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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited January 2014

    Mom had her MRI though. Should know results on the 6th.

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  • farmerlucy
    farmerlucy Member Posts: 3,985
    edited January 2014

    Sorry about the delay Christy 

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  • Mimikay23
    Mimikay23 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    hey sweetie 

    I would say if u feel like crying,cry because that will help you a lot that holding it in ,at least that works for me,on the other hand I would say just try to stay positive u haven't had your surgery yet so you shouldn't  be worried,I'm notreligious and I don't want to sound like one but believe me miracles do happen u might be surprised that they won't find any bc in you rather than fat tissues or something else.

    Stay strong 

      

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Well I met my Doctor. They are going to do a double biopsy next Tuesday. I don't mind saying I've been a total mess. My brain seems to have left me for for a bit. But I'm feeling better. Mom got her results. NEG TO BOTH! Dad called me as I was leaving my appointment (that they still have no idea about) he was so excited! Me too!!  I have decided to just let them be happy and worry free...God knows they deserve it!  And now I'm feeling like...okay I can do what ever life has. I don't have to worry about taking care of Mama...it's such a SUPER HUGE weight off my shoulders! The Dr say I have 2 microcalcification spots on my left breast . So hey...I can deal with that. Right? I really don't understand it all. But I do understand it could be worse. Thank you all for just letting me ramble....just so that you know I have continued to pray for you all and thank God for this sight. :-)

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Oh and...Please forgive me if I come back on her tonight..tomorrow ... etc... having another week post crying because I'm scared again. I've come to the conclusion that I really can't trust my emotions these days.  And I'm afraid you all are really the ones that pay for my choice to keep this all from my family. Sorry...



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  • AZ85048
    AZ85048 Member Posts: 2,613
    edited February 2014

    Christycain17 - GREAT NEWS about your mom!  And microcalcifications aren't necessarily a bad thing.  I have a strong feeling you're going to be just fine, too.  If you need to rant, we're open 24/7....  Winking

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  • farmerlucy
    farmerlucy Member Posts: 3,985
    edited February 2014

    I agree with AZ - we going for 2 for 2 (B9) that is.

    Love the 24/7 comment AZ!

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Thanks AZ and Farmerlucy!  

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  • edwards750
    edwards750 Member Posts: 3,761
    edited February 2014

    Christy - great news about your Mom; I know you are so relieved. You are up next and while none of us know what the outcome of yours will be just remember whatever it is you can and will handle it. We will keep you and your Mom in our prayers and you keep us posted. Diane

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  • edwards750
    edwards750 Member Posts: 3,761
    edited February 2014

    Nonblondmom...I am so sorry about your sister. She was so young. Its hard to comprehend that happening to a lady in her 30s. Do keep us informed about your situation. We are pulling and praying for you. Diane

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Thank you Diane. Prayers are the most POWERFUL tools. And I greatly appreciate them. And continue to send you all my prayers.  

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Just had my biopsies. Feeling tired but not sore at all. Dr Thompson said he should be able to tell me on Friday. Night gals. (((Hug))) to all.

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  • farmerlucy
    farmerlucy Member Posts: 3,985
    edited February 2014

    Fingers still crossed. I'll wave at you as I fly from Houston to Pensacola and then on to Gulf Shores today.

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  • AZ85048
    AZ85048 Member Posts: 2,613
    edited February 2014

    Chistycain17 - We're all right here waiting with you...  sleep well! 

    farmerlucy - Wishing you a safe and uneventful flight...

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  • farmerlucy
    farmerlucy Member Posts: 3,985
    edited February 2014

    thanks AZ!

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Hi Gals....Farmerlucy...HERES WISHING YOU A FUN FILLED TRIP!! There is certainly a lot to be said for the numbing shot they give you for the biopsy.. wish it had lasted longer! I'm rather blessed, as some would say, with large breasts. .but oh my goodness that weight hurt! But  I'm back to normal today...

    Now I just wait for results! I HATE THIS WAITING! It's so hard.  

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  • farmerlucy
    farmerlucy Member Posts: 3,985
    edited February 2014

    Thinking of you today Christycain!

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  • jsjherman
    jsjherman Member Posts: 170
    edited February 2014

    Christycain, I understand your fears. I had an abnormal mammogram and biopsy the first part of January. The biopsy came back a ductile papilloma which wasn't cancer at this point. Becaue my mom is a 31 year survivor, and the fact my aunt and cousin  had breast cancer, they encouraged the genetic test for BRCA1 which my cousin is positve. More waiting and finally about two weeks ago, they called and I have the mutation as well. I am so thankful that it isn't cancer, but so scared because I don't ever want to go through what my mom went through with her cancer and chemo. I meet with the surgeon on the 24th to discuss my options. I am leaning towards the pbm and removing my ovaries. I have the total support of my husband and family, but my emotions are all over the place. I am scared, thankful, and feel guilty all at the same time.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I claim Isaiah 41:10 and cry when I need to. Stay strong!

