How is this even possible!!! ILC??? does anyone understand it?
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hi. I feel the same way as you. My onco said i had this tumor growing inside of me which i never felt and all of a sudden it is there. I felt a thickening while showering. My gut told me that was not going to be good. Gut is always right.
I dont think we will ever get our answers. Doctors dont even have the answers.
Im sorry for what u are going through and hope to find you in a much better place soon
Blessings right back.
😜🙏
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Hi again,
I completely understand your wanting to be done with everything that brings you physical pain. It seems like such a dragged out process. I am 1 year and 5 months after my double mastectomy. Had my final implant reconstruction this past January. I never thought i would get here. I decided to lose my nipples too. PS wants to reconstruct them, but as you, I am so done. I dont want anymore surgeries, hospitalizations, anesthesias, needles, medications, recoveries dr appointments etc. You too will get there. Dont lose hope. Hang tough. You can do this. X
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I'M NOT SORRY FOR THE FUCKING CAPS OR THE LANGUAGE....I'M A CHRISTIAN AND I DON'T USE THIS LANGUAGE BUT IT'S TIME...I STARTED THIS THREAD "How is this even possible:::" AND I'M STILL PISSED....EVEN MORE SO...I MET WITH MY ONC YESTERDAY AND ASKED HER (YES CAPS, I'M YELLING) HOW I WENT FROM A TUMOR THE SIZE OF MY THUMB NAIL TO 5 CM AND STAGE 3 AND TESTING FOR STAGE 4 NEXT WEEK...CHEMO, RADS, HOW IS THIS FUCKING POSSIBLE IN THIS DAY AND AGE...DO THEY IGNORE ILC...I ASKED MY ONC WHAT THE AVERAGE STAGE (1,2,3) SIZE, & GRADE, WAS OF 1ST DX ILC CANCER PATIENTS...SHE TOLD ME...WHO KNOWS...SO YES...I'M I PISSED... ALL THE MONEY FOR RESEACH GOES FOR DUCT CANCER....I GET THAT...BUT WHAT ABOUT THE ONE OUT OF TEN ILC WOMEN???????????????????????????????????? WHAT ABOUT US.....I DON'T FEEL "SICK" OR LIKE I HAVE 'CANCER'....BUT ILC WOMEN...PATIENTS...HAVE A DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE THAN DUCT PATIENTS...BOTH ARE IMPORTANT...BOTH...DIE. I'M OKAY WITH THAT...BUT I'M NOT OKAY WITH MORE WOMEN SUFFERING.
whew...caps off...deap breath...still tears...ILC ladies...PM me your stories...It may be a while before I respond...(treatment...and all) but my goal is to draw attention to our kind of cancer...and to be totally honest....I'm so tired...when I stop fighting....I need someone to pick up the cause.....this is crazy....You can't go from healthy to death in three months!
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I understand how frustrating this can be. I can only share what I have learned and I cannot tell you if it is fact or just bits of truth and lots of assumptions. Yes, we are a much smaller group than IDC. I don't think anyone cares less about it, there are just not as many people to study and test. Sorry, I know you don't care about that junk right now. This is what I know, it is referred to as the sneaky BC. They cannot see it as easily because of the way it grows, that is why people are usually at a later stage when diagnosed. I was diagnosed with ILC in Nov. of 2013. The summer of 2012, had a mammogram, ultrasound because of dense tissue and a biopsy of one area. Everything was clear. 15 months later the ILC was in every quadrant of my left breast. They say it is slow growing but I don't think that is very slow. Most of the information, I learned online from medical studies, there are some studies out there, they are just on a much smaller scale. Just be careful not to believe everything you read. When I found out that my cancer was different than most, I was angry too. I think we feel stronger in numbers. I guess I have come to realize it doesn't matter if its ILC or IDC, its still cancer and if anyone really understood it, so many people wouldn't be suffering from it. You are tired, but strong. I can feel the fire in your words. You can fight this.
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I did forget one important thing. I have read that ILC sometimes creates slight but noticeable changes in the breast, maybe different shape or a slight dimpling look. For me there were slight changes that I didn't really think much of it. However, I slept on my stomach prior to all this and that is where I felt a difference. I couldn't feel a lump but that breast didn't feel right when I slept. Woman need to get checked every year and stress to their doctors when something is different. We know our bodies better than anyone.
