Not good at waiting!!!

I'm not good at waiting and my mind is running wild.  I have been so upset lately.  My husband had early stage prostate ca 2 years ago and he is doing great.  My mom was diagnosed at 62 with pancreatic ca, had surg. a year ago and it's now spread to her liver and after some tricky times her numbers are down.  My aunt her sister (age 66 at diag.) had stage 2 breast ca a year ago, had a double mastectomy and had chemo and radiation and doing well.  My husbands mom (83) just got diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and she is doing a low dose chemo and we are aren't sure on her course of action yet.  There is more to my story but I won't go on...I have so much anxiety and I am a worrier, I drive my hubby crazy.  So I've had mammos since I was 39, I'm 46.  All came back fine and no problems, last one was at the end of Nov. 2014.  I decided this year and a suggestion on my "mammo is fine" result form to do an ultrasound as precautionary because stage 3 density.  Well I went in for this dreaded appt. on Tue., I had already convinced myself that things wouldn't go smoothly.  I got thru the ultrasound with high anxiety and was chatting with the tech. and I asked her if everything looked ok.  She said everything looked fine and that she found to spots on my left breast which didn't look like anything cancerous.  She said the radiologist would take a look, but that she doubted she would do any further treatment and would either probably just see me back in 6 months or a year.  Well she took a look and said I see 2 areas and they look benign. I said how do you know and she talked about the edges being smooth and not characteristic of ca.  She said one might be a papilloma and maybe not the both could be fibrostic or something like that.  She said you might need surgery if its papilloma to just be gone with it.  She then said lets do a biopsy.  I nearly died, I thought I was ok.  So she asked if I wanted to get it over with or come back.  I said get it over with.  It wasn't that bad but my heart was pounding out of my chest.  She was smiling at her samples??  I asked again.  Do you think I'm going to be ok.  She said I think its going to be ok.  She said I look at this stuff every day and I'll just leave it at that.  Now I wait til the call on Fri. or Mon.  I'm dying inside and have three young daughters to contend with. I still feel the radiologist and tech were just trying to be nice to me (my husband (positive person) doesn't think that) and then I think what if it is ca...over and over in my head.  My mom took the brachy test today, but we are pretty optimistic that will be negative....hopefully, like I said I have three girls.  HELP, having trouble sleeping!!  I want B9!!!