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  • BBwithBC45
    BBwithBC45 Member Posts: 727
    edited April 2015

    Diane D, I was told at the LGFB session that we shouldn't use false eyelashes during chemo due to irritation/sensitivity issues. I have not idea what I'll do once my eyelashes fall out. I don't see how using just the eyeliner will do much for my look.

  • ninjamary
    ninjamary Member Posts: 306
    edited April 2015

    Diane - I did whitewater rafting on the new river in WV. Loved it!

    Well it seems since I did not get my blood work completed at 3:30 pm on Friday moves my surgery to Wednesday. Don't even get me started. I spent the morning in tears about this development as no one at the damn hospital or MO office seems to give a shit. It's no big deal. I tried to schedule my chemo for Thursday and they balked as I will be in too much pain. I have a bag of weed, two bottles of vicodin and will probably be sent home with more pain killers after Wednesday. I'll be fine, but no one believes me so I'm scheduled for chemo on Friday. Another week and I'd be a month out since my last chemo.

    My charm bracelet. I'm so glad I purchased the F the U and the C on Saturday. I ordered the K off of ebay as they didn't have that charm (they were discontinued letters and I got them on the cheap). I actually felt stupid buying the charms as the F would do, but now it's nice to look down at my wrist and see the word FUC. For some reason it helps. Especially after the past several days.

    Oh and I'm not crying anymore. I'm fine and blaming the forced menopause. It feels good to vent. My husband sort of gets it, but he's all calm. Which is good, because I'm all Irish-Italian over this shit sandwich most times. LOL>

  • greenae
    greenae Member Posts: 540
    edited April 2015

    hi all

    Ninja, I hope you feel better. Venting always helps my Irish -Italian self. And I sure have been doing a lot of that past few months.

    Italychick, I am all over my PS every visit. Lol. He says I am very low risk for LE, but wants me to go easy. So I got the ok for the stationary 2 weeks ago, gonna try for the Spin this week. Lol. I Know how much thise endorphins do for me. He doesnt want me doing the NYC bike Tour (40mile) in may cuz he thinks toomuch danger of falling off. Ugh. I did it pAst 2 years, and if weather is good , I would really like to go. Anyway, thanks for the push... And I think you will be fine after round 3. I think the riding does u so much good.

    Feel good today

    Arlene

  • SueH58
    SueH58 Member Posts: 632
    edited April 2015

    Alright Mary! Glad you went for the full word!!!!


  • rleepac
    rleepac Member Posts: 755
    edited April 2015

    greenae - how do they know you're low risk for LE? I thought they couldn't predict. I'm not arguing, I'm just curious because I'll be having surgery in August and I want to know if there is some way they can actually predict risk!

    Bekah

  • SueH58
    SueH58 Member Posts: 632
    edited April 2015

    Sorry to ask, but what is LE?


  • Italychick
    Italychick Member Posts: 2,343
    edited April 2015

    Arlene, I got the same argument from my breast surgeon about worrying about me falling on my bike. Heck, I can fall down walking on the sidewalk, so I didn't feel that, for me, she was making a very persuasive argument. I mean, I can't give everything up in my life.

    SueH58, LE is lymphedema, which is swelling of arm, breast or trunk associated with lymph node removal or radiation. From what I have been able to find out, it can hit right after surgery or be delayed and show up later on. I was at a doctor's office about a month ago and this poor 78 year old woman was in there for lymphedema, and her swollen arm was twice the size of the other one. She said she couldn't even use that arm. Scared me pretty bad. One school of thought is to go to a lymphedema therapist right after surgery to minimize the chance of it occurring.

  • eheinrich
    eheinrich Member Posts: 792
    edited April 2015

    My Onc surgeon said the fewer lymph nodes they remove the lower the risk of LE.

  • rleepac
    rleepac Member Posts: 755
    edited April 2015

    e - I've heard that too, but then I've also heard you can get LE with only one node removed. Or even just with significant trauma to the lymph system like a massive contusion to the armpit or something like that. But I suppose it would be lower with fewer nodes removed. It depends on how gentle they are with the lymph channels when they are scraping out our killer breast tissue.

    I guess you just have to look at what offers the LOWEST risk profile. It all sucks and the surgery/post-op complications is another shit sandwich we get to look forward to (or some of us are already dealing with!)...

    Bekah

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited April 2015

    Question for any of you who want to weigh in? Have you done any visualization of any kind? I have had a few visits with a therapist and she is into this kind of stuff and gave me some resources. I am not big into it. I had been thinking lately anyway (before cancer) I wanted to learn some meditation techniques and this is kind of along those lines. I am just wondering if anyone is doing it. I listened to the sample and it sounds kind of goofy but I am trying to be open minded.

