Monday club lol

Hi there, checking in.  I seem to not come here as much these days b/c emotionally I've moved to another place, but that's not a bad thing.  Still doing my thing and will get the last quadrant of fillings out on Monday and then there will be one more tooth and then I'll be done--will be done by the time school starts, so praying this works out.  The good news is the tumor is no bigger. Sometimes it feels like it's grown but then I'll start my period and it goes right back down again.  

Jodi, that's great news that your chemo is done.  Good for you and what a time you've had!  If I'd had babies my experience might have been different.  

June, I'm glad you found a closer apt--that's a big load off your mind I'm sure.  

Red, you have a great time.  Maybe you can post a pic or two.  

red - have a fun trip. 

Piper - I've been reading your progress and so happy for you. Pls keep us posted and I always look forward to read how ppl are doing alt tx.

Jodi - how's the rad? Hope it's a smooth sailing.

And today I just signed the lease and got the keys. The bldg manager told me I could move in any time in june for free. It's almost unheard of in NYC. I will move sometime next week. Can't wait actually. But need to arrange with the movers and both buildings. 

jodi - how do you feel?? hope all is well re the rad.

pipers - i was wondering the same thing? what's next after the teeth thing?

red - i know you're having fun...hope to see some pic soon.

moved on tue...it was so exhausting. still couldn't figure out why i had so many stuff..ugh. i've always been cautious of what i bought since my last move (5 years ago)...so i was quite surprised that stuff i accumulated over the past 5 years. sigh. the apt is real nice though....:D

hello everyone!!

happy july 4th!!

just finished another deadline so am going to really enjoy and relax this weekend. i needed this.

piper, red - i want to see photos!!

jodi - i am sure by now you're already more than half way thru the rad. when is the last week??

I am meeting my surgeon Wednesday and it is on this day that I learn whether I am HER positive. 

red - the apt is almost done. i am waiting for the next pay check to get one more piece of furniture then i'll be done. i am researching some picture frames and i found some on etsy. now i just need to create my own art pieces. i am going to print some from my old photos but i want to draw one.

oh Billy the Goat is so adorable....

Jodi - that's fantastic!!

I am not doing any reconstruction. The anesthesia fried my brain a little and I don't want to go in and out of hospital after the MX. 

And my boobs were small and now after eating clean and exercise, the boob is almost non existence. The foob I bought was pretty much the same size as my boob few months ago and now it's bigger so I felt I am a little lop sided.  

Hey all, I'm still here.  It's been a wildly busy summer and I didn't get done nearly all I had to do but I'm not going to sweat it--after all I have an excuse, lol.  I got back from Canada a couple of weeks ago and it was a great trip.  Red, you live in a beautiful country!  I danced and hiked and flirted with men so it was all good.  

Jodi, you must be back home now--how do you feel?  Are the girls happy to be home?  I'll bet you are.  

June, I want to see your artwork--that's so cool that you can do that.  I'm a good doodler, lol.  

June, you mentioned your boob shrunk--are you talking DIM and/or iodine?   While I still have my boobs, they are about half of what they used to be.  I don't think the 33 lb weight loss explains this either--when I weighed this before I wore a DD cup size, but now I'm smaller than a C! I refuse to complain though and I sort of like the difference--clothes fit better for sure.  The dental work is done and I still have the tumor but chelation is not done yet and it hasn't grown since I started this and doc said no growth is fine--if it stays the way it is and I could learn to live with it, I'll be fine. After all, it's metastasis that hurts us.  I, however, would like to see it shrink.  We do a cancer panel in 2 wks and that will give us a good idea of where we're at and that will help me make a decision about surgery.  If the numbers are good, I can keep them, but if they're headed the wrong way--surgery.  The hardest part is that most folks think I'm nuts and so I don't get the social support that I truly need so I've stopped talking about it b/c the look on their face stops me cold.  It takes too long to go into all the reasons that I'm doing it this way and I really don't want to tell everyone how I've struggled with my weak brain all these years and how I can't afford to lose any more brainpower to surgery or chemo and that if I did, life would not be worth living--for me I mean. I have reasons for this too--I react poorly to anesthesia.  Damn, I need to write a blog.  So, sorry I've been staying away so long but I stay more positive if I'm not on here too much.  

piper - yes, we love you here...and so nice to hear from you and glad you had fun at your vaca

and i didn't take DIM or I3C...i am taking tamoxifen. i was taking dr Wong's herbs and stopped about a month ago. money was one issue and my integrative doc told me it counteract to tamxo. so....i decided to stop. and now i haven't gotten my period yet. when i moved, i didn't bring my bras with me. they were too big. 

i still don't know what to draw but i took some pictures of the lavenders i bought...going to print some of those at work. i no longer have a printer anymore. once they're done, i'll post some photos...

red - yay for joining the gym. i was such a couch potato but now i am so into it. i do yoga everyday. but i hurt my lower back...when i was doing aerobic i hurt my ankle (the back of ankle to be precise...sigh...). that's why i switched to yoga and now my lower back hurt. still trying to figure out which pose hurt or don't hurt. you'll love it  (i meant exercise) once you get into it....i love how i feel afterwards, the sweating, the deep breathing...very refreshing after a shower. i get up at 5:30 just so i could do it before i get to work. it gives me energy. and it can help us fight the SE of tamxo....if you have any.

jodi - read your update on FB. congrats!! pls write us when you get a chance....i am so proud of you..

it's a beautiful pond....would love to take a walk there...

thanks red - i would say the camera really made a difference...

Pipers-  None of us get off too lightly!  I know some have a harder road, but  when they say "you have cancer" bam- not light!   None of us know if what we are doing is going to work.  We all hope and pray for each other.  Just like driving, there are different ways to get to the destination:)

June- great pics!!  Started tam this week- what should I expect or do to help!  Any advice;)

Red- that is a beautiful spot!!! Wish we had something like that here.  Well- without Mosquitos!

We are home and thrilled.  Hair growing, went back to work yesterday.  Life ones on-