3 years since I finished chemo

I can't believe I was bald three years ago. My hair now is longer than I have ever grown it. I think I am ready to color it now. I liked the grey but it does age me and washes me out. I am aged I think from all of this. I had 4 treatments of Taxotere and Cytoxin 3 weeks apart. My body creaks and pops whenever I move. My knees are all puffy with fluid, and I can't wear my pretty high heels because my planters fasciitis will flare up. I am taking Tamoxifen still. I don't seem to have any side affects unless the above mentioned is from it, my doctor just says maybe. We considered since i went into menopause from chemo and never came out, going to aromatase, which would give me a better survival rate like 3%, but I decided not to for fear of maybe worse side affects. I sometimes wonder if that was wise. I had 4 surgeries skin sparing bilateral mastectomies with no reconstruction, Placement of tissue expanders filled to 150cc, 6 fills of 100ccs 3 weeks apart, Implant exchange, CV flap nipples and lipo to my sides. This past September I went to NOLA to have my tattoos done by Vinny Meyers and they came out great. Overall I think my doctor did an amazing job on me. I am happy with his work but disappointed with the limitations of the process. I had too high expectations. I was hoping to have more upper pole. I also still have side boob I may need more lipo. My scar on one side is very indented so it shows if I wear something really shear with no bra. I was on weight watchers the whole time but after my exchange, when it was all over I gained all my weight back and then some. I lost a lot of it the past few months when I became a leader. Once I lose all the weight I may revisit my doctor to see about some more lipo. Don't know if I can do it though financially. I was caught without insurance when I was diagnosed. I was very very lucky to qualify for a medicaid program for breast and cervical cancer in Missouri. Everything was covered if I used the right hospital and doctors. Which limited my choices and did make for some scary roommates in the hospital. But my care and treatment from all the doctors and nurses at the Truman Hospital although a 45 minute drive, was exceptional and for that I will be eternally grateful. I had my chemo at Saint Lukes, which was less scary and more private. My screening with my oncologist is every 6 months. She kind of left it to me how often to come. Nothing to really do but blood work unless I have pain somewhere. She doesn't do scans otherwise because they usually lead to lots of benign biopsies and makes people crazy. it does make me nervous every time I get a headache though. So now life is basically normal. Although I come to this site almost every day, I read less and less of the posts now. I try to give comfort or advise when I can. So many did that for me here it was really what got me through it all. Next step will to do some volunteer work. I think after the holiday I will look into that. I feel the need to give back.