Chemo May 2013

Kerri congratulations. So happy for you. Now you can exhale.

Elkatho pepcid really helped me. But I don't know if it's stronger or weaker than prilosec. Glaf your rads are going fine so far. Gives me hope. Know the feeling. Sometimes I want to say F u AND go cry. Or cry and saw F u at the same time.

Lorrie good luck on your first zap. In fact good luck with all the zaps.

Gosh Pat never knew twins could be such opposites. I don't like that you have that meanness and negativity in your life.

Lisa so sorry your hubby suffers from daily pain. I feel badley for those in cronic pain and for their mates. It's difficult to see your loved one in pain on a daily basis.

Teresa glad you are feeling better.

Kate that is so sad about your friend. I couldn't imagine. It's a living nightmare.



A feel good day to all.



Carla

Lorrie...My Dr gave me the aquaphor. It is a little difficult to apply because it is thick but I put some in my hands then apply. I think it "heats" it up a bit. It can discolor you clothes. I have only noticed it on my bra but I plan on going for a fitting and buying new bras when this all done so I do not care. I was also told to only use dove for sensitive body wash on the area and Tom's of Maine deodorant. I found this at walgreens. No wash clothes or sponges on the area. I am a little tired but do not notice until the evening. For me it takes longer to change than zapped. Good luck.

No zap today... Hour and a half of mapping & still not finished. I go back tomorrow to finish and get my first zap.

The techs are so nice there. The male tech wiped my tears as I had to stay in position holding the handlebar and couldn't wipe my own. And they try to keep you covered as much as possible. I told them not to worry about my modesty anymore, that "my boobs have seen more action in the past 6 months, than in my life".... They just laughed...



Got my schedule of 33. I'm kind of bummed that half of them are 6-730pm... It would have been nice to swing by the hospital on my way home from work... Oh well, just another inconvenience.. But it looks like oct 29 is my last one & I'm DONE with everything except taking a daily pill. Hopefully ill have some hair before the holidays

come. This years pictures will be different.... LOL



Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday! & sat, I get to help my oldest set up for her first annual harvest feast... (just a party with food & booz)... She says she wants me to help so she can have a couple early cocktails with just her mama.. ... Love that kid!



It's been nice to see this group suffering less & less & not going through chemo anymore! We kicked that part, right....?



Lorrie

Wait... I counted one week twice! I'm only doing 28! WooHoo!



Have a great rime at the beach Lisa!

Maybe we should rename thisgroup ....if it 's not cancer it's another thing.



Lorrie sorry you have to deal with your mom on top of everything else. Hopefully your sister will help.



Lisa

Lorrie,

I will send the evil twin to help your evil mother.

Oh wait, sorry, she can't help anyone but herself.

I wonder what would happen if you didn't help her? Would the state appoint someone?

Sucks you are left holding the bag. Whatever you do don't sign anything that you will be financially responsible.

Congrats on the rads. I'm loving they end in October for you...doesn't sound as long as November would sound!

That burst of physical energy is amazing isn't it! Don't go crazy now. Expect that you will still have some "I'm f'n tired" moments...warn DH now....and even if you don't have those moments pull one every now and again....because you can!

I'm sure that treadmill is all revved up and ready to go after your dirty talk, be gentle.



Lisa, I bet September is great at the beach. Hope the weather cooperates for you.



Deb, I will be thinking of you on October 1. I wish the same for you...smooth sailing, quick and pain free healing.

One step closer to being done with this ordeal.

Pat

Lorrie never apologize. This is a safe place to vent about whatever crap is going on. I was attempting to be humorous because so many of us have stressers besides cancer. I apologize if it fell flat.



Lisa

And I really wish there was a "like" button on these boards...because then maybe I wouldn't talk so much! Lol



Pat

Lorrie,

Was thinking of your unfavorable rads time.

Is there a "wait list" for earlier slots? I would imagine there ar e people having a final day of rads all the time...not like everyone starts on the same day!.....so there might be a better time for you that opens?

Time to buy flowers or bake a cake for the receptionist and have her look into that!



Lisa,

I don't watch much of TV, but I have seen some of Robins story. She is so inspirational. I love that she shares her story. I am sure she has helped many people. 1 year already!





Pat

Happy Birthday to Aunt Lilly!