  • greenae
    greenae Member Posts: 540
    edited April 2015

    Hi all

    The risk for LE with any lymph node removal is 5 to 17%, and it can occur ANY time after surgery. Ugh, even years and years later. I had my Onco BS set me up with an LE PT eval at NYU...I am still waiting for the appt. date. My PS is the one who said, "You're not going to get LE." And I for once, decided to listen and Go with that! (lol, I am not known to be the most positive person on earth. Heh...just look at me...Triple negative BC.) I don't know why he said that, or is so sure...I just want to believe something Good!

    Theresa, I figured out another reason why they don't want me in Spin. The room is small, dark, and HOT. Germs/bacteria from others flying all around. Should I ask to try with a mask on? I think that would suck, tho, I work up a huge sweat, and a mask would drive me nuts, plus I need my water. But I sure love burning those 700 calories. So, maybe I should just stick to my stationary. It has a resistance knob, and I can crank it up and give myself a class. I am Spin instructor, just not teaching now. Also the jumps could mess with my MX and recon? I just have no patience for what this has done to my life. I will live through hearing about your rides! And when this is done I WILL be back out there. I think after I see the PT, I will feel more comfortable with pushing myself. LE scares the crap outa me! Shit Sandwich, For Sure!

    Thank you all for being here!

    arlene

  • rleepac
    rleepac Member Posts: 755
    edited April 2015

    So DH and I were talking last night and I said something about cancer being the cause of my death...I mean not now, but when I die...it will be from cancer. He looked like I had just given up and said 'kill me now' and he quickly replied with "nope...you're gonna die of old age - cancer will be a distant memory by the time you die". I said 'oh really?' He said 'yup...I'm 100% sure of it'.

    Um....can you say denial LoL...

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited April 2015

    Bekah: I think they have to. It's the way they deal.

    Arlene: You are awesome!

  • ninjamary
    ninjamary Member Posts: 306
    edited April 2015

    Bekah,

    My husband is in the same boat as yours. I know I should have this whole positive attitude and rah, rah, rah..but I'm a pessimist (rarely dissapointed in life) and cancer will probably kill me down the road. Maybe not in 5 years or more, but eventually. Then again I hope not and I have a little positive attitude that I can beat this bitch and never see her again, Heck my MIL has beaten it two times,

    Arlene,

    I think the reason for my pissy attitude and slight depression is because I had to give up exercising at the gym. I went in several times after my surgery and port placement and I always got sick. I'd wipe down the equipment beforehand and I still got sick. I have a jump rope and kettlebell at home, but I think I'd have a heart attack if I jumped rope at this point. Especially with what the AC treatment can do to your heart. I've done a few walks, but it isn't the same.

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited April 2015

    Ninja: I am sorry. I know how important our exercise is to us. Any chance you have a jazzecise studio nearby?

  • greenae
    greenae Member Posts: 540
    edited April 2015

    Ninja

    Ohhh, me, too! It's just not the same at home...and I miss the lifting...my triceps are dissolving. I think I am going to get me some 7 lb weights and at least see what I can do with my arms...ugh...but better wait til I see PT?

    arlene

  • Leighrh
    Leighrh Member Posts: 317
    edited April 2015

    Call me a rebel.... but no one has even mentioned to me about LE.  I am happily ignoring any thought of it and have been so far keeping up with Crossfit at least 4 days a week since 3 weeks after my lumpectomy and SNB  :)... Sticking my fingers in my ears LALALALA!! LOL  I am not letting this sandwich take crossfit from me!!

  • greenae
    greenae Member Posts: 540
    edited April 2015

    Leighrh

    HAHA! I like your attitude!!!

    arlene

  • greenae
    greenae Member Posts: 540
    edited April 2015

    Hey

    Is Katy ok?

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited April 2015
  • wrmbrownie
    wrmbrownie Member Posts: 114
    edited April 2015


    My MO said I was medium risk for LE. I think it was because I am overweight/obese. Either that or that they're going to have to take all my lymph nodes on that arm when they do surgery.

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited April 2015

    Wb: Do you know how many positive nodes you have?

  • IndyGal35
    IndyGal35 Member Posts: 340
    edited April 2015

    Yes, where is Katy today?

    Diane, I have had palpitations and tachycardia with both of my chemo rounds so far. It seems to taper as the weeks go on.

    Trvler, I have a few meditation apps on my phone that I use to help me sleep. They can be kind of corny, but they have worked about 70% of the time when the steroids are keeping me up. I figure there's no harm. If they don't help me relax enough, I just read and try later.

