INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

Hello Ladies!

Well, I've gone back to page 730 to catch up a little. Sorry I haven't been on much this month. The loss of my BF's mom has just wiped me out emotionally and physically. Still battling a cold that came up the week we got back. It is easing though.

My grief is now compounded with the loss of Leonard Nimoy. He was my first love, and I am not sure I will get over his passing. .

Thank you everyone for your kind words and encouragement. it means so much to have you all here, sharing your lives and supporting each other. It is so wonderful to see, and gives hope no matter what is going on in life.

Very sorry to hear about DP. She was very sweet. And Raro as well. Condolences to everyone that was close to them. F*ck cancer.

I really hate cancer, but at the same time, am grateful to know you all. I have to find positives in this, and you are all definitely in that category.

Also, for the record, I enjoyed Neil Patrick Harris in his undies. what a dish!

i am also very jealous of all your snow, even though i know all of you are tired of it.

Rosevalley- Amelilia Island sounds so nice! We should all take spontaneous trips. It is good for the mind and body. Your aunt sounds like a hoot! That is a great ditty she taught you. I also enjoy classical music, and some opera. Did you ever get good bloodwork done on your kiddo? She sounds like a typical teen Re: different Drs/diff opinions: I think just as each patient is different, so is each dr's training, and experience. There is a reason they call it a practice. Each experience they have with each patient is different, and just like you, they have to do with what they have seen in their careers. Chinese bakery sounds heavenly! and *APPLAUSE* to you and your friends for saving that poor dog!

I am sorry for your weariness. But know that everyone will be very sad to see you go. I think everyone has the right to make that choice, and if you and your family are prepared, no one should stand in the way. You seem like an amazing woman, and the world will be the lesser for your absence.

MammaRay- I am not sure if you are still deciding, but I would go with my Dr. You can always add complementary treatments, but personally as a massage therapist and someone that whole heartedly believes that there are valid Eastern medical options, cancer is one of those areas that I think requires more force. Get 2nd, 3rd, 4th 20th opinions from drs. Whatever you decide, know that we are here to support you and send love. Party ideas? baseball season is starting soon- an afternoon at the batting cages might be fun for him? Or what Chevy said and whoa to being a doula! how exciting and congrats to her and you! and you are right, you have to be prepared. Really kids or no, cancer or no, "getting your house in order" should always be a priority.

Momof2- Did you make to the candle store? I have a Bath and Bodyworks candle problem myself. Sounds like your kitten is precocious. I use pain dropcloths from Big Lots as slip covers. They are inexpensive, washable, and durable. And i dye them too. Sorry to hear you had issues with your "girls" hopefully no more!

Chevyyyyyy- Thank you for always being funny, sweet, and throwing in a pearl of wisdom with your wit! Your friend Jackie is pretty smart. the DBF and I go to Red Robin all the time! those fries! and they have vegetarian options, which for me, is awesome. Your neighbors sound like they shouldn't have pets ggrrrr

Susan- Hope you are doing okay these days. Nice to see you here more. It is great that you can tussle with your ONC and he pays attention. How was your visit with your daughter? Glad DH had a successful surgery.

Sas- Holy crap! OD on chemo? WTH? please tell me someone got fired. Glad you go tot visit Spookie and see your DR to get the answers you needed. I like this "counseling with cake" idea you have!

Smaarty- Woohoo Ireland! where all are you going? I can't wait to see photos! Your GS's quilt is awesome! he looks so proud. That FRIENDS photo, so true. and what you said- i feel the same. LOVE your quilts, esp the bees! and a big fan of Chihuly. amazing work. And that view! the spiders are neat.

Jazzy- What kind of consulting do you do? Congrats on your weight loss! What instruments do you play? I always try to donate usable items to the women's shelters and animal shelters first. They always need all kinds of things, and you know they will actually USE them. That Cloudcroft photo- just fantastic! and that pool- looks perfect! Hooray for a great checkup!

