FEC-D Her2 Positive_ I pledge not to lose myself to cancer

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Sam2013
Sam2013 Member Posts: 7
edited August 2014 in Chemotherapy - Before, During, and After

I had my first round of Chemo 21 days ago, my cycle is 3 FEC and 3 D. My second Cycle is August 1.



At first I was terrified of Chemo but Now I started to see it as a healing phase,
so I am not as anxious and even when I see my hair fallen I keep saying
to myself, as my hair fall so is the tumor. I am trying to keep
positive, and trick my mind to think I am getting rid of all the bad,
old things that don't serve anymore and I welcome New Beginning. I know
it is going to be a long journey but I don't have other choices but to
keep grateful for what I had, what I have and what I will have.



I have few moment when I am scared, but surprisingly, I am not angry, it
is what it is. My battle is not to let cancer get to both my body and
my soul.



So here is my commitment to myself:



Acknowledge the pain, aches but don't let them disable me

Smile everyday

Laugh everyday

Love harder and stronger

Hug honestly as if I mean it, my friends are asking me to stop hugging, I simply can't :)



I am hoping not to lose myself to Cancer and I pledge not to and would love it if you can join me.

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  • flannelette
    flannelette Member Posts: 984
    edited July 2014

    Hi Sam 2013 - I feel a kinship as I too had FEC (6) and, though I never denied I had cancer, I said a fierce NO! to being killed by it. So I chose to feel the FEC and the rads as healing, and somewhow really sent love to my body and especially my poor breast, So I'm signing the pledge sheet for you. Hugs! we all need many each day, even when we're well.

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  • Quasi
    Quasi Member Posts: 44
    edited August 2014

    hi Sam2013, I had the same chemo protocol and I am also HER2+, I was done with chemo on May 15, but continue with my herceptin, FEC was much easier than taxotere for me, but everyone is different, chemo changes your body to fight cancer the changes are difficult sometimes, interesting thing about FEC each cycle had different side effects for me. The good news is you will finish your chemo, that day will come, hang in there.

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  • Sam2013
    Sam2013 Member Posts: 7
    edited August 2014

    Thank you
    so much for your support, it means a lot. today was hard, I went from positive, and
    cheerful to I just want to be alone. Shaved my hair 2 days ago, I felt
    empowered :) . Then I had my second round of chemo, this time it was harder,
    fatigue, nausea and looking at myself at the mirror was strange, I can hardly recognize
    myself, how can it be? My friends have been supportive, loving and encouraging,
    they describe me as a strong women, but today I don't feel it, I just want to
    cry and I think I should allow myself to feel sad. Too many decision to be
    made, by now I know that mistakes happen, and I learned to ask for my reports and
    read them.

    I am
    meeting with my surgeon on the 13th, my choice to have both removed and have
    reconstruction done if possible in the same day, as I have condensed breast,
    and I don't want to go through this again.

    Your
    replies, helped me smile again, so thank you for helping through this journey.

    With Love

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