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AlwaysSunny79
AlwaysSunny79 Member Posts: 65
edited April 2015 in Not Diagnosed With a Recurrence or Metastases but Concerned

until my MRI. I hope we figure out why my left arm is numbing, tingling and slightly uncomfortable with swelling in my arm, wrist and fingers since my axillary nodes have been enlarged. I don't have any infections. My cbc was normal. I feel unusually tired all the time now and have had a constant upper back pain with no relief from stretching, anti inflammatories or applied heat. I've had the back pain for over 4 months now. And I have so much trouble falling and staying asleep due to the pain. I get an average of 3-4 hours of constantly interrupted sleep once I'm able to actually fall asleep. How can I be so tired and unable to fall asleep at the same time? Ugh. I'm praying that the MRI shows that all is fine and hoping I just have muscle strain from tightening due to anxiety. I don't know that I do that, but it's possible. My appetite has decrease tremendously, probably from worry. I haven't gone to Dr. Google because I'm sure it would warrant more medication than I am prescribed ha. I already have anxiety and don't need google to make me feel worse. I saw my psychiatrist today and still don't feel any better after speaking with her. I'm moody today and my meds seem to not have kicked in yet. Sorry for whining and thank you for reading and providing a place for an outlet. There are so many remarkable women here and I hope to be just as strong while I wait for further testing and results!

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  • Meadow
    Meadow Member Posts: 2,007
    edited April 2015

    Sunny, Try not to worry, try to fill your mind and body with warm, loving, positive thoughts. I know that can be so hard, but I feel like this helps us stay calm, and heal from a postive place. I had a wonderful therapist tell me once, "love heals" and that helped me fight my cancer so much! And try to eat even if you are not hungry....even 3 or 4 bites every so often. You must have fuel to fight. And you must fight, and win! Hugs to you

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  • AlwaysSunny79
    AlwaysSunny79 Member Posts: 65
    edited April 2015

    Meadow,

    Thank you for your wonderfully encouraging words! I am normally a fighter and wouldn't let anything take or keep me down. But the waiting has it's grasp on me. I am reading a book with positive role models and about love and light. It has kept me busy and encouraged the whole evening. I am actually not feeling so bad right now. Now if I can just go to sleep! Hubby already snoring loudly in my ear. Such a lovely song to hear when you're all tucked in and ready to pass out ha. I bought myself some fresh fruits and veggies today, plus whole grain wheat bread for my morning toast. I am cutting out all fats, oils and sugars. No processed foods for me either. I bet that gives me a boost! Sleep well and thank you again for your reply. Hugs!

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