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  • MombieZombie
    MombieZombie Member Posts: 509
    edited April 2015

    LillieRose--Glad to hear you are BRCA-. I know what you mean about wanting something to blame. It would be nice to have the "blamed" thing in front of me so I could punch it's lights out. LOL It's good that you have started on your treatment, but it's not a surprise that you feel scared for more after what you are going through. Have you told your doc about the fuzzy, dizzy, headache stuff? Make sure you do. I truly hope tomorrow is better. I'll be praying for you. (is that OK? I read in another thread that some are uncomfortable with offers of prayer)

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  • MombieZombie
    MombieZombie Member Posts: 509
    edited April 2015

    LillieRose--I'm glad to hear that you are BRCA-. I understand your desire to have something to blame. I'd love my something to blame to be in front of me so I can punch it's lights out. LOL It's good that you have started treatment, but it's not a surprise that you are feeling scared after all that you have gone through from the first treatment. Have you told your doc about the fuzziness, dizziness and headaches? You should. I hope tomorrow is better. I'll be praying for you. (is that OK? I read in a different thread that some are uncomfortable with offers of prayer)

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  • LillieRose
    LillieRose Member Posts: 112
    edited April 2015

    I told them! They are checking me out tomorrow before chemo.... It scares me... I actually think it's from my panic attacks and not the chemo but who knows? And thank you for praying for me! I'll take all the help I can get ;) haha

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  • MombieZombie
    MombieZombie Member Posts: 509
    edited April 2015

    Oh good, I'm glad you told them. Sounds like they won't mess around. So sorry you feel so scared. No one needs extra worries piled on top of all of this!! I had horrible panic attacks throughout my radiation treatment because it was triggering PTSD related to a past trauma. Not fun. Do you have anything you can do to breathe through your panics? Or some Xanax or something?

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  • LillieRose
    LillieRose Member Posts: 112
    edited April 2015

    I've been taking Ativan but just a little because of the baby! I need to be alert for her :)

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  • MombieZombie
    MombieZombie Member Posts: 509
    edited April 2015

    That's tough having a little one in the mix. Your story tugs my heart strings dear. Wish I could take it all away for you. Cyber hugs go only so far. I don't know a lot about anxiety meds. Is there one that's OK to take with cancer treatment that won't make you too loopy to care for your little bitty?

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  • LillieRose
    LillieRose Member Posts: 112
    edited April 2015

    thank you for caring! I feel so much better meeting all these strong woman who came out the other side :)

    Ativan is the less loopy med! Haha I just take like pieces of it!

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  • clarrn
    clarrn Member Posts: 557
    edited April 2015

    Are you taking Zofran(ondansetron)? It gave me headaches like that and although I still had some off of it, they were a billion times better.

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  • MombieZombie
    MombieZombie Member Posts: 509
    edited April 2015

    Behind the Pink

    Dreaming,

    She steps behind a pink curtain

    Wearing a flowing pink gown

    She hadn't been wearing before

    Of this she was surely certain

    Strangely,

    In the room, there is a pink box

    Plainly labeled "Lost and Found"

    She knew that it was hers

    In her hands, pink keys for the locks

    Curious,

    She sat down on a pink chair

    To unlock the box and look upon

    The mysterious contents therein

    Lifting the lid, she began to stare

    Surprisingly,

    The box is filled with many pink things

    She had thought were lost

    A picture among them, of her...before,

    To which her heart still clings

    Excitedly,

    She removed her silken pink gloves

    Oh so carefully, she began to retrieve

    Those precious things, yearning to

    Regain all of her past loves

    Sadly,

    Some slip from her grasp, into the pink pile

    But this simply reveals more things

    She hadn't yet noticed before

    Although they'd been there all the while

    Wonderingly,

    She pushes aside all the pink things

    There, behind the pink, she finds

    A new picture of herself

    She is beautiful, and she has wings

    Suddenly,

    A mirror appears, bordered with a pink frame

    With awe and wonder, she sees

    All the things the pink has changed

    Knowing she would never be the same

    With hope,

    She turns from the pink all around

    Like a caterpillar becomes a butterfly

    Her pink chrysalis had been

    Filled with things both lost and found

    With joy,

    Her heart need not sink into the pink

    For she has wings, and she is beautiful

    And so she soars among pink clouds to find the Sun...

    Behind the Pink.

    by Sara L Tveten, April 2015

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  • Alibeths
    Alibeths Member Posts: 656
    edited April 2015

    ugh. We r all so young!!!! I start manana.

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