Moving On......After the Flap

I would totally love to go.  I'm still in a place where I don't know which end is up half the time. I get a bit panicky when I think about making plans months away yet. It's almost like I'm a bit superstitious.  I know I need to learn how to relax and enjoy life instead of worrying about the "what ifs".  

Hi all...gotta get my hair dried before it sticks straight up, but just want to say that this house CAN hold up to 16......

XO

I lost you girls for awhile!   You know, I'm not feeling like I'm moving on.😢. Foob is good and waiting for nipple in April, but now I'm going thru these tests for my liver.  I'm so tired of this.  I need someone to understand how this cancer worry thing feels.  I know you guys understand. I just wish there was a real warm body around me that I could talk to.  I feel like I go thru my days in my own world that is always thinking about BC.  Blah!   

mammalou, I understand. I totally feel like I've not moved on. I see how much further everyone else is along with their reconstruction and I'm just starting all over again. It sucks. 

Hang in there. I'm sorry you feel alone. You aren't!

Jeannie, I think we all have blocks in our path. It just seems at times so unfair. How much crap is a person expected to deal with over and over again? I have gotten pretty good at moving blocks out of the way or scrambling over. I'm just so damn tired. 

Reading about your finishing touches and your nipples made me realize that one day I too can have a parade in Seattle in honor of my nipples! 

lol... Ok maybe not Seattle. Too far.  It will be in Philly. It's a bigger city. More people will be there.

I will come to your parade!  Thanks for the encouragement.  It just seems like it is one thing after another.  It is hard to go around focusing on all the trival things in a job and at home and worry that I'm going to get some devastating news that I won't live to old age.   I do a pretty good job of staying upbeat and happy, but sometimes I just feel like I can't take the uncertainty.  I'm keeping busy at work and walking at least 6 miles a day, so I don't feel I'm over consumed with worry or fear.  I go for an ultrasound the first week of a March, so hopefully I'll get some answers.  

Jeannie, can't wait to see the cover girl!  I bet you look great in waders.

Jeannie, post it again!  I want to see it. Bluebird and mammalou you have earned the right to feel the way you do.  We understand, but some of us to a lesser degree than others. I can tell when I talk to non-cancer friends that they really just can't relate to feelings we all have. They try. My tablet is not behaving well right now. Not sure how this is going to display.  Movie the check is in the mail.  Thanks for finding that beautiful house. If anyone hears of good flights from the Midwest, please PM me.  Can't wait to meet all of you face to face!  ...Julie

Jeannie, what a cool thing!  You and your trout will be immortalized.  Please share the photo again with us. 

Cruising through the website of the Salmon River place this morning, and I wish we were meeting up today.  What a beautiful place, and the chance to celebrate our lives together...well, this will be something very special.

I was babysitting Aubrey last night, and I put her in her low-to-the-ground infant swing, one that's shaped like a papa-san chair.  I knew she didn't really want to be there, but I wanted to see what she would do.  I stood by and watched her sit up and flip over onto her tummy, scootch down until her bottom was off the swing, then grab the edge of the swing to lower herself into a standing position and plop down into a sit.  She is six months old.  Somebody call Mensa...

Happy Friday, everyone!

Nihahi, I'm afraid if I am to be the camp mother, you will have to eat what you get. I am quite strict . . . LOL. Love your suggestion to Jeannie re Wilbur the trout - so very appropriate!

Sbe, I love to hear about Aubrey's antics. She seems to be quite something special! Can't wait for my grandchild any more. DD is working her last day today. Her hands and feet are really swollen, she's tired, the nursery is ready, her hospital bag is packed. The world is waiting with bated breath to welcome that little one.

Beautiful photo, Jeannie! Will make a lovely cover, Wilbur included.

Okay Ladies........Salmon River Rendezvous is on the books(reserved)...September 19th-22nd.  Ten of us have signed up, so far.....we have room for more.......gotta dash!

XO  Jackie

Bluebird, the fishing program I attended was through my hospital but Casting For Recovery is nationwide. You have to apply. I think they get more applicants than spots so not everyone can go. They are doing it in New Jersey in September. I just googled it. I think it's in every state.  I am sorry to hear you are a Steelers fan! Seattleites think the Steelers stole the SuperBowl from us a few years ago. I still love you, though, and will throw you a parade any time, anywhere.

Aubrey is obviously training for the Olympics already.....does she have a mini mt. bike yet?

I am now in 100%. I was waiting for my son to say that September would be ok to visit. Our original plan was August.  The money is in the mail tonight, but I can't find where it said how much. Jeannie could you text me the amount.

I am in for driving to Portland with Jeannie or the train. We could take food in a car. Also, it would be more cost efficient to split gas 4 ways. Also, less planning with getting to a station and renting a car. However, I am up for whatever. My 60th is in October, so I will be celebrating that is for sure. Can't wait.

Cherrie, nice to hear your plans for the getaway are all coming together. Train or car, Mt Hood, here we come! My big 60 is in July. Yes, we will celebrate!

Gwenny, welcome here on this thread! Sorry to hear about the port, and yes, it would be a constant reminder of what you just went through. As far as I know the port is normally removed a few months after treatment. I did not have one, so hopefully someone else here can chime in about this.