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Basia I wish you the best during your surgery. Hang in there once you have all of the answers and a plan things calm down. 

I you need to vent I am happy to listen. I am in the same pity party boat. 

Basia-I have been in your shoes and understand what you are going through.  I felt so guilty with each of my recurrences.  I felt like I had let all my supporters down and absolutely hated telling my family.  I did not want to put them through the emotional anguish again.  My kids seemed to take it easier and were of the mindset that because I had handled it before that I would have no problems the next two times.   I will be thinking of you and praying for good results.

Basia, you are in my thoughts today! Best of luck to you.

Rosemamma, I like the dog idea as well. I hear your husband's concerns as well. No puppies of course, but a dog to sit with you and love on sounds nice. An older well trained dog may be perfect. Have you thought of an assistance trained dog that maybe did not graduate. I know we have a blind school in my area and they adopt out the dogs that have gone through most of the training, but fall just a little short as perfect guide dogs. They are highly coveted and there is a waiting list, but cracks can form in the process. Do some research and see what you can find in your area.Whatever you do, do not put more work on yourself. Maybe a bulldog. My sister practically has to push that dog out to go for a walk:) very lazy and lovable. 

You ladies are strong women and this is a short period of time in a long life to live with your families!

BC sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!  

Glad to hear it went well Basia! You sound good, and upbeat!  

And yes, miracles are still very possible! 

Sending ((hugs))! God Bless!

"I am SOO with you Basia, Rosemamma, JamieH, BabyRuth and RCR, on the emotional waves you describe, including the thoughts that they got it all wrong! I am trying to be a grown-up about the recurrance I am dealing with, but sometimes its almost impossible. I hope you will post as you find out more. I had two episodes of bc, ten and one year ago, both treated according to protocal. I had radiation but no chemo. Even with mindful follow up this year, things progressed to mets. I am committed to finding out the most promising ways to follow those with second occurrances or recurrances, and pushing to get those standards established. This kind of thing, getting blindsided by mets when earlier scans or CTC observations could have picked it up much earlier, well, its for the birds. I read a lot of the stuff on a website from Johns Hopkins, "Artemis". A great and extensive database of bc related research.

I got a new cat a few weeks before my dx, just felt compelled to visit the shelters and eventually found our little fellow. He is such a comfort, and so silly! The best of both. Very affectionate. He is pretty low maintenance. My husband fell in love with him, also, which is neat. A positive thing to bond around. :  )

 As far as being able to detect recurrence early, My money is on circulating tumor cell counts. That is easy to do, just a blood test, and I think there is some good data that suggest those cell counts can correlate with new cancer activity and also indicate no additional cancer activity. For people who have had two episodes of cancer, it should be mandatory. 

Basia, how are you doing now, and what is the situation with path reports? Thinking of you, hope the long weekend went OK.

Basia that is torture to have to wait for the holiday weekend. I hope you get some answers tomorrow. 

((hugs)). Yes it sucks but remember it's a regional recurrence and now is the time to stop it. 

Sorry about your results and that darn lymph node.  It sucks that you are having to deal with this again.  Once you get to your oncologist and get your treatment plan you will feel better and be ready to fight. Just remember that there are many of us(unfortunately) who have had recurrences and have fought the battle a second and even third time successfully.  I am now a year out from my last diagnosis and am doing great.  Keep us updated on your treatment plans.

Sounds like your scar line had a lymph node in it. I hope they can clarify tomorrow what's going on and you can get a plan in place. 

Basia, Eager to hear your upcoming plan, am backing you on getting the most info you can on a thorough dx and effective tx plan. Mame