Single life after a mastectomy

Well I have to admit that seen my friend this past week gave me feelings which make me believe I am ready to try to meet someone new. It seams as if I am finally over my ex, but I am scare of the bc thing, telling a man about it it's what bothers me now. I fear I ll scare man as soon as they know what I am going through.  So I am not sure now.  

Bb, for you the fact that they both left with not warning signs it's something that could scare anyone I am not sure but I am happy that you and I are over our ex maybe the new guy can change our view all together.  

ha ha ha ya for sure he is horn y lol not no the marrying kind, well I am not looking for marriage but he just lives to far from me and he does no effort to see me so he is history. I ll move on. Won't fall for his needs anymore. 

Well I am glad people like my hair I love it but I want my curls long lol I keep hoping to have my long hair again.

Your hair might stay curly as it grows longer.  Mine did.  :-)

Then again, my hair always has been on the curly side.

yesterday I went and met a few biker ladies for dinner, I had a chocolate spice shot lol it was great lol nice restaurant.. I was able to introduce a friend to the biker ladies I used to hang out with so they can ride.  it made me sad to heard them talk aboitvtheir last rides and get together lol I miss my bike. I can't believe I sold it. Everything has change now. I need to not see those ladies for now cuz it makes me think of the past I cant have back lol 

I am sure it will pass, we just have to give it time. ;( 

I still know there are ladies who are going through so much more so we will be fine. I pray for them, I ll never understand why we are living what we are living but I have to keep going and time will have to do it for me since I have not other way. Time helped me in the past and I am counting on it now.  

yes, the arm where they took her lymph nodes. Poor sister hope its not lymphadema

Wish I could take a long road trip.  For now I have to settle for day trips.

BB - I wish the unwanted hair hadn't returned for me.  :-(   I wouldn't miss it (lol).

E - I hope that with the next surgery the PS is able to help you feel comfortable in your own skin again.  For now, I sympathize with you.  Right now, I'm just hoping to save enough money somehow for the tattooing. 

BTW, some time ago, I said I needed to lose the 10 lbs. that I gained over the winter.  So far, in the past few weeks, I've lost 5 lbs.  Anyway, I noticed something:  Those 10 lbs. were weighing me down far more than 10 lbs. did before the double-MX.  So, now I have a theory:  It seems that 10 lbs. on my post-MX figure is really equivalent to 15-20 lbs. pre-MX because I don't gain weight in the chest anymore.  I wonder if anyone else out there noticed the same thing?

the nordic walking pole thing has done a great job toning my upper dody, even my abb. I really never thought it would n it did. You must consider it. It's such an easy thing to do every 2 or 3 days I go for a 2 or 3 km walk n i enjoy it even though I wish I had someone to walk with. So I just use my music it's working great. 

Ok I will send you another link it tell you how it works lol 

ok this is a better video and see what she says at step#4

Nordic Walking instruction video: http://youtu.be/Yg3QMD4dtlM

lets google it in your city lol trust me it looks funny and I used to think "those people are silly, what could that possibly do?" then one day I just read about it and found a group who do it in my area. Took one class with them and Holly crap I was hurting all over for a few days. Then I bought the poles and started to go on my own. At my own time. Girl I ll try to take a picture of my upper body so you can see. It won't happen over night but I saw results within 4 weeks. I am not kidding lol I now love it. Yes I do feel Wierd when I do it cuz most people stair at me wile the see me pass them but I don't care. I have my music land in my ear n i keep going lol 

nice!!! Thanks for taking us with you  

Good night 

oh bb, I paid $30 got them of a lady who didn't use them at all but here it cost around 60 to 80 they are not cheap that's why i was thinking of the garage sales. How much are the pink bc one you found? I think if you like walking then this could do wonders for you. It has improved my overall body in terms of how it became during chemo. 

Hi ladies- back from my travels and wanted to say hi. My time back east was good, but I came back tired and of course, dealing with a bit of jet lag. My bag did not make it in last night, so I was there dealing with that at midnight as I arrived, but it showed up this am and went to pick it up this morning and all is fine there. I spent the afternoon relaxing and finally was able to take a 3 hour nap later in the day and just got up.

I have to go have my 6 month mammo and ultrasound tomorrow along with my follow up on Friday with the BS, and have to get my head around that now. 

BB- trust has always been a big issue for me as I have had a lot of boyfriends who could not be faithful. What I try to do now is to just really take things slow and get to know people before I give too much of myself. I don't there are any sure fire ways to know if someone will stay with us or not, but I try to make men prove they are worthy before I get too invested. I have had too much heartbreak in my life to put myself in that situation any more!

Piper- nice pics, and glad to hear you got a little break.

Life- traveling is great but I find really hard on the body these days. I come away with a sore back, sore feet and so much more and feel more "trashed" after a long day of plane travel anywhere. Day trips are really a good thing in so many ways. I won't be traveling again now until maybe October when I hope to go to northern Cali for a work conference.

Enerva- if you feel ready to meet someone, you go girl. You are young and beautiful and there is someone nice out there for you. Just make him prove he deserves you!

Pocket Party tomorrow. What time Jazzy? So I know what time to jump in.