Thinking Out Loud.....

(((((((((((((((((((Sheila))))))))))))))))))))))))

Glad you had positive test results!

Heading out on vaca.  Miss you all!

Sheila, you will always have all of us to lean on. 

Sheila.....understand completely, but guess what.....my kids all live within 5 to 15 minutes from me, trust me the path to my front door is not warn own.........the only consolation of them being close I.....you know if need be they are not a plane ride or 5 hour car ride away.........



Emergencies...they are great......just a "hey Mom, how the hell are you"..,,..hell know.......bet you talk to your kids who are far away more then I talk to mine, just up the highway.......so close does not always men a visit........sometimes I think lose by means.......hey Mom will always be there....till it's too late.......

Ok Sheila hope you read through my typo's.....good heavens.....either that or I have to ditch friggin spellcheck...

(((((((((((Sheila))))))))))

Miss you.

Feel betta.

Eat some Carvel...it's a feel good food.

Xoxoxoxo k

Please stay with us...you no we are here for you...Always.

Where is Val???? She always has the right words.

Sheila down too...too bad we don't live close we could tell each other our own stories, and have our own pity party......



Just tired of being tired, achy, not able to keep up, so of course you don't get asked, and 6 friggin kids and 1 could not ask you for dinner..........gonna stop being there for everyone when they need something, and think of "ME" first.......... Like I said.......the path to my front dooris not worn down from use........



Just need to pull myself together, and get out of this black hole........plus this is always a bad time....it was this time in August when my husband was dying, and finally lost the battle on Sept 2nd...........so that is not helping.........oh wells shit happens...........

Thanks Christ.......probably need a kick in the ass to get me going.......NOW WHERE DID I PUT THOSE BIG GIRL PANTIES.........

Love ya honey bun...........one day.....

It's very humid today

I refilled my RX's

Did some healthy food shopping

My house is a mess...dishes in the sink from last night etc....Shame on me

Hugs

I did few windows about 2 months ago the rest are foggy...the ones i did they are already dirty

I have to collect myself...can't live like this

I should be thankful that my health is fine and continue to be

Meanwhile I throw myself from one couch to another

Oh Ducky...we have to put our acts together

MH is making me a statue and don't like it  

I see u shells checkin in on us

Sooo you do windows right?

Ill get on line after you do Sheila's and Duckys

When r u comin?

I got a new name from Ducky

It's now gonna be firecracker

Grannydukes is getting old

Ill be back

Firecracker

Hi TOL
I can't say I am letting myself slide down into the pit just yet; I have been so busy helping DD get her move accomplished and am spending as much time as possible with the little ones (5,2).  The farewell bash was over the top...a huge bounce house in the yard with slide and basketball and obstacles...kids had a blast.  I kept busy and when people said it must be hard for me, I got tears but said I wouldn't think about it on party day.
So now I am up at 4 AM - can't sleep - afraid to lie down in the dark because my mind takes over. But I have to work tomorrow and shop for DH's BD (just us, no family around).  He is impossible to buy for.

Sheila, I know how hard it is to get out when you feel so physically immobile. I try to walk on the beach but the other day I just needed to "sit" and rest more...I hope you will try to get outside.
Ducky, you are so right about distance not always a factor...heck, I did not do much better by my own Mom when she was alone...about an hour away and I was all wrapped up in my kids and life.  I am glad you got to the shore this summer even if you did not keep up with everyone...I'd like to see you get more respect, but we can't demand it.  You won't regret the things you do and try to do...only what you don't do.  So hang in there...you are quite amazing.  I know these memory dates are hard...I have a few myself in the summer...my infant son, my mom...but when you relive those days in your mind, you keep the memory alive.  Hugs...

Chris, I am a person who needs a lot of down time after stress...I understand.  My house is in chaos and I sporadically straighten it up when needed.  Since working full time, things lie undone for a long time.  Don't be hard on yourself; accept how you are.  Take it from there...energy gets wasted on feeling badly. 

Hi Linda, Diane, Val, Granny, Shell...Sandy, hope you are reading....miss you.

My feeling is expect nothing, and when it happens to you, you won't be disappointed.....now all I have to do is practice what I preach....

Today is the 1st day of school for DS.  All of a sudden there was a commotion.  "D"H all of a sudden said, "Jesus Christ, DS..."  DS goes, "What!"  DS is thinking the only thing he could be yelling about is that it's late - but it wasn't late. So then "D"H says - there's a frog!   It must have been a toad - but he calls them frogs.  Somehow, there was a toad in our upstairs hallway.  He was on the small side - and was trying to hop onto the wall...not sure if he had sticky feet and would have been able to do it.  Too bad DD wasn't here (she misses all the wildlife things - like the bat on our front door last year) 

So I had to catch it and DS opened the door for me so I could put it outside.  I don't know if "D"H afraid of toads or what - that was kind of a weird reaction (though he usually gets pissed when he is startled-but why said DS's name - like it was his fault it was in the house)- and he didn't pick it up himself- he said -one of you catch it and one of you open the door.  My hero.   lol

We used to have toads in our backyard because of our pool when I was a kid.  They liked to live under our filter.  One year there was a big, fat toad living there and it had babies.  We had little toads hopping around in the grass.  I used to like to play with them.  My mother used to hate it when I would come in the house with my hands cupped closed - she never knew what I had - and was sure she didn't want it in the house.  lol.  DD used to like to catch toads - not sure she catches them anymore once one "peed" on her when she picked it up. 

Not sure how it got in the house - and ended up upstairs.       

"D"H HATES snakes.  If we had rattlesnakes around here (there are some in the next town over across the river, but not so many around here), we would probably own a gun for just that purpose.  "D"H horrified the neighbor boy one day when there was a snake (a garter snake most likely) in our garage - "D"H grabbed a shovel and whacked at it until he ended up chopping it into 3 pieces.  So, I'm not sure what his deal was with the toad - didn't want to be bothered?  Didn't have a shovel handy? 

Heyyyy...maybe I can get DH to clean up our hoarder garage by suggesting that we could have snakes living in there and we don't even know it...    We had a toad in our house - who KNOWS what's in the garage...