I'm waiting, too

Your comments are the first laugh I've had since this stuff began. Thank you. Vanishing sounds good to me.

Biopsy yesterday, results in a few days. Couldn't happen at a busier time of year. Don't want the kids knowing anything as they have such wonderful things going on this summer. I finally got Xanax which really dials down the anxiety. But I am just so worn out with this hanging over me and all the stuff I google.

Dragonista17 I like your post, vanishing. That's a thought! So far I cried once, sitting alone waiting for my first surgical consultation for my BIRAD 5 calcifications in my right breast. The only reason I saw the paperwork was that I was transferring it on a CD from where I did my follow up mammo. I looked at the CD and I Googled it of course. Until then, no one explained the BIRAD class to me and I am wondering why the hell am I in a surgical consult? I am not having surgery. The doctor who reviewed my follow up mammo kept thanking me for coming in, he was just passionate about his job, right? Well, based on my search the odds were not good.

Sitting there alone, I was thinking about how I would tell my friends, who I moved away from 2 1/2 years ago. I cracked! I pulled myself together before the surgeon came in, but I felt pretty panicked. She explained it all to me and confirmed the high probability of cancer.

Since then my stereotactic biopsy was b9 (yay?) but as my my surgeon is relaying the results she tells me I'm still in the 80% likelihood it's cancer group and I'm like, what? She is clearly still concerned and next week is my lumpectomy to get this mass out. I have been on that "what if it is" and "no it's not" roller coaster for a month now. Final resolution is over a week out. My concentration is off at work and my patience is very thin at times. Monday is my pre-op, so I may see about some Xanax or something to help with pre-op jitters. I don't see anxiety getting better before then. Until this process I have only had wisdom teeth out, a mole removed and lasik, no real bodily incisions. Very nervous!

Only a few select folks know what I am dealing with, no family members yet besides my hubby. I'm also glad to have found this place to mind purge and get more information from real people and not internet stories.

To top off the waiting, I have to go back in about 4 months for a follow up mammo on the left breast due to some lesser calcifications. I'm starting to get worn out enough now due to poor sleep and stress that my interest in looking up more information is almost gone. I just hope I get my results before the holiday weekend otherwise I will be sitting and wondering that much longer. What a ride!

yep, me too- I expect they'll be phoning today or tomorrow at the latest. I feel like I'm waiting on a reprieve from the governor.

And Hummbird- what a crazy ride you are on indeed. I hope you get the answers you want ASAP. Congrats on the b9 result. Regardless what they want you to do now- it's a celebration in my mind

Dragonista,

I'm sorry they did not say -" never mind, all clear " but from what I know about DCIS -very encouraging. It just sucks not being able to get out of this revolving door that involves just more waiting.

Sending good thoughts for the MRI and will look forward to your posts!

oh my! After reading all of these posts, I'm more of a wreck than I was! I'm waiting to have a biopsy done on a lump I found a couple of weeks ago in my left breast. It is same breast I had in-situ carcinoma in back in 2001. I am a nervous wreck going on with "what if's"! I am normally a positive person, but this second time around is getting the best of me. The waiting is pure murder, excuse expression! The xanax is sounding like a good idea at this moment. Thank you for "listening" to me sound off!!!