Calmly seeking information

I have no idea where to put this question but I consider this *my* forum, so here it is.

I had my routine visit with my oncologist Friday.

I finished chemo in January 2011 and finished Herceptin in November of 2011. I saw her PA in the spring of 2012 and I saw my oncologist in the fall of 2012 and then last Friday.

I thought I was on the once a year schedule.

I could attribute a lot of BS meaning to stuff she said, except it would be BS. As a total parenthetical, I have found I try to parse meaning into every syllable that comes out of a cancer doctor's mouth in exactly the same way I tried to parse meaning into every syllable that came out of that cute boy's mouth.

I actually gave the appointment no thought -- I'm good at that which I think should be a pre-requisite for getting any sort of potentially fatal yet possibly manageable disease. If you don't have that trait, you should be declared ineligible.

Today I got the results of the blood tests in the mail along with a slip of paper setting my next appointment which I DID NOT MAKE. I've walked out of there several times without making the follow up for any number of reasons -- this time it was that I went out the wrong exit so thought, "I'll just call" although between you and me I was thinking I might not go back as I don't see the point. Never once has an appointment been made for me.

So, my blood work reflected the following:

WBC 3.7 (norm=4.5-11.0)

RBC 3.9 (norm=4.0-5.2 so not material)

MO# 0.4 (norm= 0.0=0.1)

I have, naturally, decided I have Robin Roberts leukemia and am counting on you all to tell me how silly I am being.

And yes, I could call the doctor but I would feel stupid when she tells me what y'all are about to tell me so I'm going to skip that step.

Plus, you don't want me going all crazy calling doctors when I have a question -- I balance the universe against my mother and all kinds of horrible things will happen if I stop.