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Oh Sydney ---thank you - I woke up at 4:30 am (funny, because past few weeks that's when I usually finally fall asleep)....I'm going to try to find that last ALL CAP post and delete it before I influence any one else...Yesterday was....obvously....a bad day....and I'm not going to give up my fight for ILC cancer just becaue my last my rant says so. Funny...my little time here in this forum...I've noticed lots of deleted posts...I was always curious...wanted to read what was deleted.. ......
Thing is...Maybe I'm over looking something...but every ILC lady I read is like us (yep I remember you are IDC-...boom...here it is...bigger than we thought...not early stage like we thought...blah blah blah....and yes, I''m pissed.....
But I'm so thankful for people like you who keep me in check.
My problem (situation) is that, honestly, even before the dx I had no desire to live anymore (situational depression - not clincal...to many logical reasons to give up on living - not suidical - just no fight to live) And then, bam, ILC, on top of everything else...I'm just tired...of living...of fighting...if there is any fight left in me...it's for others...not for me. I'm done. I don't care anymore. And I don't need people to preach to me about how sweet life is and how not to give up and all that blah blah blah blah...they don't know what I've been through the last 10 years- and I'm tired of being "strong"...sooooo soooo soooo tired.. But, ladies like you keep me in check - so hopefully, I dont bring others down with me! Last thing I want to do.
I do want to start an awareness fight for ILC....maybe right a book/pamplet with the support of research/personal stories like mine. Problem is...tons of personal experiences/stories....very little ILC only research.
God Bless you my new friend....
(On the plus side, just so that you know that I have a positive side, I have a drop dead georgous (inside and out) daughter, and her husband, my "son", and the most adorable 2 grandsons in the entire world - tell me different and them are "fighting words'...lol...and I have a wayward son that hung the moon- so life doesn't suck...There is lot's of pleasure - it is rare (seriously) that a mother/daughter i are as close as we are....not sure if that is good or bad for her....*sigh*) But having said all that - when/if I pass....while she won't realize it immediatly...earthly life is sooooooo short, a blink of an eye, and she will be with me soon enough......
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Deleted - because I had a BAD day and I did not need to bring the rest of the world down with me (hugs)
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You didn't bring me down. I get it, we are all mad and I think it is good for everyone to see that we are not alone when we feel our worst. Truthfully, I call myself a realist, not an optimist, I usually see the cup as half empty. That being said, I hate to see depression or anger eat anyone up. Please talk to your doctor about your lack of sleep, see if he can recommend or prescribe something. You need rest. Continue to be strong and don't stop venting, it helps.
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all this is very interesting to read. Also a bit scary. It seems ILC is missed more often than not. So here's my situation:
Multiple surgical biopsies, all benign. I attributed increased "pulling" to scar tissue, but then thought I felt something. Nothing on mammogram, but primary MD felt it and US found something. CN biopsy: punctured a cyst, found ALH. Surgical biopsy in January: LCIS, extensive with micro calcification and other benign garbage. Second path opinion was the same. Now. On Aromasin.
Current problem, in my head? I feel a small lump behind nipple. It seems to be in the same place I felt it before surgery. And the pulling has resumed. Now, I am again attributing it to scar. But the lumpfeels bigger. Could they have missed something. Posts here make me wonder. I see the oncologist for recheck next week and will discuss it with her. Previously, she has told me that MRI is not necessary "at your age." I am an active 69 years old, fighting to swim my daily mile or walk my 5 mile goal, despite the aches and pains of .Aromasin. If MO dismisses this lump as nothing, should I press for an MRI? What does age have to do with it, other than the years have caused benign garbage to accumulate? By the way...heterogeneously dense breasts, father and two uncles with prostate cancer, aunt and cousins with BC.
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At your age?!?! #%^€£%%€#%! I'm in my 60s and hope to have another 30 plus years
My dad had complete tests and treatment for cancer at 89.
