Ebru is back \ o / :)))))

Dear all,

Been quiet I know.. But felt you all by my side throughout..

Turns out summer, sund and hot weather are not favorable in my condition.. TMs still on the rise a bit.. Well it's autumn already, so hope Xeloda will make peace with the surrounding contitions and kick back in.

Since hormonals did not like me before, I want to stick with hair protecting chemo as long as possible .. Dh hates short hair & Ds is still too young to grasp things as they are.. Of course, already started viewing new hair trends in case I ll go for wigs again

Great that Xeloda (which gave me my first heart attack right at the start) is my great friend now that I am constantly on heart pills for the past 3 years..

Strongly suggest newbies to read my past threads on its SEs and nutrition advices )

Well, today I said bye to Tramadol 100 mg, which had been my sole pain killer right from the start. I insisted on not moving on to stronger weapons immediately and confess have endured a 'bit of' pain especially during this past summer.. Keeping activities on low level, etc .. So feel confident my new handsome pain management doc has joined my team at the right time. Today we discussed matters in detail and he prescribed a codain based coctail )) for regular use and another strong weapon for breakthrough pains.. Feel happy.. Feel relaxed.. Finally the pain is under control. I am confident I made the decision to move on to new meds right on time. No more driving. Dh already took away my car, knowing my fast driving instincts o well .. But am still allowed to go to grocery store etc when I must.. Driving has always been my hobby loved my cars and probably that's why I resisted so long not to use much meds till now.. Susan & Sue who have been in Istanbul know that the city is much enjoyable with a car.. Well that's the end of another chapter now

Still on Xanax & Lexapro for mood and anxiety control.. The yummy doc said we'll stick with those for noww.. Gals, please consult with a psychiatrist for mood meds and pain doc for pain control.. MOs can only know as much on those c- buggers .. My cardiologist is still in control of my heart and pulminologist ( also an immunology specialist) closely watching mu PE and the rest.. The headmaster of the team is of course DH, dealing with his crazy wife still. I am so blessed to have him by my side. He is writing a book on history, hope I get to see it published..

DS finally got the notion mommy is really sick.. A great success of the family I believe.. Not to have him worry for mommy for this long! Now he is 10, just started middle school.. Just another accomplishment to have witnessed that as well..

Guess I'll need 24/7 house assistance from now on, so will be hiring a full time maid soon. Not my fave to have a stranger living in the house, but my bone mets disagree with that )

Life's been good.. Met so many gals during this journey and based on my experiences, what I suggest most is PLEASE IGNORE ANY SORT OF NEGATIVITY in your life..

Especially during the past few months, I was so surprised to experience such horrific pain right after I got sad, angry, overwhelmed .., you name it.. Interesting but true.. Very true. Not easy to deal with everything so possitively I KNOW, yet communicating this with you loved ones DOES help. This has been the greatest discovery of tje past few months living in pain hell..

Btw I am still around, my post may sound a bit like wrapping things up.. NOPE! I want to meet the newbies, that's why I keep on writing.. Hopefully will post more often .. I know you all miss my photos and all.. Elections are coming up in Turkiye.. Fingers crossed we'll finally get rid of this tall mustache!

Codaine is good well life's rewarding me being a good girl all my life.. Now I am a junkie! Haha ))

Hugs, kisses & love

Ebru