Just diagnosed and confused over many decisions

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Suzannecarol
Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
edited March 2015 in Just Diagnosed

I am having a hard morning. Since I have been diagnosed DCIS I have moments that I feel it will all be ok and then later tears streaming down my face and I can't even explain how I am feeling. I am scared to death of a mastectomy. Only because of the seriousness of the surgery and because I am 63, diabetic, have high blood pressure, and high cholesterol and I feel like a walking time bomb. My mother and grandfather died on the operating table. A lumpectomy is an easier less invasive surgery, right? But I don't want the radiation. I am so sorry if I sound like a whinny person. I am staying strong most of the time and trying not to put my family through any more than I have to. I have to make a decision and I don't want to have to face either of them. I am trying to find out as much as I can of what other women have experienced to help me with this decision. I know it is a personal decision that I have to make on my own but I do not know any of the after problems that may arise with either option of lumpectomy or mastectomy. My surgeon did not share anything except he recommended lumpectomy. I have since found out some have to have a second or more lumpectomy. Did not know that could happen. I am not sure of reconstructive surgery, not sure about implants which seems to be what they do around here. I have a husband and not sure about no reconstructive surgery. He says losing my breasts does not bother him. Not sure how I will feel about no breasts. Now that I have for the first time poured my heart out to the only people that I feel will understand I hope some of you will share your experience to help me make my decision. Thank you for your time.

Suzanne

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  • Morwenna
    Morwenna Member Posts: 1,063
    edited March 2015

    Hi Suzanne,

    Sorry you find yourself in this situation. You should have plenty of time to decide which route you want to go though, so don't let them pressure you into a decision.

    How big is the dcis? They can take out quite a large lump with surprisingly little impact. I had an 8cm lumpectomy, with really a pleasing result, but unfortunately was one of the unlucky ones you mentioned who didn't get clean margins so had to go back for a mastectomy.

    It's all ok though. It seems a lot when you are going through it, but it's amazing how time goes by and you get through it.

    What are your fears for radiation? It's really not a big deal for most women, to be honest. With my pathology I had to have that as well!, but its just a few weeks of inconvenience more than anything. I have no real after effects, although my recent reconstruction on that side was a little slow to heal.

    Are you type 1 or type 2 diabetic? Is your hypertension reasonably controlled? The cholesterol really is no big deal. You don't sound like a walking time bomb to me. :)

    Take a deep breath, then take your time to decide what you want to do, and I think you'll do just fine. xxx

  • Suzannecarol
    Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
    edited March 2015

    Thank you Morwenna for responding. I am type 2, controlled with insulin and eating right. The hypertension is reasonably controlled. The calcifications are small, not sure the size. There are several. How was your mastectomy? What type of reconstruction did you choose? Thank you again for your response.

    Suzanne

  • Spookiesmom
    Spookiesmom Member Posts: 9,568
    edited March 2015

    I am T2 on insulin pump. I had BMX, no recon. Did have rads. Too. During all most all of chemo, I just cruised on my basal. Same for day of surgery, and day after. No problems there. Rads gets to be a PITA, only because it's every. day. for. so. long.

    I chose no recon because I didn't want any more surgery. It's nobody's choice but yours. I'm ok being flat, if your DH or anybody else has a problem, they need to deal with it, not you!

    Check to see if your breast center has a nurse navigator. She can put you in touch with various support and help.

    And somebody is always around here too

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited March 2015

    Awww…I am sorry you are struggling. How long have you known? Try to spend some time reading on here. That has helped me a lot. I feel much better informed about my whole situation. I think some women want to make a quick decision or think they have to make a quick decision. Sadly, I think they feel they need to go with whatever their first BS tells them. I didn't like what my first BS said, so I went to a second and I am probably going to end up using a third. They are not all the same. Do your research. And during that time, you will not be able to think about being upset. You will just be too busy!

  • WinningSoFar
    WinningSoFar Member Posts: 951
    edited March 2015

    Dear Suzanne,

    I'm glad to hear that your diabetes and hypertension are controlled. That makes things easier. I also have hypertension, high cholesterol, but not diabetes (yet anyway). My conditions are also under control. I am well over 60 so we have that in common. I'm carrying too much weight, hope that's not the case with you. I'm just saying this to say that we might be similar.

    I've had two lumpectomies and a mastectomy, all on the right side, over the last 15 years. I really can't say that there was much difference to me between the lumpectomy and the mastectomy with regard to pain, range of motion, recovery etc. I didn't find any of the surgeries painful or recovery hard, but I think I have a high pain tolerance. Obviously, there's a big difference in cosmetic results. I've had radiation after the first lumpectomy. Nothing much to it, except driving there every day. I've had chemo twice and if given a choice between chemo and radiation, I'd take radiation any day. In your case, with DCIS, chemo is not one of your options, so you don't have to make that choice. Just wanted you to know that I though radiation was a breeze.

