Kind of a bad day...

Hi all,

I just wanted to come to you all and ask for prayers for me and my family. I've just kind of had an emotional day today....of course there is my mom's new diagnosis of breast CA, and her first visit with the oncologist on Tuesday. I am trying to be positive and strong, but inside I am so scared. But I still try to keep a smile on my face and be a strong presence for her...but it's hard sometimes, ya know? I am also concerned for her because she's struggling financially and does not have insurance.

There's also my baby sister (she's 12). Her health isn't well right now. She's had juvenile rheumatoid arthritis for a long time now, and she's been on low-dose chemo for it for about two years. It's low-dose enough for her to take long term, but it makes her feel terrible, and just sort of sucks the life out of her. We did a trial basis taking her off the chemo, and it didn't work...she's in more pain now than she ever has been, and her joints look awful. So we were told this week that the chances of her disease going into remission were slim to none, and that she will have to continue with the chemo for an indefinite period of time (most likely the rest of her life). She's upset, naturally, and she's also depressed about my mom's situation; I've never seen her like this.

To add to all this, I found out today that my grandmother has a mass on her lung and goes for a biopsy in two weeks, and my best friend's mother has just been diagnosed with metastatic ovarian CA.

Seeing all these people hurting is killing me. I want so much to have peace about all these things, but I feel like I am falling apart.

I know it must seem like I am whining. I pride myself on being one who can deal with whatever is heaped on my plate without complaint, but today it's just really getting to me and I feel very heavy-hearted. If you have it in your hearts, please keep my loved ones in your prayers, and I suppose I could use a few, too.

Thanks for "listening." God bless all of you.

Jen