IMO push for the MRI so you can sleep at night. I trusted my I tuition and asked for a BMX and was glad I did as was the doctor when the path report came back. It might be nothing and hoping it isbut wondering can also make us sick
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Alittle, please make your doc watch this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWPRD52H5F4 It is only 12 minutes and it has to do with treatment of "older" women. Then demand an MRI. It is probably nothing, but 1. that thing about age is complete bull and 2. you deserve to have full info.
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thanks, Momine. I loved the YouTube. By the way, my uncle died of prostate cancer at age 94. When he was diagnosed, they said to,leave it alone as he would die of something else. He left it alone until it metastasized. There was nothing else wrong with him when we lost him.
Hopefully, I will not have to argue with my MO about this.
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thanks. Chloesmom. I'll see you at the gym in 2040.
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there is a post under Just Diagnosed that needs positive words. Please look and respond to her.
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Alittle, you are welcome. The guy happens to be my doctor, which is how I came across it. But I think it is quite eye-opening that women over 60 are a) considered "elderly" in medical parlance and b) excluded from most studies. My doc is quite adamant about fitting the treatment to the patient without prejudice and taking into consideration QOL, personality and state of mind, and I am quite sure he would give you an MRI in a heartbeat.
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Hello sisters, been reading back through all our posts since I was dxed early Feb 2015 - just had another chemo treatment - and I've not been out of bed all day - but I wanted all here to know that I am stronger because of the companionship I've found in this place - It's been a difficult decade for me - and this ILC was just the last thing I needed - but I've read so many other stories here that makes me feel like all I do is whine compared to the strong women I've met here. So this is just a "shout out" to all the women here who have been here for each other - to remind each other that I'm sure that we all appriciate the words of comfort and wisdom that we've brought each other. So even if I don't always respond - I just wanted all to know that I've felt your presence in my life and it has made a huge difference in my place of peace. Blessings! (And yes, Ladies, all who remember me, I'm still full of piss and vinagar!)
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So glad you checked in December! I thought I was the only one whining!
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Thanks for all of your posts to all of you with ILC. Good luck to everyone.
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Pretty scary stuff. I was diagnosed in April, and they've had me on Femara ever since. Going on 5 months. My bi-lateral MX is Sept. 30. I already have multiple tumors in both breasts. But some are LCIS.
Question: I want a nipple sparing if possible. All cancer is thought to be far enough away from the nipple. Sounds like almost everyone with ILC ends up finding they have way more cancer than initially told by imaging. So what will my results likely be? I would like to hear from others with similar profiles and what they ended up doing.
Thanks,
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Leslie if you read my profile you will see that I opted for a BMX even though 2 doctors recommended a lumpectomy. My personality is such that I wouldn't have been able to sleep at night with tissue left that might not show up something hiding. As it was something was there after all. I'm also a wimp and didn't want the extra pain of a recon. BMX was enough.
They say your mortality doesn't change with more invasive surgery but the quality of my life and not possibly having to have more surgery made my decision
Wish you the best with your choice
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Reading the posts, I have to chime in: my tumor mass was very palpable. When I questioned my doctors about my diagnosis, they told me that's what they had observed in other ILC patients also, despite the common knowledge to the contrary. This beast apparently is a "shape changer" in different people.
I stopped Tamox since 2013. But I still suffer from really bad leg cramps so I assume some residual drug is still in my system. Yet I was diagnosed with ILC this year. Since ILC supposedly takes time to grow, I think it means Tamox does not protect me from ILC much.
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So Treelilac, you had a reoccurrence 5 years after your initial BMX and reconstruction? My ILC did form lumpy tissue, but with years of Fibrocystic problems, it was very hard to tell what was what. I had a clear mammogram 5 months before, but it mentioned dense tissue, however my Dr. chose not to do an ultrasound. She's fired.
I've been on the Femara only treatment and surgery will be at the 6 month from DX mark. By watching others, it appears many find they have lots more cancer than was imaged.
I want the best result possible, but am not sure whether a nipple sparing with expanders will work. Supposedly my cancer is at least 6cm from the nipple.
My fatigue and achiness are pretty bad at times. I assume it's the Femara. I'd been on bio identical hormones beginning almost 10 years before the cancer. So going cold turkey hasn't been a walk in the park.