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Okay so I'm not certain what to think right now. I had my biopsy last week was supposed to hear results last Friday. They said last Friday the pathologist still had not turned in the report for Dr to sign off on.  Just called and the nurse said she called the pathologist first thing this morning and their was some other Dr who needed to look at it and that she or my Dr would call me before the end of the day. I said well must be good news or they would have gotten back sooner. She was quiet and then said the Dr would be calling. I mean really...that just kinda made my stupid brain go kinda funked out. Now I feel kinda shaky...scared. I had actually convinced myself this weekend that I was being dramatic and that nothing was wrong...now...I'm nervous allover again! Really hating this rollercoaster ride! Ready to just know and deal with what ever. Sorry girls just felt like ranting. 

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Jsjherman....I'm so sorry...just read your post...Thanks for your post and scripture am going right in to look it up from here. Jesus always has a way to calm my emotions. (It probably doesn't help I've had a few cups of coffee) while I'm doing my devotional I will certainly send prayers your way!  (((HUGS)))

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Thank you farmerlucy! I will keep you all posted.   I'm so blessed to have found this sight! Thank you all for all of the support you have given. <3 you all!

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  • farmerlucy
    farmerlucy Member Posts: 3,985
    edited February 2014

    Christy - Here is a little experience I've had with this, and something I've seen relatively often on these boards. Of course, I might be totally off base. When my biopsy was taking forever to come back, my BS explained that generally they have two pathologist look at the sample independently. If their opinions differ, they send it out for a tie-breaker. Mine was called ADH/ALH by one local pathologist and LCIS/DCIS by another. They sent it to Vanderbilt for the tie-breaker to one of the nation's best pathologists and she called it ALH/ADH.  From what I can tell from reading on these boards it is easier to tell if it is full blown invasive cancer, and less "cut and dried" for the precancer and DCIS. I asked my onco why they didn't have two pathologist look at my IDC independently and she said it is easier to tell. (Sorry if I am repeating myself.)  Anyway - this MAY be happening in your case. If it is it is no doubt upsetting, but not that bad in the big scheme of things.  Keep in mind I have no medical training, I am just telling you what I've experienced. In any case you should hear soon.

    PS I had my biopsy on Tues, Dr said to expect results by Friday, I didn't hear until the following Wednesday.

    Hanging in there with you!

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  • geekyknitter
    geekyknitter Member Posts: 187
    edited February 2014

    Hugs...waiting is so hard!  In times like these, I really try to focus on the fact that, when it comes to medical issues, good news usually travels a lot more slowly than bad news.  I'll be thinking of you and hoping that is also the case here!

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Thanks farmerlucy... you're wise with experience. I needed to hear that...and it totally makes since. 

    And Thank you too geekyknitter...sometimes I'm just so silly.

    Sorry for whining to you guys.

    . 

     

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  • geekyknitter
    geekyknitter Member Posts: 187
    edited February 2014

    There's nothing silly about being afraid in all this.  I had my "freak out" time myself a week ago and people here and elsewhere helped me through it.  It's all just part of the rollercoaster and very normal.  :)  This is a safe place to vent whenever you need to.

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Thanks geekyknitter ((Hug))

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  • jsjherman
    jsjherman Member Posts: 170
    edited February 2014

    Christycain, it is ok to melt down... I had episodes this weekend. Like you I am glad I found this site and thankful that I was led to read your post. It called to me on some level and I feel connected to you and your journey. Hang in there and I will check back later to see if you found out anything. Be blessed and (((Hugs))) back at ya! 

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  • ziggypop
    ziggypop Member Posts: 1,071
    edited February 2014

    Hi Christy, I don't know how I missed your thread before, but now that I have seen it just wanted to stop in and say that I am sending thoughts and prayers in your direction. Your parents sound like wonderful people and I am so happy that your mom's results were negative for brain and bone mets. The chemo brain and the rest will eventually wear off, but it will take awhile. any hugs.. hope you get B9 results and soon. 

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  • Christycain17
    Christycain17 Member Posts: 29
    edited February 2014

    Thanks ziggypop! Love that name by the way. 

    Go my results LCIS...don't really understand it really. Dr says I will need to take some medication.  Wants me to call his nurse and set up an appointment.  So I don't think it's serious at all. Just got off the phone with him. Says he will fax over my pathology report to my office.  

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  • geekyknitter
    geekyknitter Member Posts: 187
    edited February 2014

    There are some great links on here about LCIS and I believe there is a forum as well.  The best part about it is that it is NOT invasive and rarely ever becomes invasive.  Hopefully others with LCIS will chime in to give you more information.

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