Wren44- How are you doing? A dear friend of mine lives in Seattle now, and he takes the bus to and from work. Seems to have 50/50 luck with the service. I am so surprised that the transit there isn't better planned. It's hard for those of us not living there not to giggle at the tunnel there. I mean, really! I can't imagine that he firm they hired will never get any work again.

Ibgal- thanks for your input and for joining in! What made you decide on research? Sounds like you have your hands full with a 7 year old and glad you finally got a pooch that won't make you sneeze. So happy to hear that your lungs are fluid-free! And that tangerine tree- so jealous!

Magdalene- Have you tried coconut oil for your eczema? I hope you are feeling a bit better and are almost done with your rads.

Maddie- You find the cutest pictures! Thank you for doing roll call. How are you feeling? xoxox Great photo of you gals getting together! where is Badger lately?

MostlyMom- omg those scooters are awesome! I agree though, a sewing machine is way better. 4 years out from dx- that is pretty amazing! Glad you are here. Happy Birthday!!

Cami- Hope you are staying warm up there! Your Joey just seems like the sweetest kid. What do you mean you will have 2 phones to screw up at work? Is your boss starting another business, or are you working at 2 different strip clubs? oH chit- necrophilia!!!! i can't stop laughing!! That is fantastic!! Brandy in your coffee, eh? well- make it the best part of waking up!

Beachbum- Sitting under a tree in the park listening to an orchestra? sounds heavenly! I use duct tape for just about everything. I used to have a car that was mostly tape. Duc it or f*$@ it! was my motto! Handiest thing in the house. Hope you are staying warm. Summer is just around the corner! Hurray rads are done! My friend Sarah just won "the golden whisk" of Duff till Dawn. She's in Ohio as well, along with her team mate Timbo. Lots of cake making in the great state of Ohio! I love beach glass. I like the way it feels in your hand. So great that you are donating your body- I am thinking of doing the same.

Hopeful- hope you are feeling less blue! Also surprised that Portland has bad mass transit. With the number of students, and tech ppl, you would think they would have it worked out. BUT- i live in Austin, and we can't seem to get ANY mass transit working correctly around here. It is a disaster.

Spookie- I love that you and Sas can get together! Whatcha smokin in the car, huh?? You are going to cause a riot posting those warm temperatures. Great photo of you Sas, and Phylo

PattyPepper!! Get out of the hospital and stay out! Glad your back is better Your attitude is amazing though all of this. Please hug your DH from all of us. and happy bday to DS1! great photos of the DH and kiddos

Kjones! hope you are doing well! We haven't seen you in so long.

Holin1- Those sherbet cups are pretty! How is your shoulder? I loove that little candy dish that looks like a cloud. Cruise might be fun, but i think i would rather hit Zion. Being out on a boat like that scares me.

Tang- Glad your BRACA came back neg! that lump has gotta be scar tissue. No need to panic. Gotten your results yet?

Dutchie- I hope you have been able to get some rest. whatcha been up to? My ONC also wants me to look into the SOFT trial results, and we are talking about switching me up. I have a LOT of questions about it all though.

Blondie- sweet Blondie! cast's off- yay! How long are you in rehab now?

Teka! that is a BEAUTIFUL woodpecker photo! how ya doin'? was that you with Smaarty?

Footprints- always wonderful when you post. I hope your breathing is getting better. Happy to hear your service dog is learning for you.

Pawprint- good to see you here. Hoping your stomach bug departs soon. Please go to the dr for that!

3rdtime- it has been too long since we've seen you. So happy to hear that you are finally getting some sleep. Hoping they can get your bone pain under control.

PHYLLIS! - you better grab those cowboys! So happy to see you post. Almost done with rads- you got this!

Yoga-girl- Welcome and thanks for that info- very interesting.

Tbryer- welcome to you as well. I hope you are well, and that you can keep up with the antics on this board! Don't let us scare you off!

Enerva- how is Ontario? Getting to do much riding in this weather?

OK- it is 5am- i should try to get some sleep.

If any of you are on AIs and also ovarian suppression and are willing to chat about things, let me know. My ONC is keen on the SOFT study, and it does look like the results are very promising.

Thank you all for being so amazing.

xoxox- jeni