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  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 8,046
    edited May 2014

    I need that group huggggg

    All these beautiful word r so touching

  • crog234
    crog234 Member Posts: 801
    edited May 2014

    (((((Ducky and Firecracker and GMA)))) and anyone else who needs a hug.  I did not know Mary well but I am still feeling a loss and sadness..😒 Death is always hard for those that are left behind.  I lost both my parents within 4 days of each other in March of 2013.  Keeping busy is what kept me going through that time..  ((((Group Hug))))

    Cindy AKA Squishy

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited May 2014

    Cindy.......thank you so much........

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

    I second what Ducky says - Thank you Squishy..

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

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    She loved my turkey pictures! LOL

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

    This is the actual picture that she said she loved the turkeysimage

  • april485
    april485 Member Posts: 3,257
    edited May 2014

    Ya know, it was pretty bad when we lost Red. Then Veggy. Now Mary. I just want to go on record as saying I hate this f'king disease so much. Please ladies, forgive me, but this is getting harder and harder to be on these boards and seeing people die.  I love you all and wanted you to know that.  xoSad

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

    April and all others thinking and feeling the same. I have something to share with you that keeps me here:

    Yes it is hard to be here, with all my friends passing before my eyes... Its not just all of you that are so caring and loving to me but I also feel if I can give a person one more light in their day with my presence, I will stay till the end. It does create a fear that they started out with the same cancer and ended up with mets. That seems to overwhelm me with fear. Then I think what my dear son tells me: "God's toolbox is about love and compassion not about power and control. If there is any of these: Guilt, anger, fear, pride, envy, lust... - its not from God.. Flee from it." So I flee from my fears and remember I am here to give others companionship and comfort in any way I can.

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  • camillegal
    camillegal Member Posts: 16,882
    edited May 2014

    GMA How beautiful.

  • camillegal
    camillegal Member Posts: 16,882
    edited May 2014
  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

    Group hug back to ya. I hope what I said helps you to know why I am here. And why each and everyone of us are important.  

  • camillegal
    camillegal Member Posts: 16,882
    edited May 2014

    GMA I do understand why u'r here, when new people come in their fear is so great and what we've all experienced has been ick---we want people to feel like here we are All different scenarios and still going--True some better than others but u try to give hope that the fear they feel is normal and they'll feel a comfort from people who completely understand what's I going on. And sometimes it takes a while to find the right threads to feel comfortable in and after u might even change, but there is something for everyone no matter what their feeling is at the time--We're in this nitemare together in strange ways, but we can share some laughs too. And BTW u seem much better lately and I'm so glad u do.--u'r a nice giving person GMA and I hope u'r blessed with better and better days.

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

    still in pain but acupuncture seems to be keeping me out of the basement.  It will be a long process until we know if it will help my nerve pain but it seems to be making other things change.  I'm in the middle of remapping my nervous system.  

    I also found out peppermint essential oil, if you sniff it it will short-circuit your pain receptors.  For me, it makes how I feel about pain different. Its still there but i don't stress so much about it.  

  • 4sewwhat
    4sewwhat Member Posts: 2,093
    edited May 2014

    Gma,

    What you said was beautiful.  I too come here for many of the same reasons.  If I can make someone laugh or even just smile.  But I also come because it puts things in perspective for me too.  Unfortunately there is always someone worse off.  And it makes me feel bad for them, but it also makes sure I appreciate what I have and where I am at.  That may be me one day.  YOu can also find people with similar situations and some are doing great and some not as much.  This whole thing is such a friggin' crap shoot.  No rhyme, no reason and it sure as hell doesn't make any sense.

    Oh and BTW!  The acupuncture sounds encouraging. I hope you continue to feel better and better.

  • 4sewwhat
    4sewwhat Member Posts: 2,093
    edited May 2014

    Where are all the Hoolies Hiding?.

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014
  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited May 2014
  • april485
    april485 Member Posts: 3,257
    edited May 2014

    I'm here despite being sad about the deaths we have experienced. I wouldn't leave cause of this...just really hate this disease and cannot understand why so much money gets pumped into wars and things that kill and maim when there are so many people dying way too soon...other than that, I am happy to be a part of this community and it does help me to process this BC bull crap.

    xoxo to all of you

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

    New goal for the week: Find a "Happy Place" and stay there. It seems from my research, happy places, scents, thoughts will kill pain receptors in the brain and bring you out of chronic pain. Worth a try.  This is the lesson that explains what pain does to your brain and how to get the "Happy Place" back: ttp://www.neuroplastix.com/.../brain-and-pain-lecture-4.pdf

    Little Bow Pink is bringing you all a smile. She has stayed with me through this cr...p and never judged or gave me grief.  She is my Happy Place.

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  • Wren44
    Wren44 Member Posts: 8,585
    edited May 2014

    Gma, I haven't tried it for chronic pain but it sure works for medical procedures. Mine is a beach in Hawaii.

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited May 2014

    Mine is seeing my  Grayson stand, even though it is not alone....and my hope is one day she will

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  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

    I love her new way of getting around Ducky!  She looks so happy.

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited May 2014

    gma........she is......and so is her GG, which is what she calls me.......hugs girlfriend.......

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 8,046
    edited May 2014

    IM HAVIN GG#4 

    ITS A GIRL

    FROM MY GS WHO HAD THAT BAD ACCIDENT IN 2010

    Nuthing can ruin my day

  • blondiex46
    blondiex46 Member Posts: 5,712
    edited May 2014

    yay Fire, great news.

  • april485
    april485 Member Posts: 3,257
    edited May 2014

    Congrats FK!

    Ducky, Greyson is so beautiful!!

    I can't wait until my first grandchild arrives in October!! So excited!! The cycle of life continues and that is as it should be.

    xoxox to all! Off to work!

  • GmaFoley
    GmaFoley Member Posts: 7,091
    edited May 2014

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    Congrats! FireKracker!

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 8,046
    edited May 2014

    thank u,thank u

    It was almost 4 yrs ago that my GS almost lost his life

    Today God is blessing him in Oct.with a baby girl

    I'm in baby heaven

  • april485
    april485 Member Posts: 3,257
    edited May 2014

    Life is so precious and now a baby to love and spoil! Congrats to you AND your son Firekracker! May the good Lord bless and keep you all safe and enjoy that little one!

    My upcoming grandchild is what is keeping me sane right now while my life spirals out of control all around me.

    Guess I am in the basement lately, even with the many blessings I have been lucky enough for God to bless me with INCLUDING finding my breast cancer at the earliest possible stage it could be.

    Life is wonderful and I know that in my brain. I guess Mother's Day is playing a big role in my feelings this week. I miss my Mom so much (this is only my second Mother's Day without her!) and now I don't have my Mother in law either since she died of colon cancer at the end of December.

    Just have to keep counting those blessings!

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 13,369
    edited May 2014

    April..........hang in there girlfriend............the basement door is locked......no one is allowed down there........tell her FK...........We hold the key, and no one goes there.....

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