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Shimmymoo
Shimmymoo Member Posts: 8
edited April 2015 in Waiting for Test Results

hi

I never thought I'd find myself posting on two cancer forums in less than one year but here I am. I had a hysterectomy in August for early stage cancer and after a routine mamo lest week was told I needed an ultrasound and diagnostic mamo. Had those yesterday and then sent for a core biopsy same day. Waiting for the results now. All I know is there is a 1 cm solid mass in my left breast. I was so upset after the biopsy I forgot to ask for my radiology reports. Now I'm too afraid to get them. I don't want to see birads score.

I simply can't cope. I cry all the time and am enraged that I have to go through this ordeal after just recovering from my surgery. I am certain the dr will tell me I have bc and I can't stop worrying about needing chemo and radiation and surgery and I don't even have a diagnosis yet. This fear is getting in the way of everything and causing me to lash out at loved ones. I simply do not know what to do. My family and husband are trying to be supportive but I don't find any comfort. I'm miserable.

Sorry for the rant :(

I originally posted in the wrong place! Sorry

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  • MelissaDallas
    MelissaDallas Member Posts: 7,268
    edited April 2015

    Shimmy, I went through a very similar situation very soon after surgery for ovarian cancer & having been very ill. I had atypia on my breast biopsy but not cancer. Hang in there. I totally understand the "you have got to be kidding, because this just can't be happening" feeling. I know you want to scream "NO MORE

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  • Shimmymoo
    Shimmymoo Member Posts: 8
    edited April 2015

    yes! That's exactly it!!!!!

    Prior to my hyster I was hospitalized for 8 days for a bum gallbladder. Had that out and less than 1 yr later the hyster. Now this. I'm beginning to think this is a sick joke. I'm only 42 and prior to my gallbladder I was never sick a day in my life!


    Thanks for your reply :)


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  • MelissaDallas
    MelissaDallas Member Posts: 7,268
    edited April 2015

    Yes, same here and then I had one very bad year starting a few months before I turned 50. (I left the profanity out of what I was really saying above;

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  • Fakeboobs123
    Fakeboobs123 Member Posts: 92
    edited April 2015

    hey Shimmy, pretty much everyone here I've read about with a BIRADS 5 score have said that the radiologist or Breast surgeon told them to brace themselves for the worst before pathology came in. Also many people initially full of dread with the BIRADS 5 score who get confirmation of cancer often go,on to say their cancer was found early and or the prognosis is good, everyone on these boards feels 100% better when the pathology results come in and they can move forward. 80% of biopsies come back benign, think good thoughts and remember the stats are in your favor. Youve had some rotten luck with your health recently Shimmy :( I wonder what triggered your gall bladder issue, I've heard that can be v painful

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  • bellajenn
    bellajenn Member Posts: 51
    edited April 2015

    I'm sorry you've had so much to deal with all at once. You found the right place to rant and get support! Good luck!!

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