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florida2015
florida2015 Member Posts: 186
edited April 2015 in Diagnosed and Waiting for Test Results

I just took a xanax because I can't calm myself down. I get my results next week and made sure to tell the dr's office to not call me until then so I can have a few days enjoying my daughters visit from college. I have one daughter arriving this week and another daughter arriving from school the following week I also dread telling them as I know this will worry them tremendously. I have only told my husband, my best friend and my two sisters thst I has a lumpectomy. The growth was caught early. I was told it was stage 1 however. I don't know what the results will show. I don't work and have too much time on my hands to worry excessively. I was down before this because of having trouble this year becoming an empty nester. Anyway what has helped some of you. I feel out of control

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  • Dancermom1999
    Dancermom1999 Member Posts: 122
    edited March 2015

    Hi Florida2015...By your name I assume you live in Florida.  I live in Ft. Lauderdale.   I was diagnosed Nov. 2013 and had bmx January 3, 2014.  My mom had breast cancer and my brother reminded me that our mother had her surgery on January 3, 1967.  I took that as a sign that my momo would be in the operating room with my surgeons on the 45th anniversary of her breast cancer surgery. She was an amazing survivor and passed away in 2006 from an unrelated disease. My faith has helped me through all of this since my mom is now in heaven.  I remember the day before my surgery we were having a family dinner - my husband of 25 years, my 23 year old son, 15 year old daughter, and me.  At the end of dinner my daughter who is a dancer got up and started twirling around.  Out of her hands I see a white dove and I shout, OMG I just saw a white dove fly out of Kaitlin's hands. They all looked at me like I was a bit crazy.  When I looked up on the intranet what they could mean it said it was a symbol that the holy spirit was with me.  I never cried again.. I have passed my one year cancerversary and have gone through 4 surgeries for reconstruction and am very pleased with my results.  Focus on yourself and be kind to yourself.  Believe in your doctors and if you don't then find new ones.  Take everything one day at a time. 

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  • florida2015
    florida2015 Member Posts: 186
    edited March 2015

    thank you for that. I too have been married 25 years and no I want to move To Florida and that is why I chose that name, I am a New Yorker. I am not a religious person so I can't lean on that. I guess I will have to get back in gym to get rid of stress. Thanks for sharing

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  • debiann
    debiann Member Posts: 1,200
    edited March 2015

    Florida, so sorry you are here. So sorry you are in NY this winter too. I live in PA. Are we ever going to thaw out? Florida does sound like the place to be.

    The first few weeks after dx are so difficult. There may be difficult decisions to be made regarding treatment plus you realize your life is going to be really disrupted. After you have a treatment plan you will be able to calm down a bit.

    Good luck to you and enjoy the visit with your daughters 

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  • florida2015
    florida2015 Member Posts: 186
    edited March 2015

    yes this winter has been awful. Has anything helped you. Like meditation or tapes. This whole thing seems very surreal since it happened so fast.

    I even question now should I eat this or that. Am I getting cancer from room deodorizers ,cleaning products. Certain foods. I mean the list that runs thru my head goes on and on

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  • Sassa
    Sassa Member Posts: 1,588
    edited March 2015

    Yes, the stress is a killer until you get the final say on your diagnosis.

    I was so stressed that I couldn't eat for the first few hours after getting up. I needed to be distracted so my husband and I would go out exploring new back roads and locations. That usually helped and I could eat some lunch.

    Two other things helped: 1. DRUGS!!!!! I needed a sleeping pill and was given one by my primary care doctor.

    2. Once I had my preliminary results from my biopsy, at my request, my surgeon arranged for me to immediately see an oncologist. She looked at my results (at that point we knew I was ER/PR- and had a tumor less than 2 cm) and had a frank discussion on what she thought in her experience my worst case scenario would be and possible treatments. I can't tell you how much that discussion calmed me down. I actually was able to start eating again.

    By the way, I am an ex-NYer (grew up in Patchogue on LI) and finally moved to Florida after a 30 year detour in Maryland.

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  • florida2015
    florida2015 Member Posts: 186
    edited March 2015

    Thanks Sassa

    I am dying to move back to Fla But with 2 girls in college and a husband who has a career on Long Island it will be awhile before I can get a vacation home there

    The waiting has been agonizing but I got good news today. No cancer in my nodes. So it will be radiation for me. I am so relieved that I will be having no chemo and no further surgeries. This whole thing has been surreal and without xanax and wine I don't think I would have gotten out of bed!

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  • CatsRus
    CatsRus Member Posts: 310
    edited March 2015

    Hi, I'm having surgery Thursday and then will have to wait for final pathology report for final DX. Hardest thing for me was telling my adult daughters, especially one who is a long way from 'home'. I think I worry more about how they are doing than I do about myself. I lost my mom in Janary at 94 years of age. There's no history of BC in the family that I am aware of. Not the best start to the year, that's for sure. Glad you got good news today and I am keeping my fingers crossed my lymph nodes are clear too.. they apparently look good on the US but I'm preparing for the worst while hoping for the best. I think I'll have to try and get myself some of that Xanax... or wine.... or both ;-)

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  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited March 2015

    Exercise is keeping me sane. I do Jazzercise and the ladies there are wonderful and the handful that know are very supportive. Of course I am probably going to be quitting soon while I undergo treatment but for now it is saving my sanity. Physically, I feel great. Do you have one near you?

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  • Kazza2108
    Kazza2108 Member Posts: 19
    edited March 2015

    hi everyone. I was diagnosed just over a week and a half ago after mammo, us and biopsy. They did needle tests and found cancer cells in a swollen node and a 2-4inch lump on right breast. Just been for CT scan. I get all results this Thursday coming along with a treatment plan. So frightened it has spread but leaning heavily on God.

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  • florida2015
    florida2015 Member Posts: 186
    edited March 2015

    maybe I should push myself back into gym this am I already have gone twice this week. I find it's a re push to get out of house at times due to fact it is taking soooong to get my treatment plan. They're waiting for FISH test and Oncotype and I am praying no chemo. I was told I have a 67 percent chance that my Oncotype number is low

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  • Suzannecarol
    Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
    edited April 2015

    Good morning all, Here I am still waiting for the oncotype test results. They should be coming any day. I will then find out if I have to do radiation, the pill, both or none of the above. The waiting is hard. Thought I would know by now.

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  • Suzannecarol
    Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
    edited April 2015

    Still waiting....

    Since I have not started any treatments sometimes it is easy to forget I have cancer. Then I remember. Sometimes I think I go into a bit of denial. Do I really have it? Then other body parts seem to be acting up and I wonder if it is because of the cancer. Have any of you gone back at forth like this when you were first diagnosed?

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  • speace
    speace Member Posts: 116
    edited April 2015

    Hello Florida, I too am in a similar boat as you. I was just diagnosed on March 25 . Had a lumpectomy and a sentinal lymph node removal. Thank god it didn't spread to the nodes. Surgeon removed all the cancer and now I'm waiting for the oncotype results. I am stage 1 IDC. I'm desperately hoping to not need chemo. But your situation is somewhat similar to mine so I'm hoping for the best. Do you know what your oncotype result numbers were? Sandy

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  • Jenga60
    Jenga60 Member Posts: 24
    edited April 2015

    hello Florida, I'm in a similar boat too! Getting all my results back on Wed at 2:45. Up until right now, I've been avoiding even thinking about it. Then tonight it really hit me hard. I'm terrified, and I've just got to put in the hours in between now on Wednesday.

    How?

    Hugs for all of us.

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