April 2015 Chemo Crew... Starting in April? Please join us!

you guys, my hip hurts. Now, it hurts in exactly the same way it hurt befor cancer, kind of a constant pain relieved by excercise...more of a tight tendon feeling in the groin and a knot where the bones twist in my sacrum. It's been going on since basically the end of chemo when I started exercising hard. Chiropractic helps, but he yanked my leg two weeks ago and agvrated the groin tendon. Standing helps, sitting hurts. Lately since I started rads I'm fatigued quite a bit. You know where this is going right? Wondering if the beast somehow avoided all traps set for it and moved into my hip area. Of course, since I'm an emotional cutter, I've been reading all the worst case scenario info on here and I think k tonight I finally drove myself around the bend. Doesn't help I feel a bit like I'm getting a cold. So now I sitting here wondering if any of this was worth it. You know, to the point of wondering if I've stockpiled enough ambien and pain pills, if and when it comes to that. Because I'll be damned if I let my family watch me die horribly while they suffer. Sorry. I guess what I'm looking for is either a pat on the head or a kick in the ass.

Littleblue, are you working with a physical therapist? If not, maybe your MO or RO can prescribe it. Even though you were pretty active during chemo, you're probably 'tighter' than before...if you had the same feeling in the past that was relieved by exercise, now its just extra tight. Chiropractor could have irritated something. Maybe a PT could get it loosened up for you. Is it your hip flexor? One of those fun old-lady conditions we are too young to get...like sciatica or bursitis?

By the way - 100% understandable where your head is at right now. We will all be there someday. It's hard to know what to do when every ache and pain leads to fear. I do know that you will feel better getting it checked out.

zactly, Jen !

oh blue I feel your pain. Seriously I do. Except it isn't in my hip. It's in my back. I've always had a bad back and the chemo and tissue expanders have just made it worse. Once I get these TE out I can finally see the chiropractor again.

Today I have my first post chemo follow up and also a pre opt for my surgery on the 16th.

Littleblue - I'm going to guess IT Band irritation or tightness? I have that (always did) and tightness there will also make your lower back hurt - please call dr and do some stretching that out! Foam roller if you have one?

Went away for a lake weekend so I'm just catching up - this is my "1 week PFC" week! Got my herceptin only infusion this am - they were really overloaded getting all the patients in that missed yesterday.

Have a great monday everyone!

Thanks you guys! For the head pats and the ass kicks. Its pain in the exact same spots as it always hurt before cancer, its just lasting longer. Wondering if Chemo made our tendons and such extra stiff and inflamed? I even told myself to map it, because eventually my crazy mind would get around to thinking "mets". And, last night, it finally did get around to thinking that, and I couldn't shake it, to the point of bringing on a panic attack. I was even working with a PT before radiation started, on the exact same issue. And that was during chemo. And I will be going back. That side has always been messed up since a horse fell on my when I was 17. I know all this, but I'm documenting it here to talk myself down. Addie, I have always had a bad back too. Ok, thanks for the hand up out of the hole. I'm going to be re-reading your posts as my life-line a bunch today I think! You guys are absolutely the best!

ugh I'm trying to accept the fact I will never have good sex again at the age of 30 so very depressing tried again tonight and all though we were able to do other things that do the job (sorry if it'sTMI lol) good old fashion sex just hurts ..once again I miss my old life

Also, proof God has a sense of humor- I had to pluck my eyebrows today. Hair on my head, not so much...

so funny little blue I'm the opposite my hair on my head is growing like crazy but all of the sudden my eyebrows and eyelashes want to fall out!

on the topic of sex- me a a hubby have only been able to do it I think 4 times since chemo. Poor guy- BUT he completely understands thank goodness. Met with the MO yesterday- it was so bittersweet actually. I love my MO and my treatment nurses. They each gave me such a huge hug. They are amazing people. My MO pretty much said now we just monitor me and if I start having symptoms then I come in but other than that I guess I'm done. I'm going to miss everyone at my cancer center but I certainly won't miss chemo or the cancer! Good riddance don't let the door hit ya where the good lord split ya! Who else on this page is still going through chemo?

just finished my last chemo!!! Now just have to sit around with the cold caps for a few more hours then can be officially done.

Congrats Melb!!! YAY!! So happy for you!!!!!!!!!!

Melb congrats!

DiZZ it will fly by. You will be done before you know it.

actually yes he said to obviously still do monthly breast exams and look for lumps and anything abnormal. I won't need mammograms anymore because I have no more breast tissue.

addie, my nurses were so great throughout. On my last chemo, they threw confetti at me and gave me hugs. I also brought them cookies and a card. They seemed to appreciate it, cause they were all eating them.

Thinking of all you Chemosabies. I'm in the chair for my 3 week herceptin. Feeling very fortunate my labs are all good. Now if I could just lose the dang 12lbs!!! Dr told me I can use Nioxin for hair regrowth. Anyone have any experience using?

Thanks, kbeee,for ponytail info. I did cut it still not crazy about it but it is better. Hang in there with the eyebrows. I know it is aggravating. Really sorry I overplucked mine in my 20's. Dang things are there but thin.

Melb Congrats!!! Hooray!!!

Back to work for me tomorrow full time. Very thankful I'm going to a different location, different group, and same pay and benefits. Totally new position in patient accounts. Excited to learn new things and just get back to some kind of normal and an income. I will miss medical assisting clinical care but right now this is better for my immune system and recovery. It will be hard for me to read and respond often during the week. Know that I'm praying, thinking of you all and will catch-up with your posts here and Facebook as I can.

Big hugs all!!!