I've read Tamoxifen isn't effective in post-menopausal women with ILC, I don't know about pre-menopausal. I think you need to be on something to reduce estrogen. But they've found traditional treatment for Ductal Cancer doesn't work for Lobular. Many Chemo's aren't effective. But I think there's lot's of info here.
How was your surgery experience and results? I'm trying to get some idea of what to expect.
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I had UMX one at a time.
For me, the procedure isn't really bad. The first time I had surgery they kept me overnight at the hospital. The second time, as soon as I woke up, they sent me home. It was sore but they also gave you enough pain meds. I think it's wise to make an effort to prevent constipation from the beginning. It might take some trials to find a best position to sleep. Three weeks out I felt pretty much recovered. Six weeks out I was out and about in Yellow Stone because it was my in-law's anniversary and they requested the presence of family members. Sigh.
It was the "drains" that bothered me more. They were mentally taxing but didn't hurt or anything. They are not hard to take care of either. Most people will have them out, I think, in one week. For me they took much longer, hence the resentment.
Do shop around about the reconstruction surgeon. They have different approaches and opinions about what's feasible or not. For me, the UMX and recon happened in one surgery, but you don't have to choose that route if you need time to think.
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Thanks Treelilac,
I'm trying to gage what level of support I'll need post-surgery. They are keeping me another night because I live alone and have some pain management issues. I've already been on Narcotics because of other Orthopedic procedures, so it's anticipated it may be harder to manage my pain.
I'm a back sleeper, so that's an advantage. Will I be able to be alone after 3 days
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Leslie do you have a recliner? If so you may want to sleep in it. If not you may want to invest in a foam wedge. I skept in the recliner with small pillows under my arms for 10 days took Tylenol for a day. The pain wasn't the issue, it was trying to move and not pull on the incisions and drains
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I think the difficulty depends on how much the pain would affect you lifting your arms (e.g. range of motion etc).
The first time I had UMX, I was a single mom. But my sister flied from New York to help me for one week. I also hired a part-time babysitter. She then had people from church delivering meals to me. I really appreciated that. I also stocked up quick foods (frozen pasta, cans) before surgery. This is the time you want to mobilize all your resources. It never hurts to ask. Besides, people are usually more generous than we think.
I read on other forums that sometimes you may qualify for a home-health professional through insurance to come in and assist you for a couple of hours everyday. Maybe you can ask the social worker at the hospital?
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Good luck with your surgery. I had a double lumpectomy with radiation and I am taking Arimidex. I took zoladex for 3 months to suppress my ovaries and then I had an oophorectomy to medically induce menopause so that I could take an Aromatase Inhibitor (Arimidex/Anastrazole). I was not in menopause or even perimenopause at dx.
I cannot comment on a mastecomy. However, I sleep on my stomach and/or side. Because so much tissue was removed with my double lumpectomies in my left breast, they had to do plastic surgery to both breasts so that I would look normal. Actually, my plastice surgeon was phenomenal and I look great now. Much better than before! However, sleeping on my back was really difficult. I love the idea of a recliner. Unfortunately, I wasn't home - I live in Florida and I was treated at M.D. Anderson Cancer Center in Texas, so I was not home and did not have the option of a recliner. I used many pillows. It was really hard to get comfortable and to sleep. However, the surgery was easy for me but it is different surgery than you will be having.
Good luck again.
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When I had BMX with immediate recon, I used recliner to sleep or if in bed, used wedge pillow. I thought it was very hard to get up though. So, when my recon failed & I did DIEP recon two years later, I bought a used lift chair. My thinking was that if I could get up easier, I wouldn't sit around so much & blood flow helps healing.
I loved using a lift chair!!! I got it for only $100 from Craigslist & it was in perfect condition.
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Definitely small pillows to rest under your forearms so there isn't a drag on your shoulders. Be sure to hold the drain tubes near your skin when you empty them so they don't pull. ( kind of like holding a child s hair near the scalp when combing out a knot so you don't tug on the scalp).
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My tumor formed a lump, but it didn't show up on mammograms at all.
It was shown up on US and MRI.
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