In shock
Comments
-
Morwenna- the pictures are just beautiful!
Liefie- I like the raft description. I'm sure we all will be in the middle at some point as Nihahi pointed out.
Benny- hope the horses are all taken care of, you must be exhausted. Just taking my dog to be groomed wore me out this week. And now that he is so clean it is suppose to keep raining for the next five days :-( -
Benny waiting for us on the raft. Healing coming to you dear sister.
-
Jo....your "child" is precious. My girlfriend has Murphee Brown, same color, and Murphee turned 19 yrs in September. Goooo little doggies.
Love the raft image...I am on board, too.
Ummm...still procrastinating, but maybe today? Upstairs to the sewing room?
Feeling good today. Finished my coffee, so hopefully I end my procrastination. Sending ((HUGS)) to all.
Jenifer -
Sunset at the beach just 10 minutes away from here, wonderful.
-
Hi gang! I am home today because I overdid it yesterday. You'd think I'd learn, wouldn't you? We ended up getting 10 horses done because the farrier ran out of time. All of the ones who had to come in were way the heck and gone out in their pastures (it's a 40 acre farm) and wouldn't come in when I called, even when I had the hay wagon. So it was a whole lot of hiking and bringing horses in. Oh! And those crunchy leaves when we got near the barn! Oooooh scary crunchy leaves for horses!
Thank you so much for the raft and the visuals, Liefie, Edi. I am a bit depressed again today but am doing what I can to stay positive. A friend brought over a little gold brooch of the pink BC ribbon with two pink stones on it. It has 'breast cancer survivor' written on it. Ugh, I had to tell her the news about the biopsy and that I might not be a BC survivor after all. How ironic, the timing. When I saw the breast surgeon on Thursday he reviewed the radiologist's report with me and pointed out a few things. First of all, the radiologist is a doctor, trained in radiology and has years of experience both doing and reading ultrasound. That doctor could not find anything on the US. Neither could the radiation technician, who just kept pressing harder and harder with that little plastic thingy, til it hurt. I found out later it was because she couldn't find anything. The breast surgeon said "The radiation doctor has made a very strong statement here.... there is no mass, just calcifications that showed up on the mammogram". I also told him I had been having pain in my left armpit for months and he said 'cancer doesn't usually cause pain. Did you have pain in your right armpit the last time?' I did not, so had to agree with him, altho' we all know cases where some have had pain. He did a physical exam and I passed with flying colors. So I don't know. Nevertheless, there has been a change since last year in the unaffected breast so I have to have a biopsy. They are only biopsying the calcifications as there is no indication that anything is going on in the lymph nodes. Again, US found nothing there either. So it's all a bit distressing and confusing. I am fearful that every time I have a mammogram I am going to have to have a biopsy too. Yuck yuck yuck. What a way to live. They are scheduling the biopsy in about 2 weeks.
Okay, I am trying to get some housework done here. I am soooooo tired today so am setting the timer in the kitchen for 10 minutes. I will get up and do some housework for 10 minutes, then have a rest when the timer goes off. It seems to be working.
Jo, puppy is absolutely adorable!!!!!
Back to
-
This board is now deleting the last word I type in every post LOL
-
benny......good days, down days.....it's a natural thing. If you got yourself completely exhausted at the farm, not too hard to understand you might have made it easier for the negative thoughts to creep back in. ARE YOU EATING NOURISHING MEALS????!!!!!!! Or are you running on empty??????
The gift from your friend was meant to be a kind, thoughtful gesture, I'm sure, but the timing of it does "reek" with irony. However, I wish I could convince you to stop feeling like a "failure"....Every day you can plant your feet on the side of the bed, shouts "survivor", in my opinion. Is the calcification change worrisome....of course it is....does it mean the "end is near" and this past, tough year has been a failure....nope, not in my book!!!!! Like I've told you when we've chatted.....I do not believe that hope for a positive outcome, is ever wasted energy. Hope is what moves us forward. Despair is what grinds us down to lay in the mud.
I am working at the voting station on Monday, but will have time on Tuesday in the early afternoon if you want to meet for a coffee/chat somewhere. I have to be in Calgary for a late afternoon appointment, so it would be an easy rendezvous. Let me know. -
Benny, sounds really positive news. :-) You please make sure you rest. No wonder you have pains, you must use muscles the rest of us don't know we have. Bet biopsy not half as bad as you think. Close your eyes and think of Diamond,Benny and the rest of your brood. Small price to pay for peace of mind. In the meanwhile we are ALL around you on the raft, healing flowing from us to you. Have a chill out day tomorrow, badge perhaps not the best gift at the moment but you HAVE survived soooo much and will again, wear it with pride. X
Had a fantastic Skype with Liefie and Movie earlier. We have got to have a proper get together one day.
