Rough time with the chemo and or premeds and beyond scared

A week ago I had my first attempt chemo treatment. I say attempt cause I had reactions to both kinds they tried. I was given a ton of steroids, Benadryl, Pepcid and God knows what else. The next day I was given the same premeds and was tried the Herceptin, well after a six hour infusion I had a reaction of breathing problems from that treatment. I then the next day went to the er and was given steroids, Benadryl and Pepcid again. I am still having anxiety to the point I can function with upper back muscle spasms, shakes, hands and feet dripping sweat and waking up with panic attacks and can't even shower and get a panic attack. I had panic attack years ago but never had them lately until the last week's immense cocktail. I am beyond frustrated, mad and really want to say I quit. I am can't function if this is the beginning I don't think I will make it to the end of this treatment process. I will be dead. Anyone have or experience anything like this