Finally cried.....frustrated and angry now

purple87
purple87 Member Posts: 105
edited June 2014 in ILC (Invasive Lobular Carcinoma)

I am 4 wks post op from a DMX with lymph nodes removal and TE. I thought everything was good until the tape was removed from my incisions. We found my skin had died and I had a bad infection in both breasts. I was admitted back into the hospital and scheduled for surgery. PS tood TE out, irrigated and debris the breast areas before closing me back up. I stayed in the hospital for 4 days. I never cried anytime thru this whole process but today I can't seem to stop. I'm frustrated and angry. Thanks for letting me vent...I know if anyone understands its all of you. I pray for healing and comfort for each of you

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  • Momine
    Momine Member Posts: 7,859
    edited July 2013

    I am so sorry you had to go through that. Unfortunately it is not that unusual to have complications in connection with recon.

    Let yourself be angry and upset to get it out of your system. Then let yourself heal, physically and otherwise. 

    Once you are well again, you can consider giving it another try, if you still want to.

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  • Ariom
    Ariom Member Posts: 6,197
    edited July 2013

    Purple, I am so sorry to hear what you have been through. I can imagine how frustrated and upset you must be. I really feel for you.

    As Momine says, let yourself be angry, and let it all out. You've been through a lot in a short time. I do hope you are healing well and you can look at continuing with the recostruction a little later.

    Be kind to yourself, and take it easy, let us know how you re doing! 

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited July 2013

    You are entitled to cry, be angry, whatever you need to do.  Know that it will all be okay in the end, promise.

    Claire

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  • purple87
    purple87 Member Posts: 105
    edited July 2013

    Thank you ladies for your comments. I know I'm not the first person who is going thru this journey. I'm trying to stay strong and look at the positive side. I am alive and I will bet this. Its nice to know I can come here to vent and know that I have support from people who know what I'm going thru. Peace and comfort to you all.

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  • jnprsn
    jnprsn Member Posts: 151
    edited July 2013

    Hi purple 87

    I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I'd be sad and angry too. Its hard enough going through the surgery without having to stop and go backwards. Cry. Its a natural anti-anxiety. Get angry. I certainly have. In the end everything will work out. :)

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited July 2013

    Don't worry about staying strong. You ARE strong already, and crying is a form of strength as well. Hugs/Claire

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  • Cubagirl55
    Cubagirl55 Member Posts: 3
    edited July 2013

    Wow, my prayers are with you. more than anything for healing peace and acceptance. This whole process is absolutely crazy and emotionally draining. I was diagnosed with DCIS stage 0 I was so sad, and would cry and not even know why, yet I was thankful that I caught it before it was invasive. had the lumpectomy on 6/20 and although I wasnt looking forward to radiation I was prepared to get on with my life. Slam on the brakes, it's now stage 1 invasive and have to have mastectomy as well as Lymph node dissection.Praying for clean nodes. It just never seems to end. Sending prayers that you heal and you never have to see cancer again. Hang in there !!!!

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