    I didn't have any reconstruction after my mastectomy for more than two years. After two years, I decided that yes, I wanted reconstruction, so after a year of tissue expanding (which also never hurt), I got the implant (which also didn't hurt). Outpatient surgery, in fact. I'm still not symmetrical because they couldn't expand my radiated side enough, but it's a lot better than it was, and I was prepared for that outcome.

    I feel like the surgery queen. In addition to the above breast surgeries, I've had major colon surgery due to perforated bowel and another major surgery to close the colostomy. Now, those surgeries were hard. Breast surgery is a breeze in comparison.

  • Suzannecarol
    Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
    edited March 2015

    Well.....about the weight I am carrying around, lol, I have more than I should. I am 167 lbs. and 5'4 and 3/4 inches. I was told I am in the category before obese. I just lost 30 lbs. My husband and I started a diet in April 2014. So glad I have lost that weight but the surgery does scare me and I am trying to deal with all of it. This helps me to talk to women that have been through this. My family is supportive but they can only do so much. When I talked to my BS he was very personable but recommended the lumpetomy and he had mastectomy as an option with 0% return of the cancer so my first thought was why not chose it. He skipped over it so I didn't really think about that option until the next day. I had no idea that women sometimes had to have a second lumpectomy. That surprised me so much. That is another reason I wanted mastectomy. I wanted to take the route that seemed the least trouble. Not sure mastectomy is but knew there was more followup to the lumpectomy. Thank you so much for your encouraging words. I really have this fear of dying during surgery. I guess because of my mother and grandfather. I also know many people come out of surgery fine and that is what I am concentrating on.

  • Trvler
    Trvler Member Posts: 3,159
    edited March 2015

    Ok, ladies, correct me if I am wrong here, but a mx doesn't guarantee you won't get cancer? You just won't get it in your breast because you have no tissue.


    I am curious. Since your weight loss, have your bp and cholesterol been checked? I am guessing if you keep on the diet, you could really turn those and the diabetes around.

  • WinningSoFar
    WinningSoFar Member Posts: 951
    edited March 2015

    Dear suzanne,

    Did your surgeon really say that you'd have a zero percent chance of cancer recurrence with a mastectomy? Sorry to tell you, that's not true. There are a fair number of women on this board with just such a result. IM humble O, perhaps the way to look at it is that statistically a lumpectomy with rads = mastectomy in terms of recurrence (but recurrence is not zero in either case, but it is pretty low in both cases).

    I know I'm treading on dangerous grounds here, but have you considered going to a therapist to help you with your fear of surgery. Perhaps that would help you more than anything. I wouldn't think that with DCIS you'd have to take action immediately so that would give you time to come to terms with your family history. I know from personal experience that fear is paralyzing. I needed to have a D&C years ago and I just could not do it. Luckily, I guess I really did not need that D&C since I never had it.

  • Suzannecarol
    Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
    edited March 2015

    Yes he said 0% but when I repeated that to him a week later he said well we don't ever say 0 (he put it on the paper he sent home with me) we say less than 1%. He was talking only about breast cancer, not cancer appearing somewhere else. You are fine with suggesting a therapist Winningsofar. I am a worrier. Sure wish I wasn't. I usually do this, talk to people, talk to myself and then when I feel I have all the information I need to go forward.

    As far as weight loss helping the diabetes, I take less insulin and blood pressure dropped a small amount.

  • Morwenna
    Morwenna Member Posts: 1,063
    edited March 2015

    To answer your question .... I was OK after my mastectomy. My son got married about 2 weeks later and I was able to be there in my new derss and all :)

    I have just had a free flap reconstruction. All my info should be visible in my signature line???

  • Suzannecarol
    Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
    edited March 2015

    sorry, yes it is in your signature line. Not use to looking at that section yet.

  • debiann
    debiann Member Posts: 1,200
    edited March 2015

    Unfortunately, the risk of breast cancer recurrance or even a new breast cancer is never 0% because they cannot possibly get all the breast cells out of your body. The risk of recurrance with either choice is low.

    I had a lumpectomy first but got close margins. I could have gone with a second lumpectomy, but chose instead double mx with DIEP recon. I was starting to worry about what other surprises could be hiding in my breasts. I also preferred surgery over radiation. I got wonderful results, but its a long surgery.Mine was 13 hours. However I read that the biggest risk during surgery is when you are first going under and when they are waking you up, the time asleep is not the risky time. Don't know if that's true, but it eased my mind. 

    There is not a good choice, frankly they all suck. You need to pick the one that suits you best. Driving to radation daily can be difficult, especially if you live far away, plus you do get fatigued and maybe skin burns, so there is some recovery time. The plus is you save your breast and that is very important to some. Not so important to me. They betrayed me so I was ready to have them off.