I had a wonderful neighbor who lived to be 104. Her husband had passed away and they had no children - but everyone in the neighborhood loved Franny. On her 100th birthday, we rented a limo and rode around town with her to visit all of her friends that she hadn't been able to see in a while. Drank champagne too! She had a fabulous time....

Annie

Oh Annie. How touching. I could just imagine how happy Franny was being in that limo with such loving friends and visiting her other friends. What a glorious memory for you.



Carla

Thanks Lorrie. My legs and arms hurt because I've been staying busy being productive. But no fatigue. Guess I ought to slow down so that it won't suddenly turn into fatigue.



I hope when I get older that I have a memory to tell any stories from my past. Lol.

Wow... The thread is quiet today... That's actually good news! It means we are feeling well, I hope and busy enjoying life!



Went to my oldest 's harvest feast tonight and my DH, with good intentions, pissed off my sister by butting into my "mom" business and telling her that it shouldn't be left up to me and she should be helping me with it. My sis got pissed off and grabbed her hubby and son and stormed out of the party. I didn't even know what was going on until after they left. My DH probably was pushy about it. He said he was just trying to help me out, but my sis and i both can be bitchy (one of the things I love about her) & I can understand her not appreciating his lack of tact.... Now I've got more drama.... I love my sis. She's my best friend & I understand her reluctance with regards to our mother.... I also love my hubby and understand his wanting to try to take some burden off me. Argh!



Now my hubby is mad at my sis, for the first time in over 20 years, & it puts me in a really awkward feeling place..... The hour long ride home was really quiet & I just kept telling him not to "stew"



For the first time I wanted to tell them, "stop!" "Let's talk about cancer".....LOL, just to change the subject.



Oh we'll.... Ill give it a day or so and apologize for whatever my DH said..... Even though I still have no idea what actually happened. I was busy talking about fantacy football with my BIL.... i just don't need anything else right now.... Not yet! I need to handle things with the mother & finish rads & then... We can all live happily ever after! Haha



Energy is still good! Helped my DD prepare for her party. It was lovely & I'm so proud of her. It may be in my head because I've only had one zap, but I'm feeling my incision sites. I wouldn't say pain.... Just a twinge every now and then. I'm trying to remember if I've felt it recently (before starting radiation) but can't remember. I think it's just in my head right now & I've felt it all along. Maybe I was just use to it before and now I'm focusing on it.... Agh.. I'm gonna be a wreck over rads too! Haha



Anyway.... I hope everyone has a great day of FOOTBALL tomorrow! I'm gonna! Nothin planned but RELAXATUON! (And maybe a little laundry... )



Lorrie

Lorrie,

We ARE all going to live happily ever after right?! (I keep praying that for all people)

Sounds like you are close to your sister- I'm sure it will work out. Hubby trying to protect you is so cool - he probably doesn't need the added stress either!



Had my SIL sleepover with her girls. I feel so bad for her. She is so stressed...work, the kids, her husband (hubby's brother-cut from the same cloth! Lol). I often wish we could all go back to "simpler" times...did they have as much stress?

Her kids were up at 6:00am, pat will not be a happy camper today! Taking my Girl Scouts Geocaching for 4 hours. I imagine an early bedtime for me, my kids better be on their best behavior today because I will be cranky! (Just saying that means it won't happen-right?)



This time next week I will be waking up in New Orleans (or even better, sleeping in!).

I'm sure this week is going to fly by. So much to do so little time and not enough closets to shove all the junk into....this house will be cleaned and organized one way or the other.before I leave damn it.



And my only serious down thoughts...what if I don't make it through this surgery.

I keep pushing it out of my mind, but....you never know. It's really not a heavy duty anesthesia so that shouldn't be an issue. I think hubby pushing the wedding has sparked that dark side thinking even more. So am I cleaning my house so when I come home from surgery I won't be looking at all the shit I need to do, or am I cleaning so that if I die and people drop and they will find it clean ?(at which point i wouldnt freakin care!)

Then again, when I survive this surgery the recovery is so long and i will be miserable that i might wish I were dead? (Yes, not nice to say, but looking for some humor!)



Sigh,

Time to clean, then go make some happy Girl Scout memories.

Pat

Pat,

I think we've all thought of our own mortality a bit more... But we are gonna be just fine. I refuse to believe that I've gone through all this to get better for nothin!



We are all paying our dues this year for a long & drama filled life, haha!