A place to talk death and dying issues

well i am hoping that is what it is

Thanks 

Hi so sad to hear of your condition. I have aaggressive breast cancer stage 3 and had gotten to the point where you are (getting my house in order as far as burial) but tonight it changed it all. If you have HBO Please search VICE: Cancer to watch a forty minute program that proves promising for cancer. They are testing certain viruses measles, hiv smallpox to actually kill the cancer it bypasses all our healthy cells and attacks the cancer as I watched this being done on four people three with brain cancer 1 with bone cancer go directly into remission I cried they may have found the cure. ..if you do not have HBO try you tube as well and please hang in there and after watching I know you will be encouraged to hang on. They are saying this should be FDA approved by 2016.

Thank you, ((((Dunesleeper)))), right back atcha!

((((MammaRay)))), I know you're a big girl now, but I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this at such a young age. Prayers flying your way for healing, strength, and peace.

My onc is the doc in this article who started the Art of Life Cancer Foundation:

http://www.fresnobee.com/2015/03/25/4446432/nonprofit-to-build-cancer-healing.html

xoxoxoxxoxox

Calico

Dear Tam,

There are people out here in cyberworld who care and send you healing messages. I have no advice other than you to know that all of us wonder how we will handle these situations. I wish you strength each and every day. thinking of you . Carolyn from Music City

Oh, what you say is so true, Rosevalley, about gardens and beautiful scenery, and calming the soul of the "savage beasts" of fear and anxiety.

And, Brendatrue, I'm really relating to what you said about never really, let's see, how did you put it? Something like "getting over" this, i.e. grieve it and be done. I tried so hard today to get out of my blue funk, and nothing seemed to work.

I saw the onc on Monday and had my second Halaven treatment. I commented to him that the last time I saw him, he'd said he would "take care of" me. He said, "Absolutely." I asked him if he would tell me when it was time to go into hospice, and he said "Absolutely" and he would "pull no punches", that we would "switch gears", but that he was "hoping for a home run with Halaven", and that we wouldn't need to talk about that for at least 2 years. I told him to keep swinging, and he said he would. I hate to say it, but somehow, I don't think either one of us is going to get that wish.

I'm having progressively worsening numbness and tingling in my left arm and hand. It seems to have started with the Abraxane, and is slowly worsening. At C4-C5 in my neck, I have a "broad-based bulge and osteophytes", so it could be from that. I'd be concerned about a heart issue, but my heart was checked out not long ago. I'll call the onc and see what he thinks we should do. I hate how other things still go wrong even when dealing with the BC. We should get a pass on other &$@*!!!

xoxoxoxoxoox and thank you for being there!

Calico

Yes, it's north and a bit east of Fresno. Here's a NOAA map of the area:

Partial CA Map from NOAA weather web site

xoxoxoxooxxo

Calico

Hi, MammaRay, I take a cocktail of drugs to get me to sleep (all psych approved), and usually sleep pretty well, but not for too long. Maybe 6 - 8 hours. But since I'm on the Halaven, I'm wanting to sleep during the day. I try and resist that so as not to mess up my nighttime sleep.

Hey, Cling! LOVE the bluebonnets in the spring! So many pretty rides in the hill country. One of the prettiest rides I ever took was between Houston and SA. The medians were awash in wildflowers. That oak pollen is a bear!

xoxoxoxoxo

Calico

We have croakus and jonquils. I love Spring too.

I'm with you, Rosevalley, mine looks like a curriculum vitae from professional lab rat . . . . . or something . . . . . . . On the other hand, I do like to see where people are in their treatment. It gives me a sense of where they are on the path, so . . . . . . . I'll think about it . . . .

Dunesleeper, I'm uninformed about croakus and jonquils. I've heard of them, but not sure I've ever lived where they grew much. I bet they're gorgeous.

Rosevalley, Oregon must be glorious in spring. My sister lives in Happy Valley, close to Portland.

xoxoxoxoxoxo

Calico

Happy holidays

Beachbum - still have snow here in Mass and ponds still partially frozen over so I hear ya.  Not as bad as Ohio, but like you I am so over winter

Calico - hope you are doing better

Peaceful and gentle holidays to all.  Flowers and the warm sun on my face - so looking forward to all this year

Knowing one day, we'll all be at peace.

xoxoxxoxoxoxo

Calico

Roses are dreaming of blooming again

as they survive the worst of times.

Spring will come.

You'll look back on this one day,

and a day of comfort will come faster than it seems

at this moment in time.

I promise.

Appreciated the beauty of this little dogwood tree, on the edge of the woods near my home. Felt peace contemplating it and its surroundings. Let go of the distress over fatigue from walking a relatively short distance. Allowed the comfort of just being to fill my heart, mind, body, and spirit.

Thinking of you all and hoping for moments of beauty, peace, letting go of unnecessary suffering, and comfort in your lives. In lovingkindness....

Brenda and Calico, both your offerings are beautiful. Thank you for sharing them with us.

Calico- loved the photo and post. Someday there will be peace. After 8 miserable years, the last 5 being particularly ugly, I can't wait for the "peace" part to get here. I'm beginning to feel hopeless that I will linger for ever in this prison.