    I had a LE assessment about 3 weeks ago. They took measurements of my arm at 5-8 cm intervals from the wrist to the elbow. A difference of 1-2 cm later will indicate LE. Also, I found out that my right arm (cancer side) is actually about 1.5 cm bigger than my left due to dominant use. I'm glad that I had the assessment. If they looked at those measurements AFTER surgery, they would just assume that I had LE on that side. Insurance covered the assessment, and I'm authorized for PT visits if I want to use them after surgery to regain strength. She also gave me some exercises to help prevent LE, but she said it's a shot in the dark. She is a 7-year 3A survivor, and she has it, but she said that it's manageable, and she wears compression sleeves that help.

    My concern is that my ultrasound showed one lymph node that looked a little hard, but they weren't sure if it was due to my traumatic biopsy the week before. The MRI was negative for lymph nodes, but the PET saw "some" that fired at a 3. My BS was going to do a SLB during the mastectomy, but I really want to push for a full removal. With discrepancy between scanning results, we really don't know which/if any lymph nodes are actually involved. If neoadjuvant chemo kills any cancer in the SLN, I don't think we can still say with certainty that there aren't still some cancer cells in my other lymph nodes. I'd rather risk the LE and get everything possible out. Anyone else having conflicting lymph scan results?

  • SueH58
    SueH58 Member Posts: 632
    edited April 2015

    Ah--Lymphedema. I was sent to an OT to inform me of LE and what to watch for and what to do. It seems that if you get it, you simply to to a certified lymphedema specialist and they will take steps to get rid of it. It's not like something that you either have or don't have, from my understanding.

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited April 2015

    I was also wondering where Katy was today.

  • rleepac
    rleepac Member Posts: 755
    edited April 2015

    LE - you either have it or you don't. If you do, it is staged based on severity. The goal is to prevent, prevent, prevent!

  • rleepac
    rleepac Member Posts: 755
    edited April 2015

    I think Katy is at 'the spa' today but I've lost track. I'm sure she will check in soon :)


  • rleepac
    rleepac Member Posts: 755
    edited April 2015

    So...for my random tearful outbursts, DH and I are now calling them 'emotional cramps'.

    We decided that sounds better than 'breakdown', 'hormonal thing', or 'crazy lady crying for no known reason'.

    Bekah

  • Jackbirdie
    Jackbirdie Member Posts: 4,693
    edited April 2015

    hello my dears! I am here. I am good.

    Just so busy. I started PT again to try to deal with the bmx pain. My range of motion has improved a lot and she was happy with that. So we are moving on to scar management which maybe, hopefully, will get me some relief. I am also going to be evaluated (by someone else-closest LE OT therapist is an hour away) for truncal and/or breast lymphedema. But that's a whole nother ins runaround. I am already feeling it from what she did today.. I am fortunate not to have LE in my lymph node arm, and its a long shot that I have truncal (or breast) LE. But I noted after I started wearing then ace bandage again that they sent me home from the hospital in that compression does give me relief.

    So I bought a couple of good compression garments that I am wearing every day for about a week now. It feels like it helps. Since that is the primary treatment for LE, it seems plausible. But I'm going to continue the PT path and see if we can break up some of the lumpy scar tissue and see if I can avoid drug rehab this summer haha.

    I am also pleased to announce that the Sisterhood of the Travelling F bracelet program is officially underway.

    It's on its way to Diane tomorrow. I thought we'd send it around to anyone that wants a connection during the upcoming year before the reunion next spring. Or, if you cannot come, but want to wear the magic bracelet, please let me or Diane know (since the list will no doubt become a moving target). You will obviously need to divulge your physical address so it can be mailed to you.

    It is a simple silver charm type bracelet, not worth a gazillion$$, so don't worry. It has one single charm on it, in honor of, and in solidarity with, NinjaMary. An "F". And that would be a capital F.

    If anyone is so moved to add something to it on it's way around the world (at least US, Canada and Australia) feel free. I'm thinking at the reunion we'll all say something about our year and the connection that exists between us, then we will throw it in Lake Arrowhead! HAH! We'll bury it just as we will bury this horrible affliction

    To understand what the heck this idea is, you need to watch a movie (or read the book) called The Sisterhood of The Travelling Pants. Then it will make sense.

    You all mean the world to me.

    Katy

  • Jackbirdie
    Jackbirdie Member Posts: 4,693
    edited April 2015

    PS- my spa day is Thursday.

    Here is who I have as provisionally interested in the reunion (and the sisterhood F)

    EHeinrich (who has offered to host us at her Lake Arrowhead place sooooo generous!) and please remind me E- is that Eileen?

    Bekah (and DH?)

    Sharon (Shaz) Australia

    Avmom Canada

    Theresa (Italychick)

    Katy

    Diane

    Carrie

    Amy "so-she-did"

    MaryEllen (Meme)

    Indygal (and DH)

    NinjaMary

    Who am I missing? Please accept my apologies to whoever I've missed. I was just scribbling down names of people as the posts were racing past. Just post or pm me and we shall rectify.

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