    I think you could probably consider the surgical risk of lump vs. MX to be equal. Focus more on how you will feel about losing your breast.

    Btw, sometimes you can have a mx AND still need rads if the tumor was close to the chest wall or if lymph nodes are positive.

  • Beachbum1023
    Beachbum1023 Member Posts: 1,417
    edited March 2015

    debiann, I had chemo, mastectomy, and finishing rads boosts, 4 more to go. The tumor was close to the chest wall so no option other than refusal for the radiation. And the skin burns are very real. They say it heals quickly. Take Care!

  • gypsyjo
    gypsyjo Member Posts: 304
    edited March 2015
  • SpecialK
    SpecialK Member Posts: 16,486
    edited March 2015

    Approximately 20-25% of lumpectomies require re-excision.  A re-excision is not exactly another lumpectomy, as usually a smaller amount of tissue is removed.  When surgeons remove the tissue for a lumpectomy they ink each side of the sample and label it - an example would be yellow ink for the anterior, red ink for the left side, etc.  When the pathologist examines the tissue they note the margins for each inked area.  If the margin is too close, meaning not a large enough margin of healthy tissue, they will indicate the need for a re-excision.  Because of the inking they know which area needs additional removal. 

    If you are postmenopausal and have a large enough breast there are several possibilities for radiation if you were to choose a lumpectomy.  Some centers have access to IORT radiation - which is a one time radiation directly to the tumor site, in the operating room during the lumpectomy.  There is also brachytherapy, which is done several different ways, but often involved an internal catheter or balloon at the lumpectomy site which is radiated daily for a week.  There is regular external beam radiation daily for 5-6 weeks, and the shorter Canadian protocol, which is basically the same number of grays for daily for three weeks.

    Mastectomy cannot possibly remove 100% of breast tissue - that is why there is not a 100% guarantee that you will not have a local recurrence.  Approximately 1-2% of breast tissue remains after mastectomy - and potentially more depending on the skill of the surgeon.  For those with pure DCIS, there is less risk than for those with invasive cancer because the cells are contained within the ducts, which are removed in total.  This does not mean zero risk of recurrence, but another factor in recurrence risk for DCIS is the size and/or grade, margin size, and the presence of comedo necrosis.  The more aggressive the cells the greater the risk of recurrence.  There have been some studies using the Van Nuys Prognostic Index that correlate to recurrence risk.  Here are some links:

    http://breast-cancer.ca/staging/van-nuys-prognostic-index-vnpi.htm

    http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2459183/

    http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20956828

     

     


     

  • Suzannecarol
    Suzannecarol Member Posts: 97
    edited March 2015

    Thank you SpecialK, I appreciate the information. I left you a private message.


  • tgtg
    tgtg Member Posts: 266
    edited March 2015

    Suzannecarole--My experienced breast surgeon recommended lumpectomy + radiation (+ sentinel node biopsy) rather than mastectomy for several reasons--shorter surgery time, less invasiveness, easier recovery. He also said that he would take enough tissue surrounding the tumor to give me clean, wide margins, which my surgical pathology report said he had done. And as he promised, the surgery time was short: they wheeled me into the OR at 11:15 and he dictated his report at 12:01, 46 minutes later (that includes his scrub time and my prepping time). No need for re-excision, no more surgery, finished, done! So if you are as fearful of surgery as you say, the shorter, simpler and effective procedure would seem to be the way to go, especially since as we age, the less anesthesia we get, the better off we are. Traditional external radiation was no big deal either--at 71, I had no adverse reactions at all, not even fatigue (but I work out at the gym regularly and walk every day, including during rads). Radiation did cause me to rearrange my schedule a bit, but only on weekdays for 7 weeks--that translates to 35 days out of one year, or less than 10% of a year, no big deal. I tell you all this because not all lumpectomies lead to re-excisions or the need for mastectomy (which, as others have pointed out, is not a silver bullet that aways totally eliminates the need for radiation). In fact, of all the women I know in my area who have had lumpectomies, only one needed a re-excision for one margin (and her tumor presented unusually, as it was tethered to her skin and the surgeon couldn't use a wire to guide him).

    If you do seek a second opinion, do be sure to ask the surgeon how many lumpectomies he/she does each year, because experience is very important (more important than whether you like or dislike his/her recommended action). And if you don't know how many the first surgeon you saw does a year, give him/her a call and ask! Good luck in the days ahead, and don't feel pressured into immediate action!

  • keepthefaith
    keepthefaith Member Posts: 2,156
    edited March 2015

    I had a LX, SNB and port placement, all at the same time. I recovered quickly, but I don't have any other health issues. My tumor was close to my chest wall. I have a great BS and she didn't need to re-excise. For me, rads were not that hard. Wishing you the best and much peace with this tough decision. You can always get a second opinion, if you are still struggling. ((HUGS))

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