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Nancy2581
Nancy2581 Member Posts: 1,234
edited December 2014 in Waiting for Test Results

I am still in chemotherapy (last taxol tomorrow). Of course about a week ago I find a small lump about an inch away from the outer end of my lumpectomy incision. I only have one incision for both lumpectomy and SNB. This lump is not on my breast. It is about where they removed my sentinel nodes I think. I saw my MO today. She said it is not a lymph node and feels linear, but she said part of it is more nodular than she likes. She doesn't think it is anything (maybe a ligament) but we are doing an ultrasound hopefully tomorrow. I can't help but worry about this. I often wondered how well chemo would work for me since I am grade 1.I don't know what it is yet but I am scared even though my MO said not to lose sleep over it. As she walked out of the room she said she didn't think it was anything. Why can't I not go there until I get there?

I am just tired of the stress this damn disease has created. Torture

Thanks for reading

Nancy

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  • farmerlucy
    farmerlucy Member Posts: 3,985
    edited December 2014

    Hey Nancy - Keeping my fingers and toes crossed that it is nothing. Congrats on getting through chemo. Look how far you've come! Here's to a better 2015. Keep us posted on the lump. Hugs,

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  • Nancy2581
    Nancy2581 Member Posts: 1,234
    edited December 2014

    I will. Thanks Jill. I leave shortly for my last chemo HOORAY. Hopefully they have a plan for an ultrasound today too - fingers crossed.

    Nancy

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  • ElaineTherese
    ElaineTherese Member Posts: 3,328
    edited December 2014

    Hi Nancy!

    Glad to hear you're going for your LAST TAXOL. That, at least, is good news. Also, hope you get your ultrasound today and that there's nothing further wrong with you.

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  • Holeinone
    Holeinone Member Posts: 2,478
    edited December 2014

    Nancy, I agree, cancer treatment does feel like legal torture.

    After my surgery, my breast surgeon told me I would need a PET scan. They were looking for mets. I freaked out, said nope, not going there. Of course, had the scan, a node lit up. Went through chemo & rads, convinced that would get me in the end. Had ultra-sound a few months post tx, looks normal.

    No wonder we end up with PTSD when it's over. I am a year post chemo, started rads last Xmas. Still working on the putting it all in its place. Moving on has been harder than I expected. My best advice, is be selfish, take care of yourself, first. Try to move, as much as possible. It's a slow process.

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  • Hopeful82014
    Hopeful82014 Member Posts: 3,480
    edited December 2014

    It really is a roller coaster, isn't it? That's something that I don't think a lot of people without cancer can really appreciate, particularly since the media push stories of people bravely powering through and 'coping' with cancer. The real agonies are rarely portrayed or discussed.

    Nancy, I hope by now you've made it through that last infusion (and I DO hope it is the very last you'll ever need) and are getting some reassuring answers from your US. Sending lots of energy to you!

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  • Buna
    Buna Member Posts: 5
    edited December 2014

    I have been in this crazy cancer tilt-a-whirl for about 8 weeks now. I had normal mammo in July (2D) and felt lump in chest first of November. It was high up so did not cross my mind that it was "in my breast". But I made an appointment with my PCP as soon as I could get in. I have battled with breast issues for 28 years with abnormal mammos, needing ultrasounds, several surgical biopsies...needle aspirations.....but kept plugging along. This time after several weeks of "getting to the right doctor for the job" had 3D and ultrsound prior and then I have a biopsy that comes back as grade II, hormone +, still waiting on HERS- FISH as my intial HERS was +1. have seen medical oncologist, radiology oncologist, than surgeon wanted MRI to prep for surgery....find something else on MRI.... none of this showed up on 3D or ultrasound prior to biopsy....go today for ANOTHER ultrasound and biopsy of this area (same breast)... told area is to hard to segregate on utlrasound and need MRI biopsy.... came to conclusion today.... I am done.... I have no faith in the tests..... I am seeing my surgeon on Monday and am going to ask for a bilateral mastectomy and reconstruction. Nancy....I pray all the best for you...but you have helped me to be at peace with this difficult decision I am making. God bless you

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  • Nancy2581
    Nancy2581 Member Posts: 1,234
    edited December 2014

    thank you all ladies. I finished my last taxol but my blood counts were low so I have to do neupogen for 3 days. Oh well still got my chemo. I am all done YAY

    Right after chemo I had my ultrasound. The lump was harder to find today ( weird) but I found it. They saw nothing only my ribs. I guess that is good news. I have this vein like thing under my arm too. Dr. Said it is cording. That didn't show up either. I hope this is all good news

    Nancy

    I made the US tech check the area twice and there is nothing there.

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  • Hopeful82014
    Hopeful82014 Member Posts: 3,480
    edited December 2014

    Sorry to hear about your blood counts, Nancy :( but still, you're DONE! I'm glad you made the tech go over the area twice. Hopefully it was just scar tissue or whatever settling in...

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  • Hopeful82014
    Hopeful82014 Member Posts: 3,480
    edited December 2014

    Buna, good luck with your situation. I think all that would drive me round the bend.

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  • Nancy2581
    Nancy2581 Member Posts: 1,234
    edited December 2014

    buna I hope things settle down for you. Being diagnosed with BC is awful by itself but all the tests you've had would have sent me over the edge. I wish you lots of luck and hope your treatment gets moving along soon.

    Hugs

    Nancy

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