DIEP 2014

Sarah, I don't talk about it anymore to anybody but my best friend because it's the same old same old over and over, and nobody would even believe it anymore.  I will give you a for instance...I went for my cleaning at the dentist today, and they said things like, "you look so good.  so glad it's all over, etc."  What do you say to that?  I said, "thanks, yes..it's almost over." And, didn't give much more explanation than that.  It's old news.  I chatted up the hygienist about her kids, and what did she think about Oil Pulling for gum health, blah blah blah.  But, inside I am screaming "it's not over!!!!! You should see what I look like under these clothes.  You would die!!!!"  But, you can't do that all the time, and hence the isolated feeling.  I called my DIL when I got out of there, and took her to lunch.  It felt good to be out, and the waiter liked my outfit.  So, I guess I am on a bit of an "up swing" today.  Thanks for pointing that out, Janet.

Trish, sounds like you are doing great!!! Sounds like you lucked out and have a great surgeon. Keep us posted on what your stage 2 will be.  I would never hike up a mountain even when I as healthy, but I am going back to the gym ASAP!!!!!

Enjoyeverymoment, thanks for the pep talk.  You are right.  We will all get there eventually.  We just have an unusual amount of people in a yucky place right now, but I can already feel a more upbeat mood today.

Gila, your registration for stage 2 sounds just like mine did...lol.  It will all work out.  I know if you are taking anything for blood pressure or thyroid they want you to take it.  Good luck Friday. Do you know what you are having done?

naiviv, I am so glad the lat incision hasn't been that much of an issue for you!!!!  I think the tummy takes a while  Mine is still very tight too, but it doesn't keep me from doing too much, at least. I see PT again on Wednesday.  I want to concentrate the tummy for a while.

Teacher, I have found lunch out with a good friend always changes my outlook on things, and maybe eating something sinful helps.

I didn't eat a sinful lunch but it was tasty. It was fun to laugh and before we knew it, 2 hours had gone by!!! My friend has her stage 2 in 2 weeks so she wanted a "flash." She was 100% surprised about how big my nipples are. Then I went for another ultrasound. The bulge isn't much better BUT there was a silver lining. My PS is sending his med asst for 3D tattoo training. I'm waiting til she has been before I even think of tattoos. Color and dimension will be the icing on the cake, so to speak. 

tlbradyful - laid is correct if it felt good!

Andrea - there will always be ignorant people in the world. Just think...bless her/his heart and ignore and avoid them whenever possible. I have chosen to walk away.

Enjoyevery - Thanks. I think I am coming out of my funk. 

I silently correct people's grammar all of the time in my head. I can't help myself. I can't turn it off. There are some rules that I cannot memorize, lie / lay for example.

Okay, Teacher. Here is where I get screwed up every time.  Am I going to lay down, or lie down if I am going to take a nap?  I get the lay/lain part.

they never end that is why I stopped sharing telling n confiding. I realize I don't want their opinions on what I should do or be happy with. When I was first diagnosed and lost my hair I found an angel who happened to sell wigs out of her home When I left Patti I had 2 beautiful faux heads of hair. So relieved I called my mom first comment "how much were they?" Second comment "I would have never paid that!"  I was so hurt n angry I replied "you would if you were BALD" It's been 4 yrs ago I've never forgotton. Sadly the hits just keep coming circle gets smaller then you feel isolated but safer from judgment.  This place feels safe to me and I promise everyone here I will support you and be there for you always

Andrea623 - Your work friend is an idiot. 

There is an endless supply of thoughtless comments and we just have to chalk it up to ignorance. Her/his comment was so unnecessary and you did not deserve that. Boobs are great - and nobody has a right to tell you how you should feel in your skin. 

When I was bald someone said, 'You're so lucky to be bald. It must be so liberating'

It's like if your house burned down, and someone said, 'Just leave it. Downsizing is fun. I wish MY house would burn down'.

I calm myself down by thinking I too was blissfully ignorant at one time. 

This weeks's stage 2ers - relax. It's not overnight improvement but it's getting there. Go for the gusto!

It's National Dog Day but for Penny that's every day!

I'm laughing at lay/lie! I'm a grammar snob but that's one rule I usually have to stop and think about.

I had my pre-op with the PS today. We're doing scar revision on the tummy, getting rid of the dog ears, fixing the indented crop circles, removing some side boob fat and doing a lift. No nipple reconstruction this time. 

Figures, I have a crazy work week this week. Deep down I know that in the grand scheme, it just doesn't matter but it's a bit of stress just the same.

My surgery is tomorrow! 

At first I was scared out of my mind but now anxious to get this over with. please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. 

I'll post when I'm able to read and stop drooling from all the pain meds. 

Lipglossmommie - best wishes for your surgery tomorrow and speedy, uneventful healing afterwards.  Just take it slow and easy. 

PS appt today - next appt 2 months and then we will schedule the finishing touches.  Told him that has to be in 2014 since deduct has been met this year.  He was happy with everything but I want scar dent smoothed out on the new boob.  I think I'll also opt for the nipple.  Gives me two months to lose the weight I have gained since the surgery.  Of course the diet will start tomorrow   I didnt realize that picture of my doggies was going to be so huge...lol.

BS appt on Thursday, Oncologist next week.  Oh boy here we go with the close monitoring of the leftie.  Hindsight should have taken that one off too.  I would be so done with the close monitoring. 

Good Luck tomorrow Lipglossmom..will be thinking about you..sending (((hugs))) to you..

Trish..good luck on your appointment. I took both of mine when I was diagnosed and glad i did.. just didn't want to even think about going thru this crap again. And I never worry about my deductible..hell one good scan takes care of that..

Andrea, any more thought on what your next move is going to be?

My Bella - a great nurse!

Li-Li, I love your dog's happy face! What a cutie!