or er this weekend but REALLLLY dont want anyone to touch it.

Should have been more persistent with my calls to her today

bb. Ur mom is so cute lol

Grand pa in france reacted the same way cuz I brought him a bunch of drawing supplies then I started drawing and asking him to help me out cuz he was a big painter back in the day and fair enough he came around and started drawing and ended up enjoying all I brought him lol

You just need to show ur mom simplicity s coloring then she ll understand plus tell her that is the new thing lol specialy in Europe Rome france lol

Then she may change her mind lol

G night all

Yea, Im going to see how it is in the morning & go from there. Hate this chit!!

Bb that sounds scary & sad we need so much protection for anyone. I got 2 books at Michaels. They had great selection, not of colored pencils thou, oddly. Hope you were able to visit your mom.

O Jazz, I hope you guys have a great time! Ive lost 2 friends/acquaintances to cancer in the past 2 weeks. Sad Im on my phone, but did you upload a pic? Hair colors sound wonderful but Im not seeing a pic on my phone

Enerva where do you get your energy? Lol

Morning everyone!

Thanks Enerva. Hope you get to enjoy the lake today.

Jazz, I hope you have a great time at the festival today!

BB your mom sounds like my kind of woman. Simple. I love things simple. Maybe you can go by Michaels and just pick her up one, they had some at my store for $5.99, and just leave it there for her? Never know, maybe she'll just pick it up one day and start coloring? I can't do much outside of the house and it's really helped me relax.

The left side looks great this morning! Still some build up but no more, if so just a little more build up. Plus I'm still on antibiotics. Couldn't sleep. Sweating all night (no fever), tossed and turned and kept waking up and peeking at my 'breasts'.

I'm a positive thinker and try to see the good in everything. Bad thing is sometimes I think that clouds my vision to seeing the bad things. My special friend sees the two trips being thwarted by work as a sign of sorts. I just think it is what it is. I also think we met for a reason. I know if it's meant to be it will be but I also think we have to work at some things in life. You don't sit and wait for a job cause if it's meant to be it'll be. You have to work for it. Go out and look for it. It doesn't just fall in our laps. Plus I'm in that silly, girly, can't hold it in, wanna hold him and love him phase. It's crazy and this is exactly why I loathe the emotion that is love lol

Not much going on here today, naturally. Have to take DD to her friends later. She hasn't wanted to go to dads lately and hasn't. It's rainy here and I have been sooo tired.

Hope everyone enjoys all their adventures today!!

Haha! Found it! Love this!

http://constantlyeffed.tumblr.com/post/72725640755/ten-things-your-single-friends-are-tired-of

Bb- I will send you a PM pic!

great pictures jazz.

Here are mine

so my walking friend didn't go with me and now wants me to go again .lol

I need to tell you something that happened

An older man stopped me on my way while I was walking and I had a short talk with him. He asked about the poles and what us the benefits of it etc and I talk to him for like 10 minutes lol then gave him my business card .cuz he told me he has a boat by the marine close by and I thought to myself " hey maybe this man knows lots if rich people whom may need a realtor hahaha anyway I found very charming that the old man basically flirted with me and he was kind of cute lol

Ha ha ha well I went for a second walk and now I am dead lol ll shower eat a fruit and ll go straight to bed to do some crochetand some reading I am so so dead two walk total of 7km holy not sure if I ll be able to get up tmw lol

Yes the man was much older than me for sure I never asked about a son cuz didn't want to be rude hahahaha

Hope he contacts me .I will love to have a rich friend with a nice boat lol why no hahahha

Lol jazz send us the picture I ll love to see it. Here is a picture I found of me , french grand pa and my 23 year old french niece when she was a baby.

Also wanted to share a video which made me sad thinking of my bird 😢

http://38.media.tumblr.com/c33b2afcfd6b8cc8c661629ddc0ba636/tumblr_nv2uhsDeMw1tlb56zo1_400.gif

I was 18 lol

I had a green check conure but I gave him away when I was going through chemo and my mom was very sick .I made a huge mistake try to get him back but the lady who I gave him too refused to give him back then she told me he die .I ll never know if it was true or if he is still out there .

Anyway loveeee birds

Back home we got two big parrots

Bb I am so glad ur mom is better

BB- that is very good to hear about your mom. That chest tube coming out means they got her lungs cleared of fluid. Very good to hear. Can she eat normal food yet? I know with tubes something you don't get to eat. I am continuing to keep her and you and your family in my prayers. Hoping every day gets a bit better. Sense of humor returning is huge.

E- I will try to scan and share the picture with you guys!

Simplicity- what a fun group of animals you have! We raised rabbits and had birds growing up. Our whole family was highly allergic so never any other furry kinds of animals that like to be indoors. I don't have pets due to asthma and allergies but love all animals. You have a fun zoo over there, it keeps you going girlfriend!

I got a long e-mail from my friend yesterday about the no-show and also some things that have been gong on with her related to some health issues and medication. Being that we are old friends from college days, I know her "story" and know of some of these lifetime challenges she faces. I am glad she was able to tell me, and it also tells me she does not need invites to fun outings right now, but just to feel supported as she gets some thing worked out. She has trip today to the east coast and encouraged her to just have a slow day, and take care of herself. The thing I love about old friends is you know each others stories so there is not all the explaining of things like you do with newer people.

I talked to my friend who I am taking out for breakfast/ride in the convertible today yesterday and he sounded happy about our pending outing. He sounds good, feeling okay right now and I am picking him up mid morning, and then we will meet our mutual friend at the restaurant and have some good eats and plenty of laughs! He told me his younger daughter is getting married in Feb, and know that is so important for both of them for him to be there.

Okay, back to bed. A bit sleepless in the desert tonight......