A place to talk death and dying issues

Wow!  "If we did not die, then there would be no hope of getting out of Cancerland."  What a philosophical question to ponder for Stage IV.

Yep u will know n i didnt even finish the rounds, think i di 3 that was all i could take. The was july 20th. How do i feel....ok. remember i have oxygen 24 7 the pain in my neck n back hurts when i stand, i think the pain around the port is just th we t, the port, i also have a mass on my chest wall on the right that hurts aer lso. Apparently it has spread from my right shoulder to my left c we use it hurts back there. Other than that nothing. Lungs dont hurt neither does anything else. Am nauseous alot  tho.

Jusy in case u ayll were interested 

Thank you so much, (((((Blondie))))) and more hugs coming to you from the southern end of the Pacific coast. Sending lots of prayers up for you to be at peace and pain free.

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Calico

Thanks everybody  feel like i am being a pita, enough...

Patty how do u feel

Rosie how r the kids 

Calico..whatcha doing today? 

Blondie - gentle hugs coming your way

Hey, Blondie, my housekeeper comes today, and she's more like a good friend and family member. Tough mountain gal about my age (61). She's great for house sitting, too, not that we go anywhere these days. And then I'll keep going through books to give to the library.

Now, yesterday was fun. Three friends came over and we played a game called Tripoli. We talk and laugh more than play, but that's the whole point! It's pretty easy to make friends in the little town I live in since we're mostly retired, and don't have families close by. Great bunch of gals.

This is my week off from Halaven, so that's always a good week!

xoxoxooox

Calico

Hey, that's cool, Divine! I remember a backgammon craze. I think that was in the '70s. I spent hours doing that with one friend in particular, and then, "poof", nobody played backgammon anymore. The other game that's big up here is Mexican Train Dominoes.

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Calico

CalicoCat, I lived in California for a year in the late 70s and it was there that I learned to play backgammon, I remember it was all the rage, spent many hours playing it.

msal02- What a great idea! Hope the party is exactly what it is supposed to be- "Celebration of Your Life!" Enjoy every moment. Did anyone give you grief about it, or were they pleasantly surprised? I am surprised more folks don't do that. Well Mat 1st is soon! Happy Birthday little early.

Hi, Blondie! I'm not sure if I've been through a lot or not as compared to others. When I entered my treatment history here, I decided to keep it updated since I figured I should have that somewhere, so this is where I do that.

I was on Abraxane, and it was a week before Christmas, when I told my onc I wanted to "explore" stopping treatment with him. I was just really exhausted and the neuropathy in my hands and feet was getting so bad. So he said to take a chemo holiday and talk to him after the first of the year, which I diid. By then, I was feeling better, and more inclined to take another run at it.

Well, the next chemo we tried was Doxil and it was a complete bust - 2 treatments and my hands and feet were a bigger mess, and still are, even though I've been off it quite a while. And my liver progressed on it anyway, so it did way more harm than good.

After 2 Halaven, all I know is the numbness in my left arm and hand is terrible, as in I'm having motor control problems, but this may be being caused by a compression in my neck. i don't know how the onc and I are going to sort that out.

So right now, it looks like I should have stopped after the Abraxane, but that's hindsight for you.

Sorry I went on so long!

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Calico

What a great idea, please post the pix

Calico,  i am so sorry, when is u r appt with dr,  how r u emotionally.

I will say that when i went off chemo i thought my qol would improve n it did in that i wasn't sick from chemo anymore, but i forgot about the oxygen n the lung thing, which has not improved. So would i do it again yep i would but my expectations would b different

Macao. Have the best party ever. Live in the moment. Don't let that night be about past or future. Just the fun if now !!!

Calico. Do to know what to say but hear to listen.

Blondie. You are one tough woman. Keeping in keeping in. You go. Proud if you. Wish u could hold your hand across the miles. Everybody needs support.

Mr. Honey says, "If you can't beat 'em, join 'em!"

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Calico

Fitztwins: I'm glad your party was a blast ! I can hardly wait for my day to get here. We were at my daughters yesterday practicing for our line dance off Up Town Funk. There's going to be about 15 of us. I think they are more excited than I am .