I had a pretty yuk day apart from that,NO energy :-( Did nothing then fell asleep, DH said go to bed I did and slept for hours. He woke me at seven pm as insulin shot due. Then made me lovely bacon and tomato sandwich.Chat with Liefie and Movie soon put the world to rights and just hope I can sleep later.
Sunday tomorrow so favourite day of the week. Hope you all well and happy.
Jo, little doggie really cute.
Mom, hope that needle flying in and out of those beautiful overlays.
-
Edi.....hubby and I walked our way around town to do some errands and have lunch. Total distance was over 14km.....more than I needed to do after hiking yesterday.....so here ..........>>>>>SWOOSH!!!! I've given you some of my km's from today. There, see, not such a nothing day after all, eh!!!!! -
Morwenna - the pics of Canmore are stunning. We camped there many years ago and I do recall how beautiful it is.
Benny - good news about the mammogram - it is sounding positive for you. However , it must be a downer having to have the biopsy done. I am going for my very 1st post treatment mammogram this coming Monday and I am absolutely dreading it!!
Mom of 2 - Thanks for letting me know what overlays are - they say we learn something new every day - good luck with those !! Sounds like fun.
Edi - nice pictures of beautiful sunsets. Glad you had fun dancing and good for you to do it. how is the hip?
Liefie - you are getting to meet so many new people from the web site - that's great.
Enjoy the rest of your weekend, ladies. -
Benny......what did you have for supper tonight???? -
Ewwwww, you're not going to like this. Gluten free pasta and baby peas. Two tiny Greek yogurts for dessert. Breakfast was porridge with gobs of brown sugar. Lunch was a Boost and some vitamins.
Tuesday get-together sounds like a great idea!
-
Adagio, I'm sure your mammogram will be fine. I read somewhere that we have a 1% chance of getting a 'suspicious' mammogram, so you have a 99% chance of having a good one! Me, I just seem to beat the odds, but only when it comes to cancer. I don't seem to beat the odds when it comes to lottery tickets.
-
Nihahi, last night I had.................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Potatoes!!!!!
-
If this biopsy comes back with cancerous cells, will they send me for the CAT scan and bone scan thing all over again?
-
benny.....can't answer the scan questions. But I CAN offer an opinion on your food intake.....SUCKS BIG TIME, GIRL!!!!!!!!! God gave you a brain....start using it to feed yourself better!!!!!! (mother hen rant now done)!
Where would you like to meet up???? I have to be in the Shawnessy area for a 4:00 appointment.....I'm thinking a Tim Horton's somewhere between you and that part of town???? Timmies has their pumpkin muffins again....my achilles heel!!!! -
Shawnessy.... is that SE? SW? I am NW but will likely head out to see the giant plush toy after. I can meet anywhere there's a big enough parking lot that people don't bang the doors of my truck! (just kidding, I can park across the street and walk)
-
Okay, I figured out what the problem is. The 'EDIT' button does not work. Anyone else have that problem?
-
Shawnessy is deep SW......which direction do you head to visit the farm? -
The farm is NE
-
hmm....nothing very central for either of us..........would you be willing to meet at the Tim's in Westhills (off of Sarcee Trail)? Traffic shouldn't be too bad for either of us in the early afternoon, and we could both be on our way before rush hour????
Or....another option if you want to "walk and talk" is to meet at North Glenmore park, and walk along the reservoir pathway??? After sitting for 15 hours on Monday....I might be slightly frantic to be outside and moving!!!
Today....thou shalt eat some protein with each meal, some fruit and some veggies.....thou shalt not fill your face with carbs!!!!!!! -
Nihahi and Benny - there is a Tim's on 58th Avenue just off Blackfoot Trail, also one closer up towards Shaw GMC on Blackfoot that might be more convenient to going NE and back to Okotoks than Westhills, maybe not as classy though
Benny - good to hear report from your surgeon, is the biopsy under anesthesia? I have another mammo booked for January due to an 8 mm cluster of microcalcifications seen on June mammo, my GP is pushing for mastectomy on that side also, I've had a previous lumpectomy that side already that was atypical ductal hyperplasia. I will wait until after this next mammo, if there is a change in the calcifications for the worse, I may consider the mastectomy. It is hard to have the continual scares.
