It has just hit me

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CAMommy
CAMommy Member Posts: 437
edited June 2015 in DCIS (Ductal Carcinoma In Situ)

that this will be a part of my life forever. Even if I'm "cured" it potentially could come back at any point in my life. And whenever I am filling out medical forms, I will have to check the cancer box.

This has hit me like a ton of bricks.

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  • Cindielm
    Cindielm Member Posts: 6
    edited June 2015

    Hi CAMommy!!

    I so sorry for you having to be here, but we are all in this together and you will find out what a wonderful website this is and how many fantastic and gracious women there are to help you and myself deal with this!! I too am now 1 year out from DCIS, and at the beginning I was so numb from it all...... just trying to live the daily life was so difficult on many days. I had trouble comprehending everything because I was so terrified which didn't allow me to mentally process what was happening. I listened to it all, but it just wouldn't sink in, but finally after weeks of having panic attacks it slowly started to make sense. I've understood that DCIS is the one cancer that can be classified as cured, BUT the mental anguish from it possibly coming back is such a strong emotion that I too somedays wonder if I'm ever going to get passed it. I've read and reread and printed out many articles on DCIS and have spoken to my BS. My last visit (April) he said that I will see him in October (with a mammo) and then if all is ok---which he totally expects, then I don't have to see him for a year!!! WHAT!!! When we started this nightmare he said I would be seeing him constantly for quite a while, however because after my test, surgeries and radiation he thought things were going very well and that it wouldn't be necessary to see him as much. I still am kind of afraid of it coming back, but he has reassured me that if I have any questions or CONCERNS he will bring me in just for peace of mind!!! As far as checking the box for cancer, you're right.......it does make it very real!!! If you get a chance, please read the thread from Beesie. She has helped so many people in understanding DCIS and all of the twist and turns associated with it. I'm so thankful for all of these amazing women that helped me and can help you in finding the sunshine in the midst of rain!!!!! Please keep in touch, and remember I too get scared all the time!!!

    cindie

    Dx DCIS, Stage 0, Grade 2, ER+/PR Surgery 06/02/2014 Lump Surgery 06/30/2014 Lump Radiation Therapy 08/13/14 External Meds Arimidex 10/14 - 5 yrs

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  • CAMommy
    CAMommy Member Posts: 437
    edited June 2015

    I have to admit, when I was at the dentist today and they asked if there were any changes in my health I said no. :(. I couldn't bring myself to tell my overly gabby dental hygienist. I don't really like her and she's a blabber mouth. I was only have a teeth cleaning and no X-rays. I didn't even see the dentist. I figured she didn't need to know. And I felt like I don't want a million questions or your pity either. I don't nee tha

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