STFU (Shut the F*** UP)

Alyson.. I say dance.. And by the way , I definitely know what a rubber is. 😃

I guess I was one of the lucky ones........My BS was the best Dr. I have ever met....loved him from the day we met...........compassionate.....talked to me and my 6 children for 2 hours....face to face........answered questions, explained everything...........and when we were done he gave us all my alternatives........he was a Saint............he got me the best Radiation Oncologist, Mdical Oncologist, and I had the best Rads team every........I developed Lymhedema and my PT. was a cancer patient also, and was wonderful.............

_{The only thing that beat me up was the AI, and as of 2 weeks ago I am done with it........after 3 12 years on Letrozole took a vacation for 3 months and tried............Arimidex........worse pill ever, worse then Letrozole.........as of today with my MO's blessing and approval..........I am done with the AI's................might be a bad decision..............but my MO said........she thought my chances of recurrence were very low, and why should I suffer the way I am with the SE's of any AI...........}

_{So wish me luck.......and if I made a bad choice, at least until the day comes if it ever does, I can have some QOL.......................Amen........}

_{But I would never do alternative medicine as my first choice.........never........I could do that as a "go along and eat well choice", but never my choice of treatment................}

Shit-Fire  (Allyson **** this is a word we use in America  in the south to express -I have messed up!)

I don't even know what an A1 is. 

I got my first prescript for Taxmoxifen two weeks ago and I have not filled it.  Just so anti drug.

and by the way can someone send me an acronym dictionary for cancer!!!!! ha ha ha

I guess right about 60 % of the time - the other 40% I provide much more intriguing interprets.

The list of acronyms is at the top of the page, on the left side, below the larger blue bars that list the topics.

Kathy, I don't like drugs either. It was emotional for me to fill my rx, but I did. I'm willing to take this stuff to keep the cancer away. Maybe you should fill it, and give it a try. You can always stop if the side effects are too much. It's your choice and I will support you whatever you chose!

Poppy

thanks, "bravette!"

Lucy, Sometimes things happen in life that make people go away. I've found all we can do is wish them well and hope they come back someday soon. In the meantime, we miss them like crazy and remember the great fun we used to have together.

My Mother used to say that nothing ever stays the same. I used to take comfort in those words when things weren't going well in my life. When things were going well, those words would haunt me.

Now I try to enjoy each day as it comes and enjoy everyone around me. Then when the days get difficult, I have good memories to draw upon. I have so many good memories here on BCO, and I plan to make many more.

Slow.. Very wise words.. I'm planning on being here on BCO to share those memories with you !!

1am here.. Insomnia strikes again.!! Would love to take something to help.me noddle off.. but am frightened of taking any other medication with the tamoxifen...

Slow.. HaHa.. It's noddle off.. but I much prefer your ' noodle off " I love the Italian slant on it.! I need some of your muscle relaxants.. It's 3.15 am now ! I hate how my mind travels to the dark side when I can't sleep!

Ducky..How things going for you.? Any news on your grandson.?

Any photos of the Christening Ducky?

Lucy, Is something on your mind that you're not sleeping - other than the obvious??

I get that way too when I can't sleep. My mind goes to too many places it shouldn't. I call it going to crazy town. Tomboy and I have had MANY conversations about crazy town. It seems we always visit there late at night when it's quiet. Once you're there, it's difficult to get away from that stinkin' town!!

I've done that too Ducky.

Usually it's more about the different kinds of C that I've convinced myself I have. I think I've finally gotten a handle on it though. That muscle relaxer puts me out, so I don't even have time to think anymore. I've also mastered the fine art of distraction during the day. Yep....as long as I don't think....I'm good to go!! haha

Slow.. HaHa.. It's true.. I can't sleep at night , then am so dopey in the morning it's not funny.!! Yep.. It's my mind causing me havoc on the night.. problems seem so much worse.. Ugh !!

Ducky.. You summed it up perfectly.. Laying awake trying to solve all the problems in the family and the world.!! .. HaHa.. Sort of funny really .. especially seeing my brain is so scrambled lately that I'm.not capable of solving anything really !!

The middle of the night is great for stupid television.  I watched something last night called right now.  it is like American funniest videos.  Some poor bride was trashing her dress at the conclusion of her wedding and jumped off a dock.  Unfortunately, the dress ballooned over her head and she could not get her head above water.  about five people jump in and were able to pull the voluminous dress down so her head could surface.....

Was I ever that dumb........Yes, even dumber!!!!

hugs to all of you... there is always a morning, hold on.

unfortunately yes 230 and I am up I'm talking to people I'm going to drink some milk and then lay down and watch TV I'm watching Murder She Wrote every night from 11 to like two or three or something hope you guys have a good night and I even people that are up that would be me I got up at 3 o'clock today and that's because my friend with me up