Edi - sounds like a nice relaxing day, I'd take Nihahi's offer of some of her km's
Liefie and Movie - your weekend together with your DH's sounds wonderful
I am staying close to home today to try to get some more paperwork things sorted out before my work week. We had GD and her parents here yesterday as well as some other friends with their 11 month old GS. Really nice visit - GD is rolling herself over and pushing up on her elbows, also laughing and doing lots of vocalizing. The 11 month old was quite intrigued with her.
Greetings to everyone else, staying in pockets of all having procedures in the next few weeks. Tomorrow is another MUGA scan for me first thing in a.m., still working on trying to get 'de-ported', they don't seem to be in any hurry
Take care -
Benny - you are right, the edit button is not working -
I remember the Blackfoot Trail timmies....the one at 58th......Works for me....how about you Benny????
websister....glad to hear you are staying on top of the mammo checks.....not an easy thing, though, for sure, knowing there are "changes", and trying to decide the best way to move forward. Hope the paperwork doesn't keep you inside the entire day....maybe a leisurely stroll around the block????
movie and liefie should be saying their goodbyes by now, if not already.....We'll just have to keep finding ways to rendezvous, ladies!!!!
morwenna.....hope the weekend in Canmore has been wonderful for you.
momof2......thinking of you.....sewing away.....moving forward.....((((((X))))))
hmmm....nope, I can edit.....but I can't post a message from my phone anymore..... -
The weekend was lovely. We went to Johnston Canyon yesterday, intending to make it to the inkpots, as Al hadn't been there yet, but the last part of the descent was slippery with snow and ice, and although I had joked about needing my yaktraks, I didn't end up packing them, so we decided to turn back.
That was a bit disappointing as we had all the sore bits from walking that far minus the satisfaction of getting there, but we consoled ourselves with the thought of a soak in the hot springs pool at Banff. Unfortunately, we found it was closed for maintenance, so we decided to drive the Minnewanka loop before heading home.
Somebody at the recovery group had told me that the First Nations considered it a highly spiritual and holy place, and that if you stood barefoot by the lakeside it was a great way to "ground" yourself. So we found a beautiful sunlit promontory, and much to Alan's amusement I removed my shoes, and standing barefoot on the rock I managed to sustain the "tree pose" long enough for him to grab a photo as we laughed together.
Then I turned and gazed at the lake, mountains, trees and sky and tears filled my eyes, the beauty was quite overwhelming. Just then I noticed something tied to a low bush, less than a yard away. It was a memorial to a young woman who had died the previous year, in her 30's. Now, it didn't explain how she had died, but I suddenly was overwhelmed with grief for all the women (including myself) who have to go through this, and for lives cut short, dreams unfulfilled. I stood and wept on that shoreline in the arms of my DH.
After a while my storm had passed, but nature's threatened, so we walked back to the car, and drove home, stopping for a fish'n chips supper. A long hot bath for each of us before bed, and we both slept really well. Photo of Al by the lake. My tree pose is on the camera!
-
Morwenna,
Beautiful picture. It looks so serene. Hope to see your tree picture posted soon :-) your story brought tears to my eyes. -
morwenna.....It seems impossible now, but as time passes for you, you will have less tears, and more and more happy memories to take their place. Keep looking forward, as often as you can, accept the moments you can't, and be proud of what you have come through.(((X))) -
Made me cry too, Morwenna. Lovely picture and story.
Nihahi, I can do the Blackfoot Timmies. I am miffed right now because I'm in the middle of a plumbing crisis (which I can't afford) and can't get a plumber out here til . And it's a beautiful day and here I sit, waiting for a plumber
-
til 5. (edit not working, but I know I put a 5 in there)
-
benny.....Timmies at Blackfoot and 58th it is.....does about 1:30 work for you???? I can hang out until 3:00...then need to get down to Shawnessy.
Sorry about the plumbing crisis....those things NEVER happen at a convenient time...can you at least sit outside in the yard??? Maybe it's karma's way of giving you something other than bc to think about! Just think what a lovely, nutritious supper you can be planning/cooking while you wait!
Categories
- All Categories
- 679 Advocacy and Fund-Raising
- 289 Advocacy
- 68 I've Donated to Breastcancer.org in honor of....
