April 2015 Chemo Crew... Starting in April? Please join us!

Hang in there steph!

Healthy coping strategies today: packed up all wigs and wig stuff for donation. Listened to the jig "banish misfortune" burned incense. Excercised. Cooked. Picked tomatoes. Feeling much more positive after adding ativan to all that!

Kbeee, if I may ask, what did you wear to the wedding? I've got one coming up and I'm not sure how to dress my miserably radiated crew cut self...

Oh yeah. For those of you with chemo fur face, how did you shave it? Any special razors or shave cream or......I dunno...just tips I guess..

Jen, do you have an eyebrow shaper? It's like a flat edged razor stick..thing. Anyway, works great on all this facial fuzz. Facial fuzz gets to keep growing and regrowing. More important hair?...that gets banished.

Steph, we will be right there with you this week. I know I am already so nervous about BMX in October...I can't yet imagine how nervous I will be when it's days away. Part of me is glad I have had some much time to mentally prepare...part of me is overwhelmed by so much 'mental preparation' and I just want it over. We got through Chemo, we can and will get through this too! Especially with all the support here.

5 days PFC!!!! Have waited a long time to use that acronym!!!

This last round has been really hard. Mouth is usually okay for 2-3 days, but was horrendous nearly from the start. Hands and feet...Neuropathy usually stared around day 7. This time, it was already bad on day 3. I have also had way more weakness and fatigue...I slept or laid around in Chemo fog from Wednesday until nearly today. I managed to take a long Epsom salt bath this morning in an attempt to detox some of the chemo sludge. My muscles are so tight and weak...I am having a hard time imagining functioning normally. I haven't taken the gabapentin for the p.n. yet...after I got freaked out by reading about the side effects. I will reassess depending on how bad the neuropathy pain gets. Soooo glad there isn't any more chemo to come. I honestly could not handle anymore. 15 days until we meet with p.s. and have to decide on reconstruction surgery (skin sparing, implant vs tissue, or NONE). 18 days until my ear surgery...it was easy to decide about reconstruction for my ear. NORMALish NON-ELF EAR PLEASE!!! I have no hair to hide it. BMX could be one month from Monday. I so wish I was on the other side of all this. I can't take all the waiting anymore! Everyone thinks I've got all the time in the world to relax and 'heal'. I don't think that can happen until I am on the other side of ALL the hurdles.

Steph, hang in there. Deep breaths. All is going to go well. Keep us posted. We are all here for you.

Dizzpark just remember each day will get better. The fog will lift and that is the best. Some symptoms hang on for awhile. I still have neoropathy in my feet 7 weeks post. Take it a day at a time. No expectations.

Kbeee hope the wedding was great! How did it feel to go commando? I so want more hair!!!

actually the dye for the SNB didn't hurt me. If felt like getting a TB shot- if you've everhad one of those. And be prepared you will pee blue for about 2 days and it doesn't smell pretty either.

good luck STEPH. It's cake compared to what you have been through.

chemo DID kill all of that nasty cancer. Think positive thoughts.

Argh! Just lost my post right before I hit send. Here it goes again!

My appointment went well. Thanks for asking. Not sure how confident to feel since no bloodwork or scans. My MO is taking me off tamoxifen for 2 weeks to see if it helps with foot and joint pain and swelling. Also doubling my diuretic. I will start back up on tamoxifen in two weeks, but spilt the dose between morning and night. Hope this will help with SE. Hard to know what is residual taxotere SE, Zolodex or tamoxifen!

Oh yeah. Then I nuke it's whole planet with a photon canon. Hey, points for honesty, right???

And follow it into the 4th dimension, where even it's electrons cease to exist. Yup. I'm scared spit less of getting my unidentified scar lump removed tomorrow, or more properly the pathology to come. This is my version of the war dance befor hand. I hope no one is offended..the sentiments are real!

littleblue bash it with a baseball bat, jump up and down on it yelling obscenities, whatever it takes to get that bitch gone! Go Office Space on it, it's good to be a gangsta

Best of luck tomorrow, will be thinking about you!

Don't be scared kniterly. Are you having it out in the office or a surgery? I was super scared too but it was fast and painless!