Recurrent Pleomorphic ILC

Hi, ladies--I was very active on these boards in 2007/08 when I was diagnosed with pleomorphic ILC . Just found out today that I have a local recurrence. Not sure about distant spread b/c still have to have scans, etc. I used to do a lot of research but had stopped after treatment was done in 2008. Now I'm finding that there were studies that came out in 2008 that say Tamoxifen doesn't work for ILC, and even some studies that suggest that it actually encourages ILC to spread and makes it worse. So frankly, I'm sort of pissed off. And the only reason I found out I had a local recurrence was b/c I kept pushing for MRIs after my onc said I didn't need them any more b/c I'd been stable for six years. I'd insisted, we compromised on every two years, and bam. Sorry to be rambling, but I'm just irritated about the whole situation. I don't feel like I can trust the docs b/c they don't pay close attention to my subtype of bc.