- Test
- 322 Walks, Runs and Fundraising Events for Breastcancer.org
- 5.6K Community Connections
- 282 Middle Age 40-60(ish) Years Old With Breast Cancer
- 53 Australians and New Zealanders Affected by Breast Cancer
- 208 Black Women or Men With Breast Cancer
- 684 Canadians Affected by Breast Cancer
- 1.5K Caring for Someone with Breast cancer
- 455 Caring for Someone with Stage IV or Mets
- 260 High Risk of Recurrence or Second Breast Cancer
- 22 International, Non-English Speakers With Breast Cancer
- 16 Latinas/Hispanics With Breast Cancer
- 189 LGBTQA+ With Breast Cancer
- 152 May Their Memory Live On
- 85 Member Matchup & Virtual Support Meetups
- 375 Members by Location
- 291 Older Than 60 Years Old With Breast Cancer
- 177 Singles With Breast Cancer
- 869 Young With Breast Cancer
- 50.4K Connecting With Others Who Have a Similar Diagnosis
- 204 Breast Cancer with Another Diagnosis or Comorbidity
- 4K DCIS (Ductal Carcinoma In Situ)
- 79 DCIS plus HER2-positive Microinvasion
- 529 Genetic Testing
- 2.2K HER2+ (Positive) Breast Cancer
- 1.5K IBC (Inflammatory Breast Cancer)
- 3.4K IDC (Invasive Ductal Carcinoma)
- 1.5K ILC (Invasive Lobular Carcinoma)
- 999 Just Diagnosed With a Recurrence or Metastasis
- 652 LCIS (Lobular Carcinoma In Situ)
- 193 Less Common Types of Breast Cancer
- 252 Male Breast Cancer
- 86 Mixed Type Breast Cancer
- 3.1K Not Diagnosed With a Recurrence or Metastases but Concerned
- 189 Palliative Therapy/Hospice Care
- 488 Second or Third Breast Cancer
- 1.2K Stage I Breast Cancer
- 313 Stage II Breast Cancer
- 3.8K Stage III Breast Cancer
- 2.5K Triple-Negative Breast Cancer
- 13.1K Day-to-Day Matters
- 132 All things COVID-19 or coronavirus
- 87 BCO Free-Cycle: Give or Trade Items Related to Breast Cancer
- 5.9K Clinical Trials, Research News, Podcasts, and Study Results
- 86 Coping with Holidays, Special Days and Anniversaries
- 828 Employment, Insurance, and Other Financial Issues
- 101 Family and Family Planning Matters
- Family Issues for Those Who Have Breast Cancer
- 26 Furry friends
- 1.8K Humor and Games
- 1.6K Mental Health: Because Cancer Doesn't Just Affect Your Breasts
- 706 Recipe Swap for Healthy Living
- 704 Recommend Your Resources
- 171 Sex & Relationship Matters
- 9 The Political Corner
- 874 Working on Your Fitness
- 4.5K Moving On & Finding Inspiration After Breast Cancer
- 394 Bonded by Breast Cancer
- 3.1K Life After Breast Cancer
- 806 Prayers and Spiritual Support
- 285 Who or What Inspires You?
- 28.7K Not Diagnosed But Concerned
- 1K Benign Breast Conditions
- 2.3K High Risk for Breast Cancer
- 18K Not Diagnosed But Worried
- 7.4K Waiting for Test Results
- 603 Site News and Announcements
- 560 Comments, Suggestions, Feature Requests
- 39 Mod Announcements, Breastcancer.org News, Blog Entries, Podcasts
- 4 Survey, Interview and Participant Requests: Need your Help!
- 61.9K Tests, Treatments & Side Effects
- 586 Alternative Medicine
- 255 Bone Health and Bone Loss
- 11.4K Breast Reconstruction
- 7.9K Chemotherapy - Before, During, and After
- 2.7K Complementary and Holistic Medicine and Treatment
- 775 Diagnosed and Waiting for Test Results
- 7.8K Hormonal Therapy - Before, During, and After
- 50 Immunotherapy - Before, During, and After
- 7.4K Just Diagnosed
- 1.4K Living Without Reconstruction After a Mastectomy
- 5.2K Lymphedema
- 3.6K Managing Side Effects of Breast Cancer and Its Treatment
- 591 Pain
- 3.9K Radiation Therapy - Before, During, and After
- 8.4K Surgery - Before, During, and After
- 109 Welcome to Breastcancer.org
- 98 Acknowledging and honoring our Community
- 11 Info & Resources for New Patients & Members From the Team