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Lmonelli
Lmonelli Member Posts: 95
edited April 2015 in Just Diagnosed

Today has been awful. I couldn't stop the waterworks. My eyes were so red from crying all day. I am exhausted as I sit here writing this post. I am scheduled for surgery April 29th and I guess I just got freaked out. I keep reading posts and the women here are just so amazing and brave. This helps me a lot.

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  • Bippy625
    Bippy625 Member Posts: 890
    edited April 2015

    hi,

    You let it go with tears. Very beneficial to the system to let it out. Welcome to the club no one wishes to join

    It is filled with tears, no reason to lie to you.

    Also it is filled with grace, humility, frailty and abundance. And many other not so wonderful things. It is what it is-you just do the best you can. Never forget that YOU are #1 now.

    You are not alone, and soon others will be along to welcome and encourage. It has been 9 months for me, and I am NED! (No evidence of disease).

    Hugs


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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited April 2015

    I remember in the middle of tx I stayed most of the day in bed and cried and cried. I needed to, and you did too.

    Hugs,

    Claire

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  • Lmonelli
    Lmonelli Member Posts: 95
    edited April 2015

    Thank you so much Claire and Bippy for your encouraging words. I can not stress enough how these boards are helping me get through this. I also found a local support group in my area that I am looking forward to going to. I am so happy I found this site and so grateful for all of the women here. Thank you again for taking the time to share with me.

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  • Sunflowercat
    Sunflowercat Member Posts: 177
    edited April 2015

    there will be days filled with tears. I cried myself to sleep every night between my diagnosis and my surgery. Once you have the full pathology report and know exactly what your treatment plan is it becomes a little less scary and you'll feel empowered, but you will still be very emotional. You are stronger than you think, even if it doesn't feel that way right now. I found the women on here to be incredibly knowledgable and supportive. I also found support through my cancer nurse navigator and with a local BC group that meets monthly. I find it helps to talk with others who can relate to what I'm going through, especially since none of my friends and friends and family really understand. In the meantime let the tears flow...

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  • Lmonelli
    Lmonelli Member Posts: 95
    edited April 2015

    Thank you Sunflowercat! It really helps to hear that it's okay to cry. Today was a doozy. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I'm keeping a journal which was suggested and it's also helping. I am so exhausted from doing the ugly cry most of the day I should not have any problems sleeping..lol. Thanks again for your thoughts and kind words.

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  • mdg
    mdg Member Posts: 3,571
    edited April 2015


    No one here is any braver than you are.  We are all just trying to get through the BC crap too!  Some of us have already done it or ahead of you so maybe it sounds braver.....I don't know, but I assure you we don't feel "brave".  Just remember you don't have to be brave...you just have to show up. 

    Someone said to me early in this whole process that they were not brave and then said "if you were being chased by a 300lb beast, you would run and run fast, right?  That is what I am doing....nothing brave about it!".   Made sense to me.

    It's OK to cry....when I was dx, I cried everywhere for weeks!  Get it out!  :)  Hugs!!!

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  • Lolis197138
    Lolis197138 Member Posts: 512
    edited April 2015

    Crying is a way to detoxify your body and good stress release. Don't cry alone, have someone by your side that can pick you up after crying. 

    Hearing the diagnosis is hard and scary but you are not alone. I cried almost every night before my diagnosis and before my surgery as I said goodbye to my leftie. 

    If you can find a person (partner, family member, friend etc) that you talk to about your emotions and fears it will help with the anxiety. You can use this forum as well.

    Time will go by quickly and soon this will be just a bad bump in the road!

    Hugs

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  • Lmonelli
    Lmonelli Member Posts: 95
    edited April 2